…please excuse yourself
Episode- 281 ...please excuse yourself
** Celeste''s POV**:
Next day,
I woke up with the
sharp sun rays..... I sat up on the bed realizing he didn''t returned to bed or
me.... now I feel more left out.
I decided this time,
if I be a coward then I will make thingsplicated in between me and him... he
is the only person I love and he is my husband..... I can''t be away from him....
when.... I didn''t considered how he felt all this time... maybe it was harder for
him to choose between me and the baby... and hard for him to stay intact after
the miscarriage and when I abandon him in my pain and now ming him when he is doing all of this
for myself....
I got really and
searched around when I noticed he was not on the top floor, I walked
downstairs.... But I didn''t found him anywhere.... But I kept looking, till I came across the gym
they have here.
It''s on the other
end, I opened the door and I saw him punching the punching bag. He is sweating
and shirtless, but clearly noticed the anger and distress.
He ignored my steps
and kept up with his workout... it''s not workout... it''s torture for the equipment...
and maybe himself...
I whispered,
"Ernest...." His movements stopped for a second but he ignored me...
I said again,
"Ernest.... I... want.. to.."
He asked, "Are you done
with your privacy?.... wait... you don''t need me.... and I need some privacy now...
please excuse yourself..." I looked as his back stunned, somehow I feel like
crying... it feels really bad when someone says that to you... and what right do I
have to cry over this... I said that to him yesterday... worst than this....
I walked in the door
opening it, I don''t want to fire the anger more... but I do turned at him and
said, "Ernest... sorry for yesterday...." I walked out of there closing the door,
as I walked through the corridor I wiped my tears.
I somehow made it to
the outer sitting area, I noticed a picture on the wall, the King and Queen....
They look younger here... way younger.... They look so perfect...
I wanted me and
Ernest to be like them... but I ruined it myself. I sat on the swing looking at
the waves at distance.... It''s beautiful and peaceful but disturbing.... Weirdly
disturbing...
My inside is mess, I
wiped my tears..... after like 10 minutes, I felt the swing movement as someone sat beside me, I know
it''s Ernest.
He was drinking water,
but I didn''t bothered to look at him. I noticed he threw the bottle on nearby
sofa, we didn''t speak anything, just looked at the sea. I felt him holding my
hand, somehow this manforts me.... he knows me very well... and I get amused my
his behavior every time.N?velDrama.Org owns this.
After few more
minutes of silence, I said, "I am sorry for yesterday..... I know it''s not your
fault... but I really don''t know what took over my head... I lost it... I am such an
idiot..."
I looked at him,
while he was looking at the sea. I said, "I know... you don''t deserve what I
said... I am sorry I hurt you... but the truth is, I am never ok... I feel like dying
when you are not around me... I need you the most in my life... I love you..." I was
in tears...
He looked at me, and
pulled my head into his chest. He whispered, "I need you more... don''t cry now... I
am sorry, I was rude earlier..." I hugged him as he kissed my head.
I whispered, "You
have right to be angry too... I made mistake...."
He chuckled and said,
"Now... stop this...let''s have breakfast... I know you didn''t eat wellst night...
you need nutrition..." he was hugging me tighter..
I said, "You stink...."
He looked at me as we parted, he said, "hu?"
I said, "You are
sweaty.. it stinks..." he chuckled and said, "you can''t quit being naughty but
you are forgiven since you are talking to me like always.. remember I get
worried when I don''t hear you.... never do that again.." I nodded.
Ernest wiped my tears
and said, "smile,ugh... nag at me but don''t be the way you were for few day..
promise?" I nodded and whispered, "Promise.." he smiled and said, "Love, now... I
want you rest... I might need a shower... I will be back.... And we can have
breakfast.. and I will cook it for you..." he got up.
But Iined,
"You suck at cooking... I am surest night the dinner was not made by you..." he
looked away scratching his head and said, "then wait for me.. and teach me to
cook..." I smiled at him, he leaned to kiss my lips lightly. He said, "You are
beautiful... smile more..." how much he loves me... answer is more than himself.. and
I love him more than myself.