chapter 47


    As the days continue to pass by, I''m still lost in this world. I lie in this hospital bed, I don''t talk, I don''t


    move. I don''t want anything to do with anyone. As the doctor and nurses speak, I do not listen. I''m not


    interested in what they are saying. I do not care about my healing. I will heal repeatedly if I choose to or


    not. I heard one of them say that Ivan ising to take me back to his house. I''m scared I don''t want to


    stay with him. I cringe at the thought of staying with him.


    As I stare outside, wishing I could fly like the birds. I haven''t even really stood up from this bed. I hate


    that I feel so sorry for myself. I need to take control of my life. So, I decided since I am alone, I''m going


    to try to get up and take a shower. As I unplug the bed rm, so they cannot hear me stand up. I have


    no trouble as I make it to the bathroom. Surprised that my legs aren''t shaking, but strong.


    I shut the bathroom door and I lock it so no one cane in. I don''t want to be bothered, I just want to


    be alone. As I turn the water on, I watch as the steam fills around me. I take off my hospital gown and


    step into the hot water. I let it pour over my broken body that doesn''t even have a bruise.


    I hear a knock at the door, but I pay it no mind. I can hear them shouting my name, but the water feels


    too good. I just ignore them, not caring who it is. It''s been a little while since I''ve taken a shower. I don''t


    want it to end. As I hear the door open, I am surprised it took them this long to get the key. I know that


    it''s no one other than Ivan. He would never allow anyone else toe in knowing I was undressed.


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    I get nervous as I hear the door then shut. As the shower curtain opens, I have no other choice but to


    face what ising. That''s when I see Sam. I am so excited to see him; I wrap my arms around him.


    Getting him all wet, but he doesn''t mind as he wraps his arms around me and hugs me back.


    He looks at me and says, “Lilly, I can''t stay long, but I wanted to let you know I''m here. I will get you out


    of here, I promise you. I''m so sorry for what Ivan has done to you.”


    “Sam, how am I ever going to survive all that he has done to me, it''s hard enough for me to even want


    to wake up.”


    “Lilly, just please hang in there I will get you out of here just give me time, but I have to go, I''ll see you


    soon.”


    As I watch him walk out the door, I feel sad not being able to go with him now and escape. I get back to


    my shower as there is no shampoo or soap. Damn it, I can''t wash myself so instead. I just enjoy the


    water. I hear the door open again. Hoping it''s Sam, and he forgot something, but when the shower


    curtain swings open I see Ivan, I go to cover myself.


    “No need to cover yourself. You have a beautiful body. Why don''t I join you.”


    As he starts to remove his clothes, I jump out, trying to get away from him. I go to run out of the


    bathroom, but he then grabs a hold of me. “Where do you think you''re going, Lilly, the fun is just getting


    ready to start?”


    As I used to get pleasure from his touch, but now, it''s only fear. I shrug him off as I get out of his grip. I


    try once again to escape him and I go to step out of the shower as I try to leave the bathroom he then


    roughly grabs a hold of me before my hand even touches the door handle. He then forces me back into


    the shower with him. As my body begins to shake with fear, knowing what is about to take ce, and


    I''m not wanting any part in it.


    Ivan looks at me with evil eyes that frightened me. He puts my backup against the shower wall. “Now,


    Lilly, tell me what you want me to do to you. If you do not answer me, I''ll make sure it is unpleasant for


    you.”


    I want to scream out now, but I don''t. I don''t want to give him the satisfaction of any control over me. As


    I try to push him off of me, he doesn''t budge. He continues to kiss my neck. I can feel his cock


    bing hard. I be scared, and then I do that unthinkable as I raised my knee and I knee him as


    hard as I can in the grin. As he falls to his knees, I take advantage of the opportunity and run out of the


    shower.


    As I go to shut the bathroom door, he catches it. His strength is too much, especially with me not taking


    care of myself I really don''t have any. “You stupid fucking bitch. You are going to pay for that.”


    As he walks over to the door of my room, I see him lock it. There''s nowhere for me to go. I want to fight


    back. I will do what I have to for him to know I want nothing from him. As he''s walking towards me, I


    back up to where there is nowhere else to back up to. The wall is what stops me, and he is getting


    closer.


    As I turn I see the window, what time is better than right now to try to fly with the birds. I pick a chair up,


    and I turn, and I run towards the window as fast as I can. I can hear Ivan scream no, but I don''t care to


    listen to him. As I break through the window I can feel the ss slicing through my skin. The pain isn''t


    like normal, it feels amazing.


    As I''m falling I feel so free, almost invincible that nothing can hurt me. Excited about hitting the ground,


    knowing in a sense that I''m better off hoping it takes me a while to heal this time, so I have enough time


    to figure out what the hell I''m going to do. Right before I hit the ground, I shut my eyes.