Chapter 58
Chapter Fifty–Eight
‘So handsome,‘ I thought to myself as I watched Cai sleeping next to me.
I wasn‘t sure how long I‘d slept for but I‘d woken up to find him by my side. He looked so peaceful; his
hair had tousled into a mess as his chest softly rose and fell. I could have watched him for hours.
I lost track of time as I recounted the events that had transpired the evening prior but soon Cai stirred
next to me. In his slumber, a strand of hair fell across his face and I couldn‘t help but reach out and
gently brush it away back into ce. It was so silky to touch.
As my eyes drifted back to his face though I froze, realising he was now awake and watching me.
“Morning,” he mumbled sleepily, reaching out to pull me close to him.
Thad fallen asleep in one of his t–shirts but could still feel his warmth through the fabric. If not for the
confusion of his words, I would have melted myself into his touch willingly. But the nagging in my mind
prevented me, forcing me to pick up on the oddity. How could it still be morning when I knew I‘d slept for
a t least a few hours?
“...Morning?” I asked slowly. “How long have I been asleep?”
“Just over a day. You were dead to the world,pletelyatose.”
I tensed up immediately realising that, if that were true, then I‘d disappeared without notice for over an
entire day. Were my parents freaked out? I knew I was exhausted from using that newfound authority but
I hadn‘t realised I‘d be out cold for so long. The tax it took on my body must have been far more severe
than I thought.
I sat up and knew I needed to leave as soon as possible. If they already had people out looking for me
then this was thest ce they should find me.
“Why didn‘t you wake me?!”
I tried to squirm off the bed but he held me back, his arm around my waist.
“Rx! I already handled it all. I told your attendant you were safe but had a rough night and were
staying with a friend.”
I turned back to look at him. “...No one can know I‘m here, Cai.”
With a sleepy sigh andpletely unphased by my stress, he shifted into a sitting position to tighten his
grip on me. “I already figured you‘d say that so I told her to be discreet with the information.”
It took a few seconds to fully process his words but finally, I exhaled in relief knowing that Lucy would
make up an adequate excuse to appease my parents. At least there was no search party out looking for
m
“Come on,” he said, guiding me to lie back down again.
He pulled me up against his chest once more so we were face–to–face and softly kissed my forehead
between my knitted brows. I could already guess what he was thinking.
“You worry too much,” he grumbled, confirming my suspicion.
“You need to take this seriously, Cai,” I said quietly. ‘Do you realise what would happen if word got out?”
“I‘m aware,” he replied, much to my surprise.
“...If you know then why did you pursue me in the first ce? ...Whye back to the Winter Mist?”
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His eyes were serious, a sharpness to them I rarely saw. He was like a different person when he was this
focused, so contrasted to his normally yful manner.
“Because it‘s avoidable,” he said. “The issues are surrounding our positions and Aleric, right? There are
ways around it.”
I looked at him incredulously. If he knew the ramifications of this so well then he was just as insane as m
e for trying to pull this off.
“...Is being with me really worth starting a war, Cai?”
He avoided my eyes as he remained deep in thought. “...Maybe,” he said distantly.
His gaze then softened, his normal demeanour returning. “Maybe... Well, since one of the issues is
because of my future status, then maybe I‘ll just... let it go. Personally, I think I‘ve missed my calling in life
t o be a trophy husband. You can be the breadwinner Beta if you really want.”
Even if he was joking, I still stared at him in disbelief. He really was mental.
“Cai, you can‘t just abandon your pack like that.”
“Being an Alpha seems overrated but okay, sure,” he said, not even trying to hide his smirk anymore.
“But who said I‘d want you as my Luna anyway? You‘d probably be terrible at it. Only those with *seven
years o f Luna experience need apply for the future entry–level job offered at the Silver Lake pack.
Unfortunately, you‘re one year short of the minimum application requirement, ma‘am.”
I hit his shoulder and started to y fight him much to his amusement. He quickly restrained me within
his arms though,ughing the entire time.
“But in all seriousness,” he said, finally continuing, “it doesn‘t bother me. If it means being with you then
I‘m happy to do whatever, Aria.”
“Then you‘re just as crazy as me,” I replied. “This is literally the worst decision I‘ve ever made and I‘ve
done a lot of dumb shit recently.”
He shrugged. “Possibly, possibly.”
“... really don‘t see a way where we can ever be public–.”
“Shhh,” he said, silencing my lips with a kiss. “Let‘s just enjoy the moment for a second. We have plenty
of time to argue about whether we go public or not. And besides, it‘s not really much of an argument
when I could just....” He started kissing his way up from my chest, along my shoulder... up until I could
feel his warm breath on my neck. “...Do this.”
He licked the side of my neck, the exact spot where a mate mark would go, and a shiver of pleasure
spread throughout my whole body. I could picture it so clearly and knew how amazing it would feel to
wear that mark. It would bring us together in ways no one else would ever be able topare again.
That mark was how matespleted their bond, a requirement for showing fullmitment and
bing one. But a mark had its ownplicated downsides; one of which was that if we were to go
through a mate rejection post–marking, the process would potentially kill us. Our wolves were unlikely to
survive the intense heartache associated with rejection from a mate already fully bonded; a rejection
considered more painful than the death itself.
However, aside from rejection, a mark meant that there could be no other mate until one of the bonded
died. It was unquestionable, final. And whilst the normal death of a mate was painful, it did not mean the
surviving party would die also like during the rejection process.
It meant that my life would be fully tied to Cai and, by extension, his pack; something that Tytus would
want to prevent at all costs... And yet a part of me wanted him to do it. To quell any doubts in my mind
over whether being with Cai was okay because by that point it would be toote. By taking the choice
away, it would free me in a way.
“...Cai,” I moaned out, the internal battle inside me raging as he continued to kiss me along that area of
m y neck. “... Stop that.” It was a weak request.
“Make me,” he replied.
I knew he wouldn‘t actually do it, not here and definitely not today, but the excitement it caused was
involuntary. That feeling of knowing it was so wrong that it made it feel even better; as if tempting fate.
I felt his hand creep up under the fabric of his shirt I wore, working its way along my waist and upwards
towards my chest. These feelings he gave me, this... intense… desire to be close to him, as if he were a
force of nature pulling me in via gravity... It was intoxicating. The more he was near me, the more he
touched me, the more I felt my addiction to him increasing.
And so, when he proceeded to take me just as he had the morning prior, forcing my body to feel
unimaginable highs, I knew I was only falling down a rabbit hole I should have walked away from.
...And yet, when we werepletely exhausted once more, wrapped in each other‘s arms, I couldn‘t
help but want more.
“If you could be anywhere...,” Cai asked softly afterwards, holding me against him, “doing anything at all
right now in a perfect world, where would you be? What would you be doing?”
It was such a strange question. There was no such thing as a perfect world, just one where death was
lurking around every corner.
“...I‘ve never thought about it...,” I said slowly.
“Isn‘t there anything you‘ve always wished you could do but couldn‘t? You‘ve lived two lives but it feels
like you‘ve barely lived for yourself from what you‘ve told me.”
I paused to think. What would I want to be doing...?
And, after another few moments, I knew.
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“... Nothing,” I finally answered. “I would be doing absolutely nothing and have nothing I needed to do. I
would be living as far away as possible from the pack and all associated responsibilities. I would be living
a quiet life where no one knew me or was looking for me... and where I wouldn‘t need to worry about
abandoning the people I care for because there would be no impending doom or warrant over my head
for treason.”
He nodded his head thoughtfully as he took it all in. “Living in a house? Whereabouts?”
I could picture it clearly now, a small smile forming on my lips as I envisioned it. “In the woods. A small
house just big enough for me that no one would find. I‘d be sure to spread rumours of a witch living
theret o scare off any wandering strays who might think toe looking.”
“Just big enough for you? No partner?” he asked, hinting at the fact I hadn‘t included him.
Iughed. “You want to join me in my little cottage? I thought you‘d be too busy in this alternate reality,
living up a more exciting life. Why bother entertaining a forest witch?”
“I could maybe get behind the idea if it meant I got you to myself. In this world maybe no one wille
looking for me too. I don‘t exactly enjoy the responsibilities involved with this life either.”
“...I should probably tell the house nner to build some extra rooms then. I‘ll definitely need the extra
space if it means putting up with you twenty–four seven.”
“If we ever ended up having kids then the extra space is probably a good idea.”
Instantly I felt sick, the unwee reminder assaulting me over something I‘d be uncertain about.
“Cai...,” I started hesitantly, unable to meet his eyes. “I need to tell you... I‘m not sure... ... -” 1
His arms tightened around me and he quickly kissed my forehead to interrupt me. “It‘s okay, you don‘t
need to exin. I already had a feeling based on the things you told me about Thea. There are other
options though if we really wanted... or maybe I‘ll decide not to share you with a bunch of ungrateful
pups.”
I swallowed back at the tears stinging in my eyes before nodding my head, grateful he was so
understanding. But I didn‘t have the heart to tell him yet about my suspicions. Suspicions I‘d been
thinking for a while now regarding a certain dead rogue doctor in a cave. However, if it turned out to be
irrelevant then I didn‘t want to give him false hope prematurely... and besides, it was way too soon to be
thinking of anything like that. We shouldn‘t even be together right now, let alone thinking of possibly
having a family one day.
“What about you…?” I finally asked after a few moments of silence. “If you could be doing anything right
now in a perfect world, what would you be doing?”
“What would I be doing...?” he repeated as he thought. “...You. I‘d be doing you in your little forest
cottage.”
I sighed, tsk–ing at his response. “Not allowed. I want to hear your own answer.”
Heughed for a bit before finally replying. “Hmmm... maybe lounging around on the couch at home
without constantly being interrupted for work. My mum would be cooking one of her amazing meals
whilst my father talked to me about something mundane.”
“Your mum cooks?” I asked, surprised that a Luna would be doing something like that.
“Yes,” he said, chuckling at my reaction. “She enjoys it as a hobby when she‘s not too busy.”
It was smart of her to find an outlet like that given how busy a Luna‘s life could be. My time had always
been spent reading strategies, working, or doing something for Aleric.
“...Sounds like you‘re all really close.”
He nodded. “Extremely. Not just me though, but the entire Silver Lake. We‘re all family there.”
It gave me more understanding as to why Cai retaliated so relentlessly after Aleric killed his father in the
past. He loved him more than just out of respect for being his Alpha. I highly doubted Aleric would have
cared as much if Tytus was killed; their rtionship had alwayse across as very… formal.
But it was information that helped give a good holistic view of the war between Cai and Aleric. Aleric‘s
strength and power had always been his edge in the war, capable of incredible feats that still impressed
m e to this day. And then there was Cai, still pretty strong, but his edge had been in his numbers with the
unwavering support of his pack. The Silver Lake moved as one lethal unit withplete loyalty. With
Cai‘s exnation, it sounded as though Tobias, Cai‘s father, was greatly beloved, aligning that idea of
unquestionable support.
It was Cai‘s greatest weakness in the end though. I had researched their previous battles with the
Winter
d that most of the stalemates urred when the Silver Lake had enough time to prepare and organise
warriors. It was then just a matter of making a n to separate the bulk of the pack from Cai, allowing for
Aleric to finish the job.
I worked out theirmunication route quickly enough and had their encrypted messages intercepted
and decoded within the week. So when they finally had their full attention on a battle we‘d set up as a
diversion, I created a fake letter informing them of an ambush to the west and made sure to give key
information regarding Aleric‘s absence. It forced him to head out with minimal supporting warriors and a
sense of false security... only to be met face–to–face with Aleric waiting for him there, thirsty for victory.
“What are you thinking about?” Cai suddenly asked, snapping me out of my deep thoughts with a jump.
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I stared up with wide eyes to meet his, willing my heart to stop racing from the small scare. ‘Nothing! just
uhh... was just thinking about how easily things change.”
“Are you sure? You look like
He didn‘t finish his sentence though as he abruptly froze up instead, turning his head to the side as it
listening to something.
“What is it–”
“Shhh,” he hushed, continuing to focus. He sat up as he intently listened, poised as if ready to more
It was silent for the longest few seconds of my life before he finally reacted.
“...Fuck,” he hissed as he started looking around the room frantically, searching for something ‘Fuck fuck,
fuck... Aria....”
He turned as if to tell me something but when his eyes finally rested back to meet mine they just
softened instead.
It wasn‘t out of rxation though. No, it felt more like defeat
“...I‘m so sorry, Aria,” was all he said quietly.
““Sorry‘ –? But I didn‘t get to ask him what was happening as the bedroom door then suddenly burst
open and Aleric stood at the doorway.
In the background, I could hear as several other footsteps busily upied the wooden floorboards within
the rest of the house, but it was Aleric who I was most concerned with
He stared at me inplete shock as none of us moved. It was as if time itself was frozen
All until Aleric‘s voice finally spoke out, breaking us all from the spell.
“...Aria?” he asked softly, confused. His words were so quiet it was almost a whisper And instantly, a
waking nightmare ensued.