Chapter 355 Reason


    ''I have been loving such a vicious, heartless man all this time.'' A bitter smirk appeared at the corners of


    her mouth.


    Life had been constantly giving her a whack in the face. Now she was faced again with the reality that


    there was no such thing as a perfect thing or person. These were not a big deal, but it was still


    devastating.


    Jacob looked at her, seemingly in a daze. He was in a rather vtile mood, and he barely managed to


    calm himself down.


    As far as he knew, giving up the child or not was never the point. He always suspected this matter had


    something to do with his past.


    Even if he spent his whole life trying topensate for his wrongdoings, there was no telling that Sara


    would indeed forgive him.


    "Sara, am I really such a bad person to you? I know I did something to hurt you in the past, but I''m


    trying my best to grow as a person. Besides, it''s all in the past now, right?"


    He stretched out both his arms to express his helplessness. But deep inside, he never felt more


    anxious his entire life. He ran out of ideas of what to do, and he couldn''t even figure out what would


    happen in the future.


    Everything seemed to be leading him to the unknown and terrible domain. To stare at the abyss


    terrified him. The worst part was that now he realized his weakness when he decided to love Sara.


    He couldn''t imagine himself losing her. There was no other things in his mind but her. He was willing to


    lose everything else, just not her.


    "Well, I think we all need to calm down. Jacob, it was right that we did not decide to remarry


    immediately. Otherwise, this situation would be a much harder thing to deal with. You''d better solve


    your personal problem first. Otherwise, don''t even think abouting to me."


    She leaned over to pick up her bag from the sofa as those words came out of her mouth. She figured


    there was no need to stay here anymore. There was no way she''de back if he couldn''t solve the


    problem on his own.


    He stared at her with dull eyes. However, he did not bother stopping her in her tracks as she moved to


    walk away.


    As soon as Sara went out and mmed the door, he felt the deafening silence and the abundance of


    space devouring him from the inside.


    He sat there on the sofa, staring into oblivion. He felt like he just lost most of his energy in an instant. It


    only dawned on him that Sara just left without looking back.


    Her reactions were exactly as he had expected. Now that it was all over, he couldn''t help but sigh in


    disappointment.


    James opened the door when there was no more sounding from outside of his bedroom. He swept


    his eyes across the room, vigntly looking at everything.


    He saw Jacob sitting on the sofa, obviously wallowing in pain. Although there was nothing significant


    and noticeable change in the room, he could feel the devastation in Jacob''s eyes.


    James walked over and took two cans of beer out of the fridge. He walked over to settle beside his


    nephew as he handed him the can on his left hand.


    "Come on."


    Jacob only responded with a nce. He stayed silent throughout the time. The enormous sense of


    despair that one could feel in Jacob''s eyes was something James had never seen before. However, he


    could see that his nephew more or less med himself after all those conflicts.


    He must feel the guilt creeping into him like a snake. Although he wasn''t exactly aware of everything


    that happened, he could tell that it was something serious.


    Jacob looked at him as he took the can of beer. He removed the lid and poured the beer down his


    throat. It was in the perfect temperature to drink.


    James frowned as he saw him drink the beer so rapidly. He couldn''t help but worry about him.


    "What happened? Jacob, I tell you, if you do something wrong, you must look for a solution to solve it.


    Sara is a good person. You can''t give up on her."


    His advice was more like a shot in the dark, but he had always been concerned about their rtionship.


    After all that he taught him so far, there was still a part of his nephew''s decision on how to handle


    problems that he didn''t necessarily agree with.


    It was true that Jacob had been improving a lot with his emotional intelligence, but he still felt that it was


    difficult for a person to make quite a huge leap in such a short time. It required tremendous amount of


    effort.


    Jacob couldn''t help but sigh, and took another beer out of his uncle''s hand. James shrugged helplessly


    as he sat closer to him.


    "Uncle, I feel so lost about all this. All I wanted is to lead a good life, but it feels like it doesn''t want me


    to at least have a taste of it. After all, no one can do whatever they want."


    The bitter smile on his face somehow deepened. Now it almost looked like he was simplyughing at


    how his life was ying jokes on him.


    "Alice is pregnant," he added.


    His few simple words exploded in James''s ears like a series of bombs. Fortunately, he was sitting


    down. Otherwise, it would have shocked him to the extent of losing his bnce.


    "What!? Jacob, how could you do this?! Sara is a good person. How could you do this to her? I am so


    disappointed in you."


    His view of love had always been quite about valuing loyalty. He was the type of person who just


    couldn''t respect those who yed with love like how a kid would with a fire.


    "If you can''t stay loyal to one person, I''m sorry but I''ll be really disappointed in you. Sara thought the


    world of you but you still have the audacity to do such a thing. Do you think you deserve her?"


    His anger now started to creep up on him as well. If it weren''t for the fact that he could control his


    emotions well with reason, he would''ve already started beating up Jacob.


    "Uncle, what are you talking about? Until we know the whole truth of the matter, it''s not like I''m already


    the one to me for all this."


    Jacob frowned again as he gulped down his beer. He kept the news to himself in order not to trouble


    his uncle. After all, it wouldn''t do him any good.


    Jacob told him everything, including what had happened and what he knew about the matter so far.


    James heard and understood his exnation crystal clear, but the sadness he wore on his face never


    faded away. He looked at his nephew in a daze instead. This was worse than what he had imagined.


    He could imagine the thought of Jacob and Sara being together in the future—an image fading away


    into nothingness.


    "Well, I reckon these things are inevitable. You prioritize solving this matter for now. I''m sure Sara will


    understand someday. But this child…"


    He couldn''t help but admit to himself that he didn''t know what to do either. However, his gut feelings


    were telling him that the child could never even be born at all.


    Otherwise, he might as well forget the idea of both of them ever getting back together.


    "Uncle, you go to bed now. I want to be alone for a while. Don''t worry about me, I''ll be fine. I''ll just find a


    way to solve this so I can make Sarae back to me."


    Jacob forced a smile, but James could see how lonely and tired that smile looked. But he kept the


    thought to himself.


    He shook his head, and went straight back to his bedroom without any further word.


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    Jacob stared at his uncle with nk eyes. The situation really pushed him to the edge. He had


    experienced his fair share of hardships in the past, but this one seemed to be on a level of its own.


    He had no idea how long he had been sitting in the living room. He was there sulking in despair as he


    continued to worry about Sara, but he knew for himself that there was no way for him to make her listen


    unless he solved the problem.


    So he tried his best to focus on that idea. He sighed as if to let out his stress. Now it was proven to him


    how hard it could be to cut off a rtionship.


    But perhaps no one had ever told Alice about that. The more she tried to tie him down, the more he


    wanted to break free. What was left of the guilt he had in his heart slowly diminished over time.


    The next day, Jacob got up and felt his body covered in soreness. It felt like even his sleep drained


    what little energy he had left. He only drank two cans of beerst night, but the hangover was terrible.


    His back ached like hell and his waist was all sore.


    He struggled to stand up and looked at the empty bed with half-dead eyes. He found himself missing


    the feeling of having someone next to him as he woke up. He stayed there like an inanimate object for


    a few seconds before he snapped back to reality.