Dear diary,


    Sometimes I can get really mean and feel terrible afterwards. It''s like whiplash. I walk away from the situation and just feel a wave of guilt wash over me. I...


    I don''t know how to deal with it. Gina said I''m too nice. I don''t know how she came to that conclusion. Like, how am I nice? Enjoying this book? Seek out the original to ensure the author gets credit.


    I feel like a monster sometimes. Like I''m just pretending. Like the world I''m in isn''t real. Like this is all just a dream, and when I wake up I''ll be back in that place. Alone. Abandoned. Unwanted.


    Mommy never wanted me. Goodman didn''t come back for me and you... you''re just a hallucination.


    Love,


    Tina