PATRICIA''S POV (Last Interaction)


    "Kamusta ang therapy mo? Ayosng ba?"


    Ngayonng ulit ako nabisita ni Jess sa bahay since nag sim na ulit ang ss niya. As usual, she asked about my conditions and brought me foods. "It''s myst therapy yesterday and it was...awesome"


    Nakahiga siya sa kama habang ako ay inaayos ang n kong mga damit.


    "Yourst therapy? Why? Are you okay now?" she asked worriedly. "And why are you fixing your clothes? Going on a vacation?"


    Napatigil ako sa ginagawa at nilingon siya. Ab siya ngayon sa cellphone.


    "A-Ayos na naman ako, Jess. Hindi ko na kangan ng therapy,"


    Hindi ko pa p nasabi sa kanya ang bk kong pag alis. Sigurado ako''ng hindi niya magugustuhan pero maiintindihan niya naman, just like my parents. Noong una ay hindi s payag pero kunan ay napagtanto nng para sa''kin din ito. Mom almost cried that day, they were so sad.


    In the past few days, I went through the necessary papers that I''ll be needing including my visa.


    Mahirap din sa''kin itolo na at unti-unting lumilipas ang araw, mpit na ang pag alis ko.


    "J-Jess..." tawag ko sa kanya at medyo kinakabahan. "May sasabihin sana ako,"


    Dumapo sa''kin ang mata niya at umupo sa harap ko. "Ano ''yon?"


    Umiwas ako ng tingin at huminga ng mlim. I bit my lip when I saw her innocent eyes waiting for what I had to say.


    "Pupunta na ako sa states..." I almost whispered.


    Her smile disappeared and lips parted, then she frowned. "You were leaving? Are you kidding?"


    Umiling ako na parang paslit bago hawakan ang kamay niya.


    "Sasabay na ako sa mga pinsan ko," nahihirapan kong paliwanag. "You know, I want to forget all the painful things I''ve experience-"


    "I understand," she cut me off and smiled shortly.


    But I could see the tears in the side of her eyes.


    "You don''t need to exin, it''s really good for you though. Kahit gusto kong pign ka, hindi naman pwede. Desisyon mo yan, e"


    Niyakap niya ang braso ko at naramdaman ko na ang panginginig ng balikat niya.


    "I always thought that this day wille..."


    Ngumiti ako at hinaplos ang buhok niya. Iyakin tga siya.


    "Pero malungkot din, Patricia..." her voice cracked. "Unti-unti na tayong nagkakahiwy na magkakaibigan. Si Kelvin nasa Paris, si Tyrone busy sa ipapatayo niya''ng business tapos ikaw...aalis na rin," I bit my lip and tried my best not to cry.


    "Babalik din naman ako rito, Jess," pampalubag loob ko.


    "Kan pa? After 5 or 10 years?! Ano na kaya anggay mo pag nagkita ulit tayo?"


    Umiling ako habang natatawa. "I don''t know...pero babalik ako. Kapag umalis na ako, sa susunod na pagkikita natin, pareho na tayong doktora. I will probably continue my studies there..."


    Tining ako ni Jess na nalaki ang mata. "Oh, right! It''s really good for you to stay there! Para naman malibang ka roon at makalimot..."


    Itinuloy namin ni Jess ang kamustahan habang nasa biyahe kami. Nag desisyon siya na kumain kami sabas at gum kung saan. Pumayag nang ako dahil hanggang ko nang din siya makakasama. Dahil kapag umalis na ako, w na ako''ng makakasama roon. I will surely miss her.


    -


    ng araw nang at aalis na ako kaya sinulit ko na ang mga gusto kong gawin. Noong nakaraan na araw ay nagkaroon kami ng maliit na party dito sa bahay para sa pag alis ko.


    Kasama ang mga pinsan at syempre, si Jess at Tyrone.


    And today, I will visit Agatha.


    Sumakay na ako sa back seat ng sasakyan n daddy. Driver ang kasama ko ngayon.


    "Kay Agatha po tayo pupunta..." I informed the driver.


    Tumango naman ito at nag maneho paalis.


    Dumaan din kami sa flower shop at pumili ako ng magandang bk na babagay sa kanya. Habang nasa biyahe ay nakangiting ako. This will surely thest time that I''ll visit her. Since I''m going abroad, it will takes years before I could see her again.


    Nakarating kami sa memorial at ako nang mag isa ang pumunta sa puntod. Nanatili ang driver sa loob ng sasakyan.


    Naan din ako ng bk kay lolo bago nakangiting intag sa ibabaw ng puntod ni Agatha ang bk para sa kanya.


    "Hello there my baby..." mmbing kong usal.


    Itinupi ko angyan ng suot kong dress at dahan-dahan umupo. Hinaplos ko angpida niya. I could still felt the bitterness inside my heart. How I wish it''s already vanished the next time I visit her.


    "I''m already leaving, Agatha" I let out a sighed. "I''m leaving you for now but don''t worry, I''ll be back. I''ll be back for you,"


    My eyes started welling up so I annoyingly wiped the tears in the side of my eyes. I promised myself that I won''t cry in front of her.


    "I promise that when I visit you again, I''m already a stronger version of myself," nanginig ang boses ko at parang may bumabara salamunan. "I''m sorry, your mom was too weak that she need to left just to heal herself..." Tuluyan ng bumagsak ang luha ko. Kinuha ko agad ang tissue sa bag at pinunasan ''yon. I can''t help but to cry, damn it!


    I still stay for more than 30 minutes. Watching her grave intently.


    I also took picture with her. Para kahit nakaalis na ako, may titignan ako''ng litrato naming dwa.


    Tahimik ako''ng nakatingin sa kawn ng marinig ang ng yabag sa likuran ko. Lumingon ako at naki ang mga ng makita si Callum.


    I got stiff but I''m still able to stand up. I frowned while looking at him.


    "W-Why are you here?" I asked seriously.


    I lowered my eyes on his hands that was holding a bouquet of flowers.


    Nainis ako dahil hindi siya nagsasalita.


    Nanatiling siya''ng nakatitig sa''kin gamit ang mm na mata. His eyes were full of pain and...longing. W ako''ng nakita na iba niya''ng kasama. It''s just the two of us here. "I''m asking you-"


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    "I''m here to visit her and...to see you,"


    Kumbog ang puso ko ng muling marinig ang boses niya. Gusto kong sampalin ang sarili dahil sa nararamdamang luha na nagbabadya na naman tumulo.


    Naging ngko ang utak ko. Parehong kami nakatitig sa isa''t isa at hindi nagsasalita. I can''t believe I''m seeing him right now.


    Nanginig ang katawan ko nang humakbang siya ppit. Ingay niya ang bk sa puntod ni Agatha bago muling bumaling sa''kin. Mas mpit na kami ngayon sa isa''t isa. Wng sabi-sabi ay bi niya ako''ng niyakap.


    Naestatwa ako at umawang angbi.


    "Damn, I miss you..." he whispered in a strained voice.


    Para bang natuod ako at hindi siya nagawang itaboy. Sobrang higpit ng yakap niya na para bang nangungul. Mas nangilid ang luha ko ng maamoy ang pamilyar niya''ng pabango.


    "Miss na miss na kita..." aniya at mas humigpit ang yakap. "Your face, smell and cooking. I miss everything about you..." nanginginig ang boses niya.


    "B-Bitawan mo ako..." sabi ko sa gitna ng panginginig. "Stop t-touching me"


    Dahan-dahan siya''ng humiwy sa yakap at diretso ako''ng tinignan. Napapikit ako ng maramdaman ang kamay niya''ng masuyo na pinunasan ang luha ko diretso sa pag haplos ng aking mukha. Medyo lumayo ako sa kanya at pinunasan ang sariling luha. "G-Get out of here!"


    Hindi siya natinag.


    "Pati ba naman dito, itataboy mo ako?" nasasaktan niya''ng usal. "Kan ka kaya mapapagod na itaboy ako?"


    "I have so many reasons to despise you!" I said, trembling. "You''re the reason why I lost her, Callum..."


    Sinalubong ko ang mm niya''ng mata.


    "You...you make me so stupid!" my tears rolled down again. "You killed my child-"


    "Our child, Patricia!" he corrected with so much pain. "I''m so sorry! I deeply apologize about that. It''s not really my intention-"


    "Just shut up and leave!" I shouted crying. "Stop exining, please..."


    "You will really throw our rtionship like that"


    Kumirot ang dibdib ko. "There''s no reason for us to continue our rtionship-"


    "We still have reason, Patricia" mariin niya''ng sabi at tinignan ako sa mata. "I love you. Our marriage. Isn''t it enough-"


    "That''s bullshit!"


    Sumabog ang luha ko sa sinabi niya. How dare him.


    "You don''t love me that''s why you cheated! You fooled me! You made me suffer when in fact, I should enjoying myself and reaching my dreams!" I shouted so loud. Good thing that there''s no people around.


    "You really think that I didn''t love you?" he sounds disappointed. "That''s why you make up with that annulment?"


    "That''s the right thing to do!"


    "It''s not. I''m begging, Patricia. Come back to me, let''s fix this..."


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    Humagulgol na ako habang umiiling. No, it''s wrong. I shouldn''t let him get near me again but what I am doing?


    I weakly pushed his chest but his hug only got tighter.


    "Let go of me, please..." I begged between my sobs.


    I felt him shook his head and murmuring something.


    "Wag kang umalis, Pat. Wag mo ako''ng iwan dito na sirang sira..." narinig ko ang hikbi niya. "I know...I know you were going abroad,"


    Napatigil ako. m niya? m niya na aalis ako?


    "Just sign the annulment and we''re done, Callum!" I said and tried to push him again. "Wag mo na ako pahirapan..."


    "Ako ang wag mong pahirapan, Pat" bulong niya. "Hindi ko kaya. Pinagsisisihan kohat na hindi ko sinabi sayo ang ibang bagay. Naw ang anak natin dahil sa''kin. Masakit din ''yon sa''kin at nagsisisi ako. Ayusin natin ''to, please?" Parang hiniwa ang puso ko ng kums siya sa yakap at dinungaw ang mukha ko.


    His eyes were bloodshot now. I can''t look at him directly. Like me, he look so wreck and we''re both crying.


    "Yung pag file mo ng annulment, hindi ko na kaya..." nangungusap ang mata niya at hinaplos ang kamay ko. "Pero yung aalis ka at iiwan ako...maslong hindi ko kakayanin, Pat"


    Lumag ang panga ko nang lumuhod siya sa harap ko at niyakap ako sa baywang.


    "If I have to kneel even in front of our child, I will. Just for you to forgive me..." he sobbed. "Promise, I will be the best husband for you. Just gave me another chance,"


    He continued sobbing. "Damn, you made me so whipped and crazy like this..."


    My tears keep rolling.


    I covered my mouth because of the sobs that want to let out. I can''t believe that he''s doing this.


    "Fucking stand up, Callum!"


    Pinilit kong tatagan ang boses ko pero tgang nanginginig ito.


    I kept removing his hands around me but I can''t!


    "Let me go-"


    "Mam! May problema po ba?"


    Namataan ko ang driver namin na tumatakbo ppit. Bumagsak ang tingin niya kay Callum at nalaki ang mata. He was confused for a moment.


    "Callum, bitawan mo na ako!" giit ko at pilit humihiwy. "Starting today, you won''t able to see me again! This is what you want, right?!"


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    Now, he looks so wasted and devastated. He looked up at me and slowly stood up while his body were trembling.


    "Let''s talk, please..."


    Akma ulit siya''nglapit pero nag tago na ako sa likod ng driver.


    "Sir, tumigil na po kayo. Kapag nangulit pa po kayo mapipilitan ako''ng tumawag ng pulis..."


    The driver escorted me out of the memorial. I could still hear Callum''s cry and shouts, begging and calling my name.


    When we got to the car, I felt faint. I dropped my body and continued to cry there.