Chapter 514


    He curled his lips, looking embarrassed. "So, are you going to feed her your breast milk?"


    "What else do you need to do?" He sighed, feeling helpless.


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    "Yep!" I was an adult and I had given birth before. ncing at him, I said, "When I delivered, it was


    naturalbor, so I initially had breast milk. Later, because the baby died and there was no stimtion of


    nursing, no prctin was secreted, so I didn''t have breast milk anymore."


    He furrowed his brows. "So, you''re nning to do it yourself now?" He sounded a little unhappy. "What


    did you takest night?"


    I decided to tell him the truth. "Some medicine for inducingctation."


    "The doctor advised me to massage my breasts and use other methods as well..." I pursed my lips,


    trailing off.


    "Massage and other methods?" He mocked. "Are you going to massage yourself? And how do you


    n to go about the other methods?" His words were dripping with sarcasm.


    I pressed my lips together, suppressing my anger. "Hendrix, do you think this funny?"


    He shut up and didn''t speak.


    After a long time, I said, "The baby was premature, so she''s in poor health. Plus, she has never had


    breast milk. Even though she''s already three months old, she still looks like a newborn. Hendrix, I''ve


    been an orphan since I was young, and I was lucky that my grandma raised me. Now, both my


    grandma and Monique have left me, but Monique did, she entrusted her child to me, so I have to do my


    best to protect her."


    I didn''t know how to love others nor how to ept others'' love. But something in my heart told me that I


    should be treating him well.


    I put myself in his shoes and I was considerate of him because of love. This child''s existence was the


    same for me. I would take good care of her and love her the best way I can.


    Hendrix poured in deep, conflicted gaze into me. "What about me? Am I not important to you? Irvin left


    you with regret, but what about me? What am I to you? Am I a dispensable husband?"


    In fact, I had always known what he wanted; he only needed me and wanted me to care about him.


    The lights in the bedroom were dim and gloomy, but his eyes looked particrly bright. We looked at


    each other as I struggled to force words out of me.


    After a long while, he let go of me and took two steps back in defeat. He puckered his lips in


    selfmockery.


    "Arianna, you sure have a lot of guts!" Seeing that he was about to turn his back away and leave, I


    reached out my hands to grab hold of him.


    My heart was filled with feelings I couldn''t exin nor quite unravel. "I want to put you first more so


    than anyone else. But I''m scared that I can''t live without you and you''ll suddenly leave."


    He turned back to re at me. "So, you disregarded my feelings? You had space for everyone else in


    your heart yet you chose to hurt me instead?"


    I shook my head and stared at him sadly. "No, I didn''t want to hurt you. It''s just that I''m too insecure. I''m


    afraid that you''ll abandon me and leave me alone!"


    He was astonished for a moment. His slender and tall body stiffened. He reached out his arms to pull


    me into a hug. He whispered helplessly, "Stupid!"


    After embracing each other for a while, I let myself lean against his chest. He whispered softly to me,


    "No matter how much we quarrel in the future, we can''t simply get a divorce. Arianna, I won''t let you


    go, nor will I divorce you."


    I didn''t say a word. I was too stupid to know how to manage this marriage. ? ? ?


    Hendrix was free as it was the year end and mostpanies had already let off for the annual


    holidays.


    Minnie didn''t celebrate the New Year with us, leaving only Hendrix and I to celebrate it on our own.


    I took Hendrix to Bronzy Condo. Sawyer''spany was not on annual holiday, so he was still busy


    while Ian took care of Anne.


    When he opened the door and saw that Hendrix was with me, he was dumbfounded. Then, he stated


    calmly, "Anne has just fallen asleep."


    I nodded as I entered the door. I asked, "How was shest night?"


    "She was fine." As he spoke, his gaze fell on Hendrix. He took a quick nce before looking away.


    Recalling his past at university, I looked towards Hendrix and said, "This is Ian. He was my ssmate


    in university. You might know him."