Chapter 48
We never had dinner that night.
My little adventurous decision left me almost guilt-ridden and dwelling in maximum shame. I was alone
now, in bed, wearing the most random shirt I had ever seen. I had pulled it off the clothes hanger after
drying my hair off and hopped into my bed. Closing my eyes for a split second, my mind yed back
the events ofst night. He had kissed me. I had let him. One moment, we were making out
passionately in front of the hospital and the next, we were walking back awkwardly to the house under
the pouring rain. On my request. I had hoped the rain would cool us both down and by the time we
would reach home, all traces of my arousal would be washed off.
I still remember the feeling of his fingers brushing against my skin as he peeled off my wet clothes. It
was like we had both been on a high; one that drove me off the edge and had left me wanting for
something I couldn''t quite understand. Despite the heavy tension, Xander hadn''t pushed for more and
had let me go. I couldn''t imagine if it was hard for him as it was for me. The only thing that had stopped
me from going past the point of no-return was the shes of horrible memories that were triggered.
As I got up, I allowed my senses to have full control and realised Xander wasn''t in the house. It was a
plus for me because that meant I would be able to steel my spine before facing him today. Hurriedly
taking a shower, I got dressed in warmer clothes and went downstairs. dys was in the kitchen, as
usual, making breakfast. She turned to give me the brightest smile she saw me and I couldn''t even
ignore the gleam she had in her eyes.
"Good morning Luna Ava." she chirped. Her usual behaviour would make me feel better, but all I
wanted was to allow my emotions to roll over till they were purged out of my system.
"Good morning." I said, taking a seat at the counter. I ced my head into my hands as I listened to her
move around. Today was a new day, I needed to go see Marcus in the hospital and possibly get
Xander and Cole to have a conversation with him. I wouldn''t be able to avoid Xander for long. I wasn''t
nning to either
I just needed time to ept what had happened and ept that I had indeed gone crazy at this point.
Belonging to N?velDrama.Org.
This was the only solution to not letting myself give in to what I was feeling. Pretending it never
happened was definitely out of the question.
"You wanna talk about it?" my head lifted to look at dys as she ced a te of piping hot food in
front of me
"Talk?" I asked, ncing at the food on the te for a second
"You''re not exactly in a good mood. You''ve been sighing so much since you sat there, I''m sure
something is eating you up." she responded, leaning on the counter on the other side "Is this about the
Alpha?"
My eyebrows rose in question and I averted my eyes, pulling the food closer to me "Why would you
think so?"
"Well, for one, he was in the most wonderful mood this morning. I''d never seen him as happy as he
was this morning and here you are, theplete opposite." I met her eyes again and found them
watching me softly "You''re the only one capable of making him that happy and I thought you''d be the
same. I guess I was wrong."
Why wouldn''t he be happy? After all my big talk of never giving in to him, I had practically offered
myself to him on a silver tter. I shouldn''t even be mad at him. He had asked me before doing
anything and I had given him the green light.
"I doubt that. He has everything he could ever want. Maybe it was just a rare day for him." She
hummed as I stuffed my face with macaroni and cheese
"If it''s like that, then let''s forget about him. Why are you upset?"
"I''m not upset."
"I don''t know if you''ve noticed dear, but I''ve spent a long time on this earth and I can tell when a woman
is having boy trouble." A giggle escaped my lips. Xander was definitely not a boy. What I had felt
pressing into every part of mest night was definitely a man.
I groaned again as my mind took me back tost night and I red at her a little.
"Can we not do this right now?" I literally begged
"If you talk to me, then we won''t. But..." she trailed off, giving me a pointed look that showed that she
would definitely not let this go. I chewed on my bottom lip, contemting before releasing a sigh of
resignation
"We kissed." I mumbled lowly
"What was that?"
"We kissed. I let him kiss me."
The response was a gasp followed by silence. My head lifted to see if she was still there and I found
her staring back with wide eyes and a mouth that was fully ajar. She was frozen in ce but a moment
winced but they didn''t stay up for long as she rounded the counter and pulled my hands into hers.
"Why are you so excited?" I asked, genuinely confused
"The question is, why aren''t you?!" I had never seen dys act like such a schoolgirl "So you let him?
Does that mean he made the first move? This means Beta Cole owes me money."
"Owes you money? What?" she didn''t even show any form of guilt, only giggling at me "You two were
betting on us?"
"Of course we were. Beta Cole instigated it of course and I was pretty hesitant, but I got so invested
"Do you know the problem with all this? It''s this ce and the people."
"What do you mean?" Seeing as she had calmed down, I gently pulled my hands out of her grasp,
trying my best not to be irritated
"This environment isn''t good for me. I want to stay away from him. I don''t want to be with him, but
everything around us is gradually pushing us together. You guys really want me to be with the man that
tried to murder me on countless asions? It''s too chaotic to even think about."
"So you''re saying it''s because of us that you did what you did?"
"Of course not."
"Then what is it then?"
"I don''t know!"