Chapter 0319
REAGAN''S POV.
I understand that by dying to im Ashanti, by not treating her as my equal and not telling my
subjects sooner that she was my mate, Imitted a grave offense that warrants punishment, but I
think this is too much. This is cruel and I''m starting to lose my cool. I was so confident about finding
Ashanti in the Blue Diamond Pack. It took me all my courage to keep a straight face when Ashanti''s
mother told me Ashanti had note to see her. I was even more dumbfounded when she firmly
deciphered her aversion to taking Ashanti in if she ever showed up at her doorstep.
Right now I''m not only worried for my mate, but I''m scared that she might go to meet her mother
with all confidence only to get the disappointment of her life.
I have to find Ashanti. I have to bring her back home. I have to make sure she doesn''t meet her
mother and find out what I just found out. It will break her!
My thoughts are interrupted by a knock on the door. I look straight ahead at the door, frowning as I
let out an exasperated sigh. I''m not in the mood to see or talk to anyone, but when the thought that
whoever is there could havee to give me good news crosses my mind, I give the signal. The
door opens and I''m not surprised to see that it''s Kyle.
“Alpha Reagan.” He steps in and heads over to the table where I''m seated.
“Yes, Kyle.” My voice is a raspy, tired mess. “Are you here to tell me something that''ll uplift my
mood? Or should I kick you out?”
“You''ll probably kick me out after you hear it.” I groan.
Another search party is back with news of no sign of Ashanti in whatever pack they were sent to go
look for her.
I know that''s what he''s here to say.
“If it''s about a search party not being able to find Ashanti, I don''t want to hear it.” I say, waving a
dismissing hand at him. His shoulders sag in dismay. I watch his chest rise as he sucks in a heavy
breath and quickly lets it out.
“Let Ronald and I go.” He repeats for the one millionth time. I shake my head, denying that
suggestion for the one millionth time as well.
“As it is now, I''m barely functional. You guys are the ones running the pack in my stead. If I send
you two away, I will run this pack to the ground and if I dare leave and spend a single night out of
here, those pesky Lycan King''s who think they can overthrow me will turn this Pack into a venue for
a Rogue festival. I can''t risk it. Just keep sending the best guys we''ve got.” I exin thoughtfully,
leaning back on my chair.
I have thought time and again to go out there and carry out this search on my own, but that would
mean me staying out of this Pack for days and even weeks. I cannot risk that.
The fact that I am the Lycan King does not make me free from jealousy and usurpation attempts. I
have faced these before. My ex-mate died during one of those unexpected attacks and I still get
PTSD whenever I think of something like that ever happening again.
My presence in this pack scares them from making a move. If I leave, they will swarm in here with
every rogue they can find and cause trouble. I cannot let that happen.
“Alpha Reagan.” Kyle calls after a long pause. I look back at him.
“Yes Kyle.”
“Have you ever thought that we''ve not been able to have a single trace of Ashanti''s whereabouts
because that''s what she wants? What if she''s deliberately hiding from us? What if she doesn''t want
us to find her? What if she wants away from all this and that''s why she left in the first ce?” His
words leave his mouth with so much care and in the calmest tone, but when they reach my ears,
they sound like harsh tones that jar in my ear like loud music, causing every hair on my head to
stand erect and my scalp to start itching. Blood pauses in my veins as I ponder upon the hidden
meaning in those words of his.
What if Ashanti doesn''t want anything to do with me anymore?
What if she''s deliberately hiding from me?
What if she doesn''t want me to find her?
These thoughts have never crossed my mind and now I feel like an idiot for that.
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We were not on good terms when she was locked up in the dungeon. Everything went downhill
when she found out about Alina''s pregnancy. She believed I was truly responsible for it and
threatened to leave me. That''s what made me lock her up in the penthouse. Another terrible thing I
did was force her to have sex with me. She called me a monster and promised to leave me when
she got the least chance. Then came the usation that led to her being locked up in the dungeon.
Her angst towards me must have reached sky level and her determination to leave grew stronger at
the hours ticked by.
I don''t know how she pulled it off, but she escaped from the dungeon and left this pack just like she
had promised and now, she''s somewhere, hiding, making sure I never find her again.
It all makes sense now.
No one kidnapped her. No one took her against her will and wherever she is right now, she''s not in
a bad condition. She''s perfectly fine. She''s in hiding and she''ll do all she can to make sure I never
find her again to bring her here in this pack where all she ever knew was problems and hardship.
And it''s all my fault.
My constant fear of the unknown. My cowardice and indecisive attitude pushed her away.
I take in a deep breath that nearly breaks my chest and rise to my feet. I head to the transparent
wall to ceiling window, shove both hands in my pockets and stare nkly at the busy street
beneath.
“Keep searching.” I say absentmindedly, directing my words at Kyle who must be wondering the
reason for my sudden silence. “I agree with you that she could be in hiding right now, but she''s
going toe out sooner orter, so ….” I face him. “Keep searching.”
“Yes, My Lord. We will find her.” With that, he swivels on his heels and exits the office. I turn back to
the window and take two steps closer.
I am such a dog!