Chapter 375


    “I’ve ced everything that could harm him out of reach. It would be fine after I install a guardrail to the


    windows and balconies and elevate the door locks.”


    I felt distressed to see Colin so busy. I doubted these methods could stop a person who wanted


    to die.


    It was difficult for us to take long–term precautions. If Felix wanted to die, even a belt was enough. We


    couldn’t guard him at all times. Colin’s actions made no sense.


    We first needed to understand Felix’s true thoughts.


    After the suicide attempt, Felix becam again. He wanted me to be by his side whenever I didn’t attend


    lectures. He even grasped my hand to ensure I was beside him, or he would feel


    unsafe.


    Honestly, sitting next to him was fine. I could at least ept it. However, I couldn’t tolerate it


    when he held my hand, not even for a second.


    I told him I had to draw. I couldn’t work if he held my hand.


    Then, he asked me to move the easel to his room so he could always be by my side. When I objected,


    he went on a hunger strike in protest.


    His actions only annoyed me. I ignored him and refused topromise. Perhaps he knew well that I


    wouldn’t give in, so he didn’t dare to pressure me anymore. He just followed me around.


    When I was in a good mood, I didn’t mind what he did. When I was in a terrible mood, I would holler at


    him to stop following me.


    He didn’t give up. Instead, he pretended not to hear and insisted on following me.


    When I was leaving college, I saw a vendor selling fresh cherries. They wererge, red, and as


    beautiful as jewels. I liked them and bought some.


    I returned a bitte and found Colin in Felix’s bedroom. They didn’t hear me when I opened


    the door.


    I wanted to show Colin the cherries, but I noticed him talking with Felix solemnly through the door


    crack.


    As he had turned his back, I couldn’t see his face. Felix was facing the door. He lowered his head,


    appearing indifferent.


    There was tension in the room. It was clear that the conversation wasn’t going well.


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    Colin said, “Felix, it’s my fault you got hurt. Don’t involve Lulu. She’s under a lot of pressure because of


    you. She has lost a great deal of weight. If you sincerely like her, stop torturing her and let her be


    happy. Please.”


    Felix replied, “Stop speaking nonsense. I know you like Lulu. You don’t want me to be with her, yet I’m


    like this because of you. Well, it’s okay if you want me to let her go. But you must give me your eyes


    and legs! Can you do that? If you can’t, please stop condemning me from a moral standpoint!


    “You two love each other and feel distressed being apart. What about me? I feel miserable living in this


    hopeless situation! You promised to look after me. Then why do you want me to give up Lulu? You like


    her, and so do I. I’m even engaged to her. You’re the one who should leave! I just want what belongs to


    me. I won’t feel guilty for you!”


    Colin told him, “You’re so unreasonable, Felix! I’m your brother. I wish you well more than anyone else.


    I’m sorry that I can’t give you as promised, but that’s not your excuse to torture Lulu. Won’t you feel


    horrible seeing her in pain? She’s unable to free herself!”


    “Hmph, I won’t! I can’t see her!”


    “You… Felix, please be reasonable. Love is between two people. You can’t keep her by force. If you do


    do so, three of us will suffer.”


    “I don’t care! You two should suffer with me! It’s better than suffering alone!”


    Felix seemed to want to make things worse.