Chapter 119


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    The next thing I know, Sinir is prowling forward across the room, backing me


    towards the bed. He seems barely human, barely in control of his wolf – but I


    understand now why he hasn’t sought morefort from me. I’d gotten so used to his


    sultry innuendos and dark promises that I forgot how serious these matters truly are to


    wolves. But now I see the truth. I pushed him, forced him to admit things he was trying


    to shield me from, then challenged his authority, demanded that he let me do my job.


    My inner wolf is a veritable basket case. She’s both excited and intimidated, thrilled


    and daunted, eager to please and utterly defiant about the idea of submitting to


    anyone – even Sinir. For weeks now she’s been begging for Sinir’s mark, and


    now that the ridiculous creature is about to get it –


    she wants to y hard to get.


    The backs of my knees collide with the bed, and Sinir lifts me as though I weigh


    nothing, tossing me back into the plushfort of my nest.


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    I scramble onto my hands and knees, baring my teeth at the bossy wolf and emitting a


    soft growl. I don’t appreciate him messing up the safe cocoon I created for our pup,


    and though something deep down inside of me is quivering with appreciation for his


    dominance, I don’t care for his high-handed behavior.


    Sinir unslings the towel still wrapped around his waist, an ominous chuckle on his


    lips. “Such a fierce little mate.” He observes, his eyes hooded with desire. “Have you


    already forgotten how desperate you’ve been to bare my mark?”


    I narrow my eyes as he crawls onto the bed, climbing over the overabundance of


    pillows and nkets. Heshes out and catches my ankle, deftly sliding my legs out


    from under me and pulling me towards him over the mattress. I yelp in surprise, but


    the next thing I know I’m on my back with Sinir looming


    over me, blissfully naked. My eyes scan his chiseled form: from his glorious bronze


    skin, which glistens in the low light; to his devilishly handsome face; and all the way


    down to the huge, hard member between his legs.


    Suddenly I find myself stretching out so he can appreciate my curves, shifting and


    writhing against the silken sheets. It’s as if the mere sight of this man was able to steal


    my sanity, to make me forget my resolve to make him work for his prize.


    “There she is.” Sinir croons, extending a single w and dragging it down the front


    of my top, only deep enough to tear the thin fabric without touching my delicate flesh.


    “All fire and feistiness until you get a peek of something you like.” I gasp, feeling


    another sh of indignance even as heat pools low in my belly. His ws eviscerate


    my sweatpants as well, and now I’m naked before him.


    His ravenous gaze travels every inch of my exposed skin, and his pupils dte with


    unbridled lust. “I have to say I know the feeling.” He croons.


    It should be a crime to be so gorgeous.”


    Hispliments make me preen and show off even more. I don’t understand why I’m


    behaving this way, but my wolf is calling the shots now. I rise up onto my knees,


    sliding my hands up his bare chest and nibbling his pecs. I nned on kissing him


    once I reached his mouth, fantasized about dragging him down to the bed and making


    him forget his own name.


    Then one of Sinir’s powerful fists forms a handhold in my hair, and he tilts my head


    back, holding me captive. His free hand trails down to the curve of my belly, settling


    over our pup. “Im not going to im you, E.” He rumbles, sternly and a needy whine


    escapes my lips. Sinir’s lips graze mine as he speaks, his eyes boring into my


    oWn, absorbing every ounce of my frustration and desire. “But I am going to take you


    up on your offer.” He informs me huskily. “Im going to take control, E. And if you test


    me, I will treat you exactly how I would treat any other naughty she- wolf.” He


    proims, softening his tone but not his hold. “I need you to promise you’ll tell me if I


    cross a line.”


    “And if I said you already have?” I challenge, not meaning a word of it, but wanting to


    see how far I can push him.


    “Then Id remind you that I can smell your arousal.” Sinir purrs, sliding the hand on


    my tummy between my legs. His thick fingers immediately sink into the wetness


    soaking my cleft, and I can barely restrain my moan of delight.”


    And your mischief,” Sinir adds, knocking his nose against mine, “and your fear.”


    I snap my teeth at him, feeling wilder and more fearless than I can ever remember


    being. Sinir only chuckles, removing his fingers from my aching s3x – despite my


    outrage. “So that’s the way it’s going to be, hmm?”


    It wouldn’t be true control if you didn’t have to take it. My wolf answers in my head,


    apparently not quite ballsy enough to speak to Sinir directly.


    Seriously? I demand. You brazen little – Hey, don’t slut shame me. She answers


    indignantly. There’s nothing wrong with knowing what you want and going after it.


    Excuse me, but do you actually know what you want? I silently scoff. One moment


    you’re provoking him and the next you’re writhing around under him like a cat in heat.


    Hey, don’t call me a cat – that’s offensive. She snipes. Besides, It’s all part of the


    game, silly.I can practically hear her rolling her eyes. You’ll see. He needs this, and so


    do I.


    That’s easy for you to say. Iin. You’re writing checks but my ass is the one who


    has to cash them.


    Don’t act like you were some shrinking violet before you found out about me, she


    uses. You were getting yourself in trouble long before you knew your true nature.


    Forcing myself back into the present, I realize that Dominic has been watching the


    emotions flitting across my face, waiting for me to respond.


    Amusement is clear in his wolfish smirk, but he doesn’t show me any mercy. “What’s


    the matter, baby? Your wolf giving you trouble?” His strong hands are moving over my


    naked form, caressing me almost reverently, even as he taunts me.


    This time my wolf does respond for me, “No, I’ve simply changed my mind.” I reply


    with a sniff. “I don’t want your mark anymore. I think I’ll go out and try to find a different


    mate instead. One who’s not afraid to im what’s his.”


    Horror floods me as I realize what I’ve just said, and suddenly Sinir’s hands are


    anything but reverent. He rotates his neck as if he’s having to physically force his


    instincts down, and when he returns his gaze to me, he looks absolutely lethal. “


    Well in that case, I’ll just have to make sure you can’t get away.”


    Sinir pounces, and the next thing I know, I’m t on my back on the bed. His mouth


    crashes into mine, and from then on the only sounds I make are whimpers and


    moans. I know this is just the beginning. I know I pushed Sinir so far that he’s going


    to find some diabolically sexy way of punishing me, and Goddess help me, but I can’t


    wait. I slide my arms and legs around him, holding his body to mine as he steals kiss


    after kiss. When my lips are swollen and red, he moves on, kissing, licking and


    nipping his way over my jaw and down my neck.


    I rock my hips into his, thinking how incredibly easy it would be to slide myself onto his


    hardness right now. After all, there’s nothing between our bodies anymore, and my


    slickness is already coating his thick shaft from all our grinding. I try to lift my hips high


    enough to hook his tip inside my channel, but Sinir realizes what I’m doing and


    mps his hands around my hips, forcing them back down.


    Sinir shakes his head, sounding amused but a?so as though he’s barely clinging to


    his own self- control. “Such a bad girl.” He admonishes, leaving the soft spot behind


    my ear. Sinir’s fangs graze my sensitive earlobe, followed shortly by the deep


    vibrations of his voice. “Tell me, sweet E. Has anyone ever tied you up?”


    With those simple words, the entire world is wrenched right out from under me. I’m no


    longer safe in my nest with Sinir. I’m twenty years and a hundred miles away,


    forced back into a past I never wanted to revisit.


    I must have gonepletely stiff in his arms, because Sinir’s steady weight lifts


    away from me, and his worried face appears above me.


    Sweetheart, what is it?” I push him away, sitting up and heaving in panicked breaths


    as the blood rushes in my ears. The room around me has disappeared, reced by


    the wretched halls of the orphanage. I’m shaking from head to toe, and no matter


    what I do, I can’t seem to get enough air to breathe.


    “Fuck,” Sinir curses under his breath, and I feel his strong arms wrapping around


    me. “E, it’s okay. You’re safe.”


    I mp my eyes shut, trying to banish the sights and smells assaulting my mind, the


    memories I’ve tried so hard to forget. Sinir hesitantly shifts me into hisp, rocking


    me back and forth. He repeats the same words over and over again. “You’re safe.


    I’m here”


    It takes some time but eventually I believe him. Ie hurtling back down to earth at


    the speed of a meteor, crashing into a crater of despair. Still Sinir doesn’t stop


    telling me that I’m safe and that he loves me. I cling to him like a liferaft, praying that


    this sce will never cease, but knowing it must. There’s no avoiding it now. When I’m


    calm enough I’m going to have to exin – and that’s the veryst thing I want to do.