Chapter 35 Call Me Crazy


    I have never seen anything like this. I mean I''ve been fighting before but my new family fought with


    such precision, their moves seeming effortless.  Hunter would fight using both his human side and wolf,


    shifting from one to the other without breaking a sweat. He was in tune with his wolf and Anthony was


    no different.


    He fought just like his father, shifting from wolf to human and back. Mother on the other hand fought


    with such grace. She stayed in human form, snapping necks but making it look effortless and moving


    gracefully as if she was dancing.


    Then there was me.


    I was just ripping heads off and covering my fur with blood. I was a huge red mess but I didn''t care.


    Okay, after seeing how the others were fighting, I cared. I cared because clearly I was trained to be


    barbaric and a wild animal when at war but Hunter made it look like a dance of tricks. He wasn''t even


    breaking a sweat and I was hoping from body to the other, which was taking energy.


    Lucky for me, I can heal and recharge right?


    Right.


    N?vel(D)rama.Org''s content.


    It looked like every wolf was trying to get to me more than Hunter or Anthony. I hate having to kill them


    but their loyalty was to Ethia and I made a promise to myself that I will kill anyone that looks to harm


    me or my family.


    I made a promise to myself, to kill Ethia and anyone that stands in my way of getting to Ethia.


    Xander was fighting too. My Xander, fighting alongside my mother as they work together with X in his


    wolf form and mother staying human. It was actually calming to see them get along in this way.


    A big brown wolf bit my leg as I got distracted when Xander was tackled to the ground. The wolf bit his


    neck but my mother was able to kill the wolf before he could finish Xander off.


    I shifted back to human form, killing the wolf that attacked me before running to Xander''s side ,


    kneeling beside him and seeing blooding out his neck. Xander was lying on the ground with his


    body not healing fast enough.


    When I''d try to heal X, a wolf would jump out to try and attack me. Mom could only fight off so many to


    cover me.


    Hunter and Anthony also tried to fight off the wolves but it seemed like when we killed two then ten


    would appear from out of nowhere and attack us.


    Xander was down and it seemed as if Ethia''s warriors were multiplying.


    I had to end this, my mate was hurt and I won''t be able to survive it if another wolfes to finish the


    job. I stand up, covering Xander with the fire inside of me for protection. I have rootse out from the


    ground, stabbing through every wolf that came at me while I ran, approaching Ethia.


    Lightning strikes on each side with every step I take. I release a strong wind that tosses all the wolves


    out of my way, creating a clear path to get to Ethia. I start running to her but nana starts running to me.


    I have a roote out and pierce through her legs and bring her body to the ground.


    It was me and Ethia now.


    I looked into her eyes as she took a few steps back from me, fear radiating off of her in waves, only to


    bump in to my mother from behind.


    I raise my hand and use my telekinesis to pull her closer to me before punching her, she tumbles back


    to my mother and mother kicks her back my way. She tries to punch me but a rootes out from the


    ground, wrapping around her arm then on the other arm. A root pierces through her stomach, as I raise


    her up in the air and bring her down hard.


    She throws a ball of water at me, u raise my hand and it goes through my hand and in to my body with


    ease, releasing a bigger ball of water that goes flying and hitting her with such force, her body flies to


    the other side. I run to meet her on the other side, where I let my ws out, catching her by the neck,


    sinking my ws in. I pull her head from her body, tossing her dead body to the side as I turn to face


    her warriors with her head in my hands. Her warriors growl at me for killing their goddess.


    My nana screams holding on to her chest and I throw Ethia''s head in her direction, watching it roll


    towards her. The warriorse running at me and I p my hands and the warriors all go from wolf to


    ash. Leaving my grandmother, alone with us.


    I immediately run to Xander, to see Anthony kneeling beside X, covering Xander''s neck with his hands


    and within seconds, he was healed.


    Anthony stands up and smiles at me.


    "He''ll be out for a bit but he''s going to be fine." Anthony says.


    Mother and Hunter walk up to where Anthony and I were standing, by Xander.


    "You did well today kids. Sabrina, you haven''t had training to fight like a first family member but you


    held your own. You have absolute control over your powers and it is amazing to see. You will make an


    amazing moon goddess." Hunter says to me, pulling me in for a hug.


    We pull away after a couple of seconds.


    It all happened so fast, my mother screaming, Xander yelling my name as he became conscious when


    the pain jolted him awake.


    I looked down and saw a sword pierced through my belly, it was like silver but it felt magical as I felt it


    being pulled out from behind me. Someone had stabbed me from behind and when I turned to see who


    it was, Nana went on to insert the sword in to my chest, stabbing my heart.


    Xander howled in pain as he felt it through the mark. I couldn''t heal the wound in my stomach. Hunter


    pulled nana by his ws, shifting in to his wolf but nana disappeared before Hunter could kill him,


    leaving the sword on the ground. I could feel the blood seep out of me, as I ced my hands over my


    wounds.


    I dropped to my knees as Xander quickly got up to catch me but wasn''t fast enough. My mother


    kneeling down to take a look at my wounds.


    "Heal Sabrina!" She kept shouting but I couldn''t heal them. I looked at her, my eyes feeling droopy.


    "I..I I can''t..." I said before coughing out blood, falling to ground.


    I could feel their emotions. The fear of losing me from Xander, the feeling of guilt from my mother and


    Hunter''s anger. Anthony was frozen in ce, his eyes locked on the sword on the ground.


    I was scared too. I have never felt such helplessness.


    Anthony picked up the sword, marveling at it. He held it as if it could hurt him too.


    "I thought this was just a myth. Father, you told me this sword did not exist!" Anthony said dropping the


    sword and shoving Hunter away from me.


    Hunter growled but mother quickly stood up, standing between the two men as Xander pulled me in to


    his arms.


    I looked in to his eyes to see him crying.


    "Sabrina I can''t lose you too. I won''t survive it, please baby." Xander says to me. He looks up at


    Hunter.


    "I thought you said she was immortal!!" He shouted, a growling out of him right after.


    "She is immortal." Hunter said.


    "Then why can''t she heal? Baby why aren''t you healing?" Xander says and I smile at him as I feel the


    darkness calling to me.


    Xander shakes me.


    "No! No Sabrina! Stay awake. Adrastos is just a baby!" Xander says and images of my son sh


    through my mind.


    I would never see him grow up. I won''t get to raise him and now nana was somewhere hiding, she


    could kill him and I wouldn''t be able to protect him.


    I failed him.


    "I I.. I .. failed.. you. I... failed... him" I said as I gasped for air after each word but Xander shook his


    head no.


    "You''ve been everyone''s hero. You''ve been fighting for everyone. This time, I need you to fight for you.


    You''re still so young!" Xander said to me.


    He kisses my forehead and then each side of my face. His body, covered in my blood.


    "If anything, life has failed you. We have failed at protecting you when you''ve been protecting


    everyone." He said to me before darkness took over me.


    I was inplete darkness but I could still feel Xander holding me. I could hear him howling as he


    projected his pain for all to hear. My mother shifted in to her wolf to join him.


    Hunter and Anthony joined in right after. It felt like I was with them but I was also going further and


    further away from them. The darkness pulling me in deeper down in toplete darkness, death


    calling to me but I was trying to get closer to Xander.


    I can not die. Xander needs me, Adrastos needs me. Xander was everything and I couldn''t leave him


    like that.


    I could feel his pain. His thoughts were only of Adrastos. My son.


    Our son.


    How could I do the same thing to my son that my mother did?


    My son will grow up without me because I failed to kill the woman that threatened his life and now she


    killed me.


    I turned my back for just a second and now I was sumbing to my wounds. The all mighty Sabrina,


    the strong white wolf.


    The powerful shewolf that can bring men to their knees killed by an ancient sword.


    I didn''t even get the chance to be the fucken moon goddess. I unlocked a power that I didn''t even get


    to use. The moon goddess lineage, ending with me unless Anthony takes a mate from our realm.


    Who was left?


    I had incinerated all of them. Ethia''s entire army was done for, just like me.


    I wanted so many things, see so many things. I wanted to see Xander live up to the promises he made


    to me. I wanted to watch my son shift in to his wolf and talk him through the pain. I wanted to watch him


    take on his role as alpha.


    Xander kept shaking my body, trying to get me to wake and I was trying. My goddess I was trying. My


    eyes felt heavy, my body was rejecting my soul, evicting me from my own body. The body I''ve known


    all my life.


    "Sabrina please don''t do this. Wake up baby, I need you. Adrastos needs you. I just got you baby,


    please wake up." Xander said and I wanted nothing more than tofort him.


    My chance at love again. My third time is definitely a charm. The love that I desperately needed. The


    love that saved me.


    We belonged together. It just worked and here I was dying, leaving him to be alone once again. Once


    again, he has to watch me die, like he watched his mate die.


    Would he be able to avenge me? Why did people even have it out for me?


    Was I so evil in my past life? Was dying the only peace I deserved?


    What about my son? Did he not deserve a mother to raise him? Did he not deserve a mother''s love?


    The true love only a mother could give?


    Did my son not deserve a normal upbringing with a mother and father? He already had a broken home


    but now, the woman that birthed him would be gone from his life.


    How was any of this fair?


    My father. Losing a daughter was going to wreck him. How was he going to heal from this?


    My Josey and Cj. Cj likes to act tough but I know my death is going to weaken  him. We were close, as


    close as a brother and sister can be and more. He wasn''t the mushy type but his love, you can see his


    love in his efforts, his actions.


    And Josey.


    Josey....


    Josey is my twin, my other half. How was she going to get through this? She just lost her baby and now


    me? My death is something she will nevere back from.


    If anything, Josey was going to hunt down nana and kill her. Then she''d break down, for months. Josey


    and Xander will never be the same.


    I don''t want to die. I can''t die.


    Why would I want to hurt the ones in my life like this? I can''t hurt Xander like this.


    How can I abandon Adrastos like this?


    I went deeper and deeper in to the darkness, I lost the feeling of Xander holding me. I could no longer


    hear my mother''s cries or Hunter''s howls of pain.


    It felt like I was in the pit of my sadness. Being swallowed whole by the hurt I know I''ll never be able to


    make up for when my entire family hears if my death.


    I felt useless! Where was my great strength now? The big bad wolf was dead. I guess Green Forrest


    can celebrate now that I''ve met my end.


    Does dying feel like this for everyone? Was everyone stuck inplete darkness, just thinking of their


    loved ones? If that''s the case, I was going to lose it soon if I don''t get out of here.


    Then suddenly there was light a bright light that took over my space and I was in apletely white


    room. I looked around, seeing nothing familiar. I touched myself, feeling no wound on my stomach or


    my chest. I was in a white robe and looking down to see I was barefoot.


    "Sabrina, I''ve been waiting for you." A female voice said and I turned to face the woman.


    An old woman, grey hair but also wearing a white robe. She looked oddly familiar but I couldn''t ce


    her.


    "Where am I?" I ask and she smiles at me.


    "You''re in limbo. Stuck between the living and dead." She said and it dawned on me that I had in fact


    died but my soul won''t let go.


    "So I''m dead." I said in more of a confirmation than a question.


    "Well that''s up to you. You didn''t think we''d let you die so easily right?" The old woman said.


    "Uhm we? I''m sorry. Who are you?" I asked.


    "I''m the first shewolf. Your grandmother. I''ve lived for thousands of years as the moon goddess, I was


    happy to pass on my powers to you." She said to me.


    I look at her waiting to hear a name. Age. Address.


    "My name is Sabrina too. You have a lot to learn about the first family my child." Sabrina senior said


    and I chuckled at her words.


    "My life has been a mess. It''s an even bigger mess with me being here. I broke a lot of hearts when I


    died and I have a son I so badly want to go back to so I''m sorry, a history lesson is thest thing on my


    to do list." I say and Sabrina senior chuckles.


    "I was just like you when I was younger." She says to me.


    "Ok grandmother, I need to go back to my mate. I need to go back to my family, I need tofort my


    love. I know he won''t be able to go on without me, he won''t be able to survive losing another mate. My


    son, he''s special. I love him dearly and I''d give anything to go back to him. To hold him and sing to him,


    I can''t die yet. My son won''t even remember me!" I say in desperation.


    "You don''t need to tell me. Like I said it''spletely up to you if you want to live or not." She tells me. I


    sigh in annoyance.


    "And how do I go back to the living? I''m in limbo remember?" I ask.


    "You think I''d let you die just like that? As ancestors, We don''t meddle in a wolf''s life but after


    everything that you''ve been through, the blessings that you have missed, you think I''d just let things


    just end here? You have a purpose!" She says and a little hope blooms inside me.


    "What do I need to do?" I ask honestly. Ay at this point, I was willing to do anything to be with my mate


    and son again. This distance was painful not being able to feel out Xander.


    "You need to remember that you have a purpose in that life. You have a duty to every wolf, whether you


    have a life or not. Your duty to right the wrongs and set things straight. You''re alone with me because I


    made it so, you are family so our blood connects us but there are many lost pups in limbo who deserve


    another chance at life and you need to see to it that it is fulfilled." She tells me.


    She steps closer to me, taking my hands in hers.


    "Your son is the key element to what will  bring all wolves together, the prophecy cannot be fulfilled if


    you''re dead. You need to make sure what was prophesied,es to fruition." Sabrina senior says


    before kissing my forehead and disappearing.


    "Okay, crazy familiar olddy with the same name? Where did you go?" I ask and in response.


    "Just great! Fucken great!"I say in annoyance, folding my arms.


    I was suddenly thrown in toplete darkness again but I could feel Xander again. He was still holding


    me, silently crying but his mind losing it. He was slowly breaking to the point of no return.


    I had to get back to my man. I tried fighting through the darkness, trying to open my eyes but they felt


    so heavy.


    Maybe I can try heal again.


    I concentrated on healing myself, it took so much of me to heal my heart, mending slowly, taking


    chunks of my energy only to heal a small part of me.


    Once my heart was halfway healed, I focused my energy on the big wound in my stomach but trying to


    seal it closed was seemingly impossible. I used up most of my energy to heal the little part of my heart,


    I didn''t have much left to heal my stomach wound.


    I tried again to open my eyes, pushing through invisible barriers that wanted to keep my eyes closed.


    Using sheer will, using the need to save my love from losing himself as the power to open my eyes.


    Seconds passed then minutes and after forever, my eyes opened. Xander had his forehead resting on


    mine, feeling tears fall on my face.


    We were on a soft surface. My back felt mushy.


    "Xander?" I said in a whisper. X froze before looking at me in disbelief.


    "Sabrina?" He said and I nod at him.


    "I could never leave you my love.." I say and he kisses me gently before pulling me in for a hug. I hiss


    in pain.


    I had hardly healed my heart and my stomach wound was still there. Xander pulled away from me to


    inspect my body.


    "You''re not healed?" He asked.


    "I don''t know why but I can''t seem to heal these wounds. I feel like a human." I say and X chuckles.


    "You could never be a simple human baby." He says to me. His eyes werepletely red from crying.


    I ce my free hand on his cheek,


    "I''ll alwayse back to you. I will always be by your side, you got that?" I say to him and he nods.


    "Then don''t scare me like that again. Sabrina, I''m a man but I''m not afraid to tell you how I feel. You''re


    my entire world and there''s not a day I want to spend life''s pleasures or even displeasure without you. I


    could feel myself dying when I thought you were dead. Sabrina, there was no saving me. I kept thinking


    of Adrastos because I had to stay strong for him but you are my life, I couldn''t think of a life without


    you. I''ll say it again, don''t scare me like that again." Xander said before my mother walked in.


    She stops in her tracks when our eyes meet. A smile forms on her lips,


    "Hunter! Anthony!" She calls out and within seconds, the two men are standing in front of me. Their


    eyes looking red.


    They had been crying.


    Crying for me.


    Xander pulled me closer to him and I closed my eyes to relish the feeling I thought I had lost.


    Xander, we almost lost each other.