Explain why the update was stopped before


    I was not going to explain it at first, so I just lie down and let the book friends scold me casually. Anyway, it is indeed the reason for the author himself.


    But in the past few days of the update, I found that the overall reaction of the book friends was quite kind, so after thinking about it, the author decided to explain, at least the book friends who had been waiting for it until the reason.


    This time the suspension is the longest time since the author wrote the book. The reason why he stopped for so long is mainly because of two points: one is the serious card text, and the other is that there is a problem with the author''s mentality and he is a little confused about the future.


    Previously, the author had a very bad habit of updating, which was to not update for a week, and then post a big chapter to make up for all the owes at one time.


    The biggest benefit of doing this is to make it full, and the author does not need to update it every day. Just fill in the gap on the seventh day, which is relatively free.


    But the disadvantage is also fatal, that is, there cannot be any interruptions in the middle, otherwise the more you owe, the more you will feel, the more psychological pressure will become greater and greater. The author''s first serious caution was because of this.


    The interruption between October 25 and November 7 is because the author wants to make up for what he owes at one time, but there are always various trivial matters in life that affect you, and you have to do it. With the addition of card, so today will be delayed tomorrow, tomorrow will be delayed the day after tomorrow. As a result, by the seventh day, a chapter has not been written yet, and it will not be completed until twelve days.


    As for November 11th to December 20th, the interruption of the updates over the past month was mainly due to the problem with the author''s mentality.


    The previous update of the past ten days attracted a lot of abuse to the author. This is indeed the author''s problem, and it is also worth being scolded.


    The author''s attitude towards bad reviews has always been. It''s okay if you complain about the content and update speed of the book, or even scold the author, as long as it''s not too much.


    But there are some readers with poor quality who really don’t be sons of humanity. I’ll just let it be for me to attack me personally, but I’ll still be promoted to my family. Even though I know that the author’s family had two more diseases in a year, I even scolded the patients, and the scolding was even more rude.


    I have been writing a book for so long and have been scolded many times. The author thought he had already developed a strong heart and could withstand any insults.


    But when facing a large number of personal attacks and comments greeting my family, I realized that I was not strong and still had a glass heart. My mentality would still collapse when I was scolded to the point of pain.


    After the last time the author''s mentality of being scolded broke down, he disbanded several book friends groups and deleted most of the book friends, leaving only a few people. In addition to the book review area, he completely cut off contact with ordinary book friends. Even if he responded, he only replied to book friends with high fan values.


    Although I regretted it afterwards and felt that I was irrational and couldn''t bear it, I could not bear it and then pass it, but since it was already like this, I will continue to keep it.


    After being scolded by book friends again, I was so distressed that I was wondering why I wrote my own book?


    I don’t rely on writing books to support myself. I say it’s a part-time job, but I just have interests and hobbies. I devote most of my free time, but I was chased and scolded by so many people. Is it really worth doing this?


    Also, the more you write this book, the more you write, the more time you invest, the more you write, the more you spend, and the more you write, the more you spend, the more you spend, the author''s passion for writing has been almost exhausted. The reason why I have been persisting is that I want to give an explanation to the book friends I have been following, and the other is that I also want to give an explanation to myself, and I don’t want my efforts to be in vain for so many years.


    But after so much, I found that I didn’t seem to have much motivation to continue to persevere.


    So, is it still meaningful to continue writing?


    What if I take advantage of this interruption and just end it directly and let myself be completely free?


    This is my true thought at that time, but I was also very entangled. I wanted to be relieved after the end, but I didn’t want to end in such a mess. I tortured myself for about a month.


    I have a lot of free time this month without updating, but after being too idle, I am not used to it, and I always feel uneasy, so I upgraded my computer configuration and downloaded many 3A games that I wanted to play but had never played before, such as: ff7, Resident Evil 4 reset, Pokémon Zhuzi, Wolong, Nobunaga, etc.


    But none of them were opened.


    During this period, many of the book friends I did not delete came to ask me why I didn’t update and when I would update, but I didn’t reply any because I didn’t have the shame and really didn’t know how to reply.


    Maybe after a long time, I figured it out myself, but I was still unwilling to end it like this. It would be another matter whether I would write a book or not, but this book must not be eunuchs, and the previous efforts must be wasted.


    So I logged in to the account again and prepared to resume updates, but I didn’t write it for more than a month, and my writing status plummeted, and the cardinal was even more serious than the last time.


    I remember very clearly that on another weekend, I was sitting in front of the computer and typing for a day, but when I wrote, I was always distracted. I wanted to play with my phone after writing a few words, but before I knew it, the day passed. I looked back and wrote a few hundred words.


    Finally, under the guidance of two enthusiastic book friends, the author worked hard for about a week before he finished writing the 8,000-word chapter updated on the 20th.


    After this chapter was posted, I didn’t know what the book friends would react, but I felt relieved. After that, my condition finally recovered and I didn’t continue to have a card.


    This is the author’s mental journey during this period, which is basically my personal reason. I feel a little pretentious, so I solemnly thank my book friends for their unyielding and persisting until now. You are really the most tolerant readers of Qidian.


    Thank you!


    (This chapter ends)