Chapter 10


    Damon


    I said it , the reason behind the guilt that had been fucking consuming me since she returned … I


    needed to tell her anyway . Her porcin doll – like face stayed in its perfect mask , yet I could feel her


    pain , hear her racing heart and see the way her fingers trembled ever so slightly on that donut .


    Her eyes , which were so fucking unique and perfect , looked at me , but there was n o hatred there .


    Dammit I fucking hurt her … I’m fucking Sorry , Raven . ” Raven ? ” I whispered closing the gap


    between us , but she suddenly snapped out of it , despite her erratic heartbeat .


    Thanks for telling me . Do you have anything else to say ? ” She asked with a nk face . 1 frowned ,


    slightly concerned . Shit , I didn’t know what to say … Fuck it .


    1 stepped closer , pulling her tightly into m y arms . I didn’t care if the donut went everywhere , I just


    needed to tell her I’m fucking sorry . Her fresh floral scent and the beating of her heart soothed me .


    That emptiness I felt inside seemed to lift and I inhaled her scent for a split second before she pulled


    away roughly . ” Don’t touch me without my permission . ” She growled . ” Now get out . ” I fucking felt


    like shit , but it was a littlete for that . If anything ,


    I needed to fix things with her , with Liam …. ” Sure , I’ll leave , but I am sorry Raven . ” I said softly ,


    reaching for her face only for her to move away from my touch . ” Out . ” She said icily . I looked into


    her gorgeous face ; her pouty lips with that cupids bow … Her slender frame , with those small round


    breasts of hers and curved hips . She was fucking perfect … I turned away , wishing things could have


    been different .


    There was one more visit I needed to make tonight , and I wanted to get it over with . I left her room ,


    shutting the door behind me , walking down the stairs to see Raven’s dad just step inside . ” Oh hey ,


    Mr Jacobs . ” I said , giving the man a smile .


    He gave me a small smile . ” Damon , it’s nice to see you here , catching up ? ” ” Yeah , ” I replied , with


    a small smile . He nodded in approval . ” What’s that ? ” He asked , looking at the jam on my T – shirt .


    I smirked , ” Raven being Raven . ” I said . He shook his head chuckling .


    ” She never changes . ” ” It’s what’s great about her . ” I said giving her mom a small wave . I nced


    back up the stairs , but she hadn’t followed.


    Well , can I me her ? I had fucking hurt her … I left the Jacobs home and headed towards the


    packhouse where Robyn lived . I did need to tell her about Raven , and I knew even this was going to


    fucking hurt . I entered , it was pretty silent .


    I could hear a few of the teens in the game room , and I first went to theundry room to grab a random


    clean shirt . I don’t really care who the hell it belongs to . I then made m y way upstairs to her room ,


    knocking lightly on the door . ” Who is it ?


    ” ” The big bad wolf . ” I replied . Her softughter followed before the door was pulled open and she


    pulled me inside , kissing my lips softly . But instead of pulling her into my arms and kissing her back , I


    moved back , casting her a small smirk . I shut the door , not missing how she was observing me .


    10 She was gorgeous , with warm brown skin , dark brown eyes and her ck hair , which was


    currently open . She was so different from Raven , yet still beautiful , She wore a crop top and tiny


    shorts that left her thick thighs and sexy booty on disy .


    ” Ok , I know that face . What’s up ? ” She asked concerned before she tugged me to the bed . I looked


    at her calctingly . How the fuck do I do this ? I needed to end , for a moment I remembered how I felt


    when Kiara ended it with me .


    Although we had just been sex partners , it had fucking hurt  . ” I uh … ” I ran my hand through my


    hair a s she sat next to me , crossing her legs and cing a hand on my arm , concern clear in her face


    . ” Damon , you’re scaring me , babe . ” I stared ahead , my hands crossed in front of my mouth . ” You


    know Raven ? ” I began ncing at her .


    She frowned , a pour on her plump , lush lips . ” Yeah ? ” ” Well , it’s just that … We need to end this . ”


    I muttered . She looked confused for a moment , before her heart thudded in her chest and I knew she


    understood what I had just said .


    I stared into those chocte eyes of hers seeing the hurt in them . *** ” I … I never knew you and


    Raven were ever something … I know you talked about her , but I thought you were just friends … ”


    She whispered , now staring at her hands , examining her painted nails .


    I reached over and took her hand . ” She’s my mate . ” I said quietly . Robyn’s eyes closed and I heard


    her suck her breath in . Shit . Thanks to my selfish reasons , I had hurt two women … She slowly pulled


    out of my hold , moving away from me on the bed .


    Her chest was rising and falling heavily , but despite that , she was trying to hold herself together . ”


    Shit Damon … She’s your mate … How long have you two known ? ” ” Three years . ” I said quietly .


    Her eyes shed and a frown creased her forehead .


    ” So then why did you even get involved with me ? ” She asked , unable to hide the hurt in her voice . ”


    I fucking don’t know … I just … You fucking made me feel better . ” I said , feeling like shit . She


    nodded , cing her forehead in her hand . ” Fuck … That day she returned , no wonder you pulled


    away ; I thought for a moment it was strange .


    Then I thought maybe you two had dated , but then I thought no … I thought you had shared stuff with


    me … But I never thought she was your mate . What must she have fucking been thinking ?! ” She


    snapped now , jumping off the bed .


    She grabbed a pillow and whacked me across the head . ” You are such a fucking dickhead ! ” Ok ,


    maybe I deserved that . ” I’m sorry , Robyn . ” I said softly . ” You should be apologising to your mate ,


    not me ! ” She shook her head .


    ” Get the fuck out Damon , we are fucking done . ” ” T ” Yeah , that’s why I came ” OUT ! ” She snapped


    and I got up , I was literally losing someone else important to me . I didn’t say anything . Casting one


    last nce at her , she had her back to me , but her heart was racing erratically .


    I left , closing the door behind me but I didn’t move , leaning against the wall and closing my eyes .


    Silence . For a few minutes , there was nothing , until I heard the stifled sobsing from inside the


    room . I closed my eyes . She had waited for me t o leave … Dammit … Tonight I had hurt two women I


    cared for , I really need to talk to Liam like fucking for real.


    We needed to sort our shit out , one way o ranother . I headed home , unlocking the front door . I


    stepped inside , the television was on which meant Mom was still downstairs .


    I walked through to the living room , sighing inwardly when I saw the empty beer bottles that were


    strewn across the floor . As for my mom , she was sitting on the coach , her arms wrapped around her


    legs . Fuck , another bad day , I should havee home sooner . ” Hey , Momma . ” I said brightly ,


    picking u p a few bottles when I entered the room .


    She looked up , her heart thundering as she looked around , as if searching for something , A shaky ,


    hopeful smile crossed her face before it vanished . ” Damon , where’s your dad ? ” She asked . I ced


    the bottles down and dropped onto the couch next to her . The smell of alcohol was strong in the air


    and Mom was a mess . ” Momma … Dad ain’t- ”


    ” He must have gone to Elijah . He called him , right ? Is heing home soon ? You know , as Beta ,


    he has a lot going on . ” She said to me , her voice shaky , her eyes . blurring with tears . 2 It fucking


    hurt .


    Nearly three and a half years had passed since Dad was killed , but Mom had never ovee it . She


    lived in the past , and with each passing year , I was losing her a little more . Sometimes she was numb


    , sometimes she thought he would return , sometimes shepletely refused to believe he was gone ,


    sometimes she’d just rpse into breaking down and sobbing over his loss all over again .


    ” He’d want you to go to bed on time and get your rest . ” I said quietly , smiling at her . She shook her


    head . ” No … No , Aaron prefers me waiting for him . Why are you lying ?! ” ” Ok , I’m sorry . Come on


    , how about you wait upstairs for Dad so I can get this ce cleaned ? ”


    ” Wait , is that him ? ” she suddenly perked up , staring into the corner , unseeing . The loss of a mate


    … Some people recovered but many weren’t able to survive it . As for Mom , she was a shell of the


    person I once knew .


    Losing Dad that night , having to take up that position as Beta , being here for Mom , trying to hold it all


    together it wasn’t fucking easy … I know I’m not doing a good job at it . everything with Liam and


    Raven , losing thest of my closest friends in one go had been another hit , and the fear of losing


    either forever had messed me u p . The fear that if I went after my mate and Liam did something in


    anger scared me .


    I kept away from her . I didn’t make the right choices , I know that , but what was I meant to do ? Uncle


    El had lost his dad , sister and best friend , then Liam wanted to leave and he hadn’t wanted anyone to


    know about our situation .


    I couldn’t stress his parents out anymore by telling them the truth , so l stayed fucking silent , hoping


    things would better . But every message I sent , he refused to acknowledge . Every email , every social


    media DM , he blocked me from everywhere .


    That’s when Robyn had entered my life and we began to connect , soon she became that happy ce


    for me . Even if it didn’tplete me , it took the edge off the gaping hole in my fucking chest . 2 Mom


    began sobbing , bringing me out of my thoughts as I pulled her into my arms , rocking her gently .


    ” Your dad’s not talking to me , he’s not replying , he blocked me from the link ! ” She sobbed , clinging


    to me . ” I know … It’s going to be ok . ” I whispered , stroking her hair . When would things be


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