Chapter 574 She Was Not A Saint


    Emily thought about her stillborn child, and she still couldn''t help being sad. With tears welling in her


    eyes she spoke, "If you have forgotten, I can remind you of everything that you did to hurt Jacob and


    me... Speaking of being sorry, you should feel sorry for everything."


    Jack''s face turned gray. Every word she said stabbed him in the heart like an ice-pick. Then he closed


    his eyes in disappointment. He was afraid to look at the expression on her face.


    It was true that he had brought all these troubles on himself.


    This was retribution for all of the bad things which he had done.


    He had no right to me others.


    "I''m sorry, Emily."


    "You don''t have to tell me you''re sorry." She realized her gaffe and wiped away her tears, "You lost the


    use of your legs because of Beryl. You saved her. I really thank you from the bottom of my heart for


    that. I will do my best to make it up to you."


    She knew that it was a great blow to him to be paralyzed. But she had suffered no less than he had.


    Who should be the one to me? It was hard to say.


    "You can contact me after you make up your mind." She wrote down her contact information on a


    nearby notepad, then she set it down on the desk.


    However, he grabbed her hands suddenly and held on so tightly with an expression of panic on his


    face, "Emily, please don''t go. Please listen to me... I don''t want anypensation. I just want..."


    She struggled to pull away his hands, "What do you want?"


    He looked at her intensely, with eyes full of guilt and regret, and unspeakable sadness. When he


    spoke, he enunciated every syble with great difficulty, "I just want your forgiveness..."


    Her eyes met his unflinchingly, and after a moment she released her fingers one by one before replying


    firmly, "That''s impossible."


    She was obliged to thank him andpensate him for Beryl. But she would never forgive what he had


    done.


    Those were injuries so grave as to be carved into her very bones. When she had thought that Jacob


    had died it was as if she had wanted to die also.


    That was the most desperate moment in her life.


    And the second child she lost.


    She was not a saint, and she would never forgive Jack for what he had done.


    "Emily..." Watching her turn and leave without looking back, his thin face seemed to lose vigor.


    Although he was still young, his face had be lined like an old man''s.


    Would she really never forgive him?


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    He would live in sorrow for the rest of his life. Never be able to earn redemption.


    What was the difference between living this way and being dead?


    It would be more painful than death.


    He looked numbly at her departing back, and the light in his eyes flickered like a dying candle. In his


    chest, his heart seemed to stop beating.


    He raised his hand and slowly covered his heart.


    His home used to filled with flowers and lush grass because of her, but it turned into a desert after she


    left. So did his heart.


    Her refusal had now set a fire in his heart. From now on the seeds of love would never more flower


    there. His soul had be a barren wastnd.


    At the very beginning, it was he who had ruined everything for himself.


    Ah, retribution.


    When she reached the door, a bodyguard in a ck suit suddenly barred her way, stopping her from


    leaving. Still she refused to look back.


    Jack, who had been silent, said hoarsely, "Let her go."


    The bodyguard immediately stepped aside, "Miss Emily, please."


    Collecting Beryl from the waiting room, she left the hospital quickly.


    Her daughter hesitated though and looking back said, "Mommy, I haven''t said anything to Uncle Jack


    yet."


    "He needs rest. Maybe next time." She didn''t exin more, for she didn''t want Beryl to know what he


    had said. He had said those words without thinking.


    It would hurt her little heart.


    ...


    In Tyrone Mansion


    Emily returned with Beryl. As she entered the door, she could sense an atmosphere of gloom and


    depression.


    The very air seemed to echo from some battle which had taken ce in her absence. "Where did you


    go today?" Emily heard Jacob asked tly, so she answered, "I went to visit my parents today. Then I


    went to see a patient."


    Jacob nodded. It couldn''t be said whether he was happy or angry from his handsome face. Revealing


    nothing, he asked the baby-sitter, "Take Beryl upstairs."


    The baby-sitter nodded and took the child in her arms.


    But Beryl squirmed restlessly in her arms and showed some reluctance toply. "No. I don''t want to


    go upstairs. I want to y here."


    Emily had no idea what was going on with Jacob, so she gently kissed Beryl''s head toforted her,


    "Dear Beryl, mommy will apany you soon. Okay?"


    Beryl then finally nodded tamely, "You''d better hurry up."


    Then only Jacob and Emily were left in the living-room.


    Although he was sitting, he was still superior over everyone and he was now looking down on the


    woman in front of him, "Emily, I ask you for thest time. Where did you go with Beryl?"


    Recently, he had gone to work and returned back home at the same time every day, so that he could


    see Emily. This had be almost habitual.


    But today, the house had suddenly been empty. He returned to find them gone.


    At first he worried that Emily had run away with their daughter. As a result he had be so enraged


    that he almost killed the staff who had failed to stop her.


    He didn''t kill them simply as that would have taken too much time. Instead he sent employees to the


    city police to copy surveince footage of the whole city.


    Millions of thoughts and fears had gued his mind.


    Would something terrible happen to a woman and her child while they were outside? There were many


    cars on the streets. At times Emily seemed to be a little fugue, and he worried that she didn''t have the


    sense to avoid getting run over by a speeding car.


    Another thought hit him then. What if they had been kidnapped because she was his wife and Beryl his


    daughter?


    Anxiety was an unfamiliar feeling to him, and he was ready to turn over the whole of Jing City to find


    her if need be.


    Soon, his subordinates had located their whereabouts though.


    Emily took Beryl to the cemetery to visit her foster parents, and then they went to the hospital to visit a


    patient.


    The relief was instant, but when he saw the name of the hospital, he became furious.


    How dare she go to see Jack without his permission!


    Great! Did she still have feelings for her ex-boyfriend, hence the secret visit?


    She even took their daughter with her. Did she want to find a new daddy for Beryl?


    She hadn''t even had a chance to answer him, when she saw him take a note from his pocket. Slowly


    he opened it to reveal the exact slip of paper which she had written her contact information on for Jack!


    "How did you get that..."


    He ripped the paper to pieces, cutting her off. Throwing the shreds down negligently, they flurried to the


    floor like snow.


    Suddenly she had an intensely cold sensation at the pit of her stomach.


    She understood now that he was angry.


    "You just can''t change your nature, can you?" Rising, he crossed the space between them with a few


    long strides, "You seduce other men behind my back when I am not at home. Tell me. How many times


    have you done this before?"