Chapter 45
Chapter Forty-Five There she was.
Two years I’d been looking for her and yet it was like she had just fallen out of the sky, having been
completely untraceable this entire time.
And the nagging I’d been feeling inside my head? I should have met Thea months ago. Aleric first
introduced us before hising of age, so they should have already been dating at this point. I
remembered that she hadn’t been allowed to attend tonight’s event however I couldn’t recall why exactly.
But she hadn’t shown herself even once this entire time I’de back. And, as far as I knew, she hadn’t
even shown herself to Aleric yet. And yet, here she was… Staring right up at me. Like she knew who I
was. My body immediately tensed up as I realised she must have found out I’d hired someone to track
her down. That would exin how she had been able to avoid being found this entire time. Well, I’d
already worked out she had begun orchestrating my death from possibly years before it had happened.
Her whole sweet, naive persona had been a charade from the beginning that I’d been too blinded by my
jealousy to see. So, needless to say, I knew she had it in her to be smart enough and figure out I was
trying to find her.
But why would that stop her from meeting Aleric? No one knew why I wanted to find her except me. Was
it because Aleric and I were closer this time? Did she feel threatened?
I could feel my heart racing just looking at her. Neither of us moved, just standing frozen in ce with
eyes locked knowingly. The tension between us was thick.
Aleric may have been the one to swing the sword and break me emotionally beyond repair, but at the
end of the day, my journey to death had started because of her. Because she had wanted Aleric for
herself… because she had wanted to be Luna.
Suddenly, Thea was the first to break eye contact. She turned around and started walking towards the
exit, blending in with the crowds of people below.
But if this was my only chance to catch her then I couldn‘t let it go to waste. I needed to follow her.
Maybe find out where she was living.
I quickly kicked my heels off, cursing my choice in footwear, and ran through the mass amounts of
people, down the stairs, until I stood just below the balcony where I’d first seen her.
I had scanned every face I ran past, scrutinising them for any simrity to Thea… But none of them were
her.
…She was gone.
I couldn’t see her anywhere and, without any decent sense of smell, I wasn’t going to be able t o track
her either. She hadpletely managed to avoid passing me and maybe had even left
the party already by the time I’d gotten downstairs. Too many people had slowed me down as I had tried
to catch up to her quickly. “Fuck!” I screamed, punching the tree next to me out of frustration. I’d been so
close. She had really been here. Should I have just let her go, watching where she went before I ran
downstairs? Should I have yelled out to her? What would I have even said? ‘Hey, I think you killed me in
my past life, stay there while I ask you some questions in case you’re going to try that again’? I ended up
waiting below that balcony for an hour, scanning the crowds for any sign of Thea, but she never returned.
And the more time that passed, the angrier I became at myself. Everything that had happened this night
had been a disaster and I had allowed myself to be invested in the wrong things.
When I finally conceded she wasn’ting back, I headed straight home. I waspletely shaken by
the entire encounter and knew there was nothing good waiting for me if I went back inside. It seemed like
an obvious choice that I should give the rest of the event a miss.
However, even once I returned home, I could still feel myself shaking.
But I didn’t feel scared like when I had seen Aleric for the first time. I didn’t feel like breaking down and
crying, or even wanting to run away.
No… this time?
I felt pissed.
The next day I went to the gym before work to get my mind off everything that had happened. It was a
public gym that had private rooms on the second floor, of which ranked members could use. I usually
had the room booked permanently out every day in the event I needed it; which normally was exactly the
case whenever I had free time.
I was grateful for the space as usually the public area was overly upied. Not that it was a major issue,
just that having constant stares and whispers from other people always made a workout less pleasant.
“Knock, knock,” a voice suddenly came from the door. I had been hitting a punching bag for thest thirty
minutes, imagining in my head that it was alternating between one of two people; one of those two being
the very person now standing a t the door.
“Cai,” I greeted, hitting the bag again but this time with excessive force. Just in case he didn’t get the hint
from my tone.
I continued to train but hisck of a response was unnerving.
“What do you want?” I finally asked after he hadn‘t said anything. I straightened up to face him and wiped
at the sweat on my forehead,pletely out of breath. “Uhh...,” was all he said when I turned to him. He
shook his head as if trying to remember why he was here himself. “Right. I was hoping we could talk
aboutst night.”
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“Why the fuck...,” I said between breaths, “…do you think I‘d want to talk to you?”
“Because I brought you a gift,” he said with that stupid charismatic smile, holding up a stic bag with
something inside.
I warily regarded it. “Come on, Aria. Just give me some time, please?” I exhaled, annoyed. “Fine.” I’d left
my clothes and towel over by the door, and so I walked over to begin throwing it on over my work out
skins.
“But for the record...,” I said, grabbing the stic bag from his hand after I’d changed, “this is the shittiest
gift wrapping I’ve ever received.”
Heughed. “Apologies, it was ast minute gift.”
I threw my backpack and towel over my shoulder, brushing past him to leave the gym, and walked
across the road to where a small park was; all without even looking back once. There was arge tree
that was further in and mostly private. I sat myself down there under its shade and waited for Cai to take
a seat on the grass next to me.
“So… what could you have possibly gotten me to make up for that bullshit move you pulledst night?”
“Well… I asked Myra what you like these days and she suggested this.” I pulled out a small foam box
from inside the bag that felt warm to touch. So, of course, inside contained the one thing Myra knew I
was weak for; nuggets and fries. “You brought me fried food to the gym?” I asked. “Are you telling me
you don‘t want it?” He tilted his head slightly as he looked at me, almost as if he knew what my answer
was
already.
I sighed.
Just because I was angry at him, it didn‘t mean I had to take it out on the food. And so, I started eating it,
noticing the taste was even simr to the one from the cottage cafe. He either found a ce just like it or
went the extra mile to get it from the usual spot.
“Is that the ne Myra gave you?” he asked, after watching me eat for a while.
I looked down, seeing that I’d thrown it on with the rest of my clothes like normal. It was more of a habit
than anything to wear it these days and typically I didn‘t even notice it.
“…Yes,” I answered. Was this his attempt at trying to get me to remember the ‘good ol‘ days‘?
“So, are you going to apologise to me then?” I asked, pushing past the small talk before he managed to
make me forget why I was upset. “I assume that’s why you’re here since you’vee all this way,
seeking me out with a peace offering.” “Depends,” he said, lying down t on the grass behind him, using
his arms to support his be head.
The sun was shining through the trees and creating a shadow pattern across his face. Somehow the little
bits of sunshine made his eyes burn brighter. But I was more mesmerised b y the way the shadows
moved every time the wind picked up ever so slightly.
“On...?” I prompted, trying to refocus back on the issue at hand. He closed his eyes, his expression
bingpletely rxed. “On whether or not you’re going to actually listen to me today.”
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I felt a pang of guilt for a split second when I realised it was true that I had continuously cut him offst
night. Maybe he really did have a good exnation? But it was a short lived sensation once I reminded
myself about why I was angry in the first ce. If anything, it was another reminder that Cai had that way
about him; that presence that always made me want to give in and forgive him, even if I didn‘t want to.
He was so stupidly charismatic with an energy that made me want to be around him. “How about you
apologise first, and I’ll decide if I want to listen to you?” I asked, increasingly bing warier at my own
resolve the more we spoke. He smirked at mypromise before deciding to ept.
“Okay, sure… I am sorry, Aria,” he started. “I‘m sorry that I told you I had feelings for you.”
It wasn’t the exact wording I‘d been looking for but I suppose it was the same point.
I opened my mouth and was about to ept his apology, but he kept talking before I could speak
“...I‘m sorry that I told you I had feelings for you when I thought you felt the same way.” He suddenly
opened his eyes again and met mine directly, making me freeze. “I’m sorry that I didn‘t just keep it to
myself, or at least wait to tell you, so I didn‘t upset you.”
I felt my chest going fast. Was he just ying more cruel jokes on me?
“What are you...,” I started, unable to find any words to aptly describe what I wanted to say.” Why are you
doing this? Is sleeping with me really that important to you?” He pushed himself up onto his side, using
his arm to prop himself up. “Do you honestly think that’s what I‘m trying to do?”
“I don‘t see why not? What you‘re proposing is insane. It just feels like you haven‘t changed at
all.”
“How would you even know, Aria?” he asked, getting annoyed. “I stopped all that crap as soon as I
realised how I felt about you. When I left the Winter Mist, it didn‘t take long for me to figure out nothing
felt the same anymore. I still went around with girls, sure, but it was just... sex. And then eventually that
wasn‘t enough either and I just stoppedpletely.” “So why wait so long to tell me?”
“Because I’ve spent thest six months trying to find my mate,” he said, still sounding annoyed. “I figured
if I found her then I wouldn’t need to worry about my feelings for you anymore. But I didn‘t find her, Aria,
and instead, the first glimpse of you I had in two years
was watching you dance with another man. And I realised in that moment that it wouldn’t even matter if I
found her… because I just wanted you.”
I stared at him, caught up in what felt like real sincerity, and a part of me even almost believed him for a
second But it didn’tst long.
…And I couldn’t stop myself from snorting in my failed attempt to contain myughter.
“Aria! Seriously?” he asked, sounding hurt. I stood up and grabbed my bag, rifling through it for
something. “I’ve got to get to work now… but here,” I said, handing him a handkerchief. “I borrowed this
from a girl I metst night. I believe, in her words, you were her ‘hot date’ for the evening? You two sure
seemed close.”
He looked surprised yet confused, but he grabbed it from my hand to look at it anyway. “Try harder next
time, Cai,” I said, still smiling. “Oh and... return that to Iris for me.” I started walking to my car, thankful
that I’d managed to get my license so I wasn’t stuck waiting around for a cab or driver anymore. “Aria,
wait!” Cai said, yelling after me. But I didn’t stop.
I didn’t stop when my forced smile faltered immediately.
I didn’t stop when I threw my bag into the back seat and turned the car ignition. And I didn’t stop when I
felt my eyes begin to tear up as I drove off.