Mind is trapped inside a mage of various places, a drop of liquid dropped on my shoulder. Head up and there is giant grey cloud covering the sky. Tiny little white cloud are surrounding the grey cloud as its companions as following its’ movement. Another raindrop on my head dropped all option down mentally with one single final decision of heading home. As soon as water dropped on my head and shoulder, my hand quickly responded by pulling my hat from the jacket up to cover my head from water. My body turns around and started my way back home. When passes through the entrance of the shop, the emptiness from the front door conveying all good are stored properly, away from the wetness , in the shop.


    Water dropped on my shoulder heavily and my feet are aware of the slipperiness of cobblestones on the road which approaching accommodation slowly. Although rain pouring down, this does shut down the fire in my heart from joy. Joy from the successfully interview and earn my own money for living. My ears are covering with constant of soundwave from rain dropping. Temperature and water are dropping together and moisture in air are cooling my body down. A sense of sourness from the rain is stimulating my nose and making it feel uncomfortable.


    Lucky that water did not managed to fill in the holes of the road and my conscious is pushing me to watch the road while walking back to automatic door of the accommodation. Eventually, my feet managed to finished the non-wet challenge from cobblestone road. My mind is annoyed with the wetness on coat and prioritise shower in my list of actions mentally. Corridor is in between of two sides of various function rooms. Most of the rooms are remaining silence and darkness. Lighting inside one of these rooms when passing by is attract my attention. Glancing through with curiosity inside the tiny rectangular portrait window with a sticky cover of blocks.


    People are playing table tennis in the room. In front of my road are two separated ways of returning to my room. One is a stair which is locating next to one of these function room. Another is a pathway to the lift with passing two giant square windows of reflecting the quietness of wall outside the accommodation. Coldness remaining in my body from the weather outside helps me choose life immediately.


    Sense of loneliness from viewing friendship between others. Determined to step away from the scene for pushing myself inside the maze of multiple questions about friends is needed or not mentally. Feet on the way to the lift after the escape. Although monitor showing the descending of lift, my hand is rising to press button to ensure lift will come down for me.


    Silence around me with nose absorbing fresh air constantly. Although my eye are concentrating on the door of the life, my mind starts to fly away from the status of standing in front of lift to various foods under the dimmed light with several people around the table. It was a nice memory with my friends. We were sharing dishes that we have made individually on the party and playing mahjong together to end our party.


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    There is a thin light coming down and through narrow slim gap that connect two metal door. Lift has arrived. Opened with emptiness. Feet on the ground, passing through the small gap between lift and doorway, pressing the button by switching my body to front. Blankness in my mind allowing my mind settle down temporary from madness of constantly returning story in the past. Body works automatically as brining me back to my room.


    Pushing door handle and entering door smoothly, leaving the door shut down with a huge bang sound behind before putting myself on the chair. Brain is organising information from the successful interview. Excitement of receiving paid and being financial stable fulfilling my heart warmly. Frustration and anxiety from job rejections are vanished, replaced by the joyfulness for unnecessary financial conversations with my mother, throwing the unneeded low-esteem though as a financial burden for my parent.


    Silence in air replaced by a shower of rain water. Dropping on window of my room constantly to show its existence. Happiness sweeps away the disappointment from non-celebration of successfully interview due to weather. Blackness of the Ipad are reflecting my face with the support of room light. Trying to figure out my next sequence of action. Similar to dancing when you jumping one pose to next pose subsequently. My mind is structuring a list of movements.


    Although my brain did not frozen down from the coldness outside, it slower the my thinking process. Invisibly coldness are emitting from my body and the warmness in room rising the self-awareness of cold body. Eye on the blind that hiding the inside to outsider, whether my privacy has been protected before hand reaching at the bottom of my clothes.


    Everything is done and ready for shower. Checking whether the shower room has been occupied. Desire to have own privacy from no sharing in bathroom is rooted from the moment of staying in shared student accommodation. Powder of the desire gradually grow from every time checking on the usages of the shower as well as cannot leave any single items in the shower room.


    Mind is twisting within the middle of reality of financial support from my parents and having my own personal space. Sibling are required to stay in the same room since they were born. Suffering with lack of personal space. But the hope from the successfully job interview allowed to swift my though from staying in shared accommodation to having my own studio.


    Steady drying each part of my hair and making sure every single string of them are taking a hot spa from my dryer. Fingers are busying with browsing on Ipad for absorb any new interesting information from Facebook or Instagram. Room is remaining noisily from the functioning dryer and a back of my body sitting still on the plastic chair.