Chapter 251


    In the instant he neared closer and closer, I suddenly pushed him away, hastily turned around, flung


    open the door and escaped as swiftly as my legs could carry me.


    I could hear my heart pounding like a drum!


    My legs felt weak and shaky. This abrupt escape, for some reason, left me with a pang of regret. Why


    did I push him away? Was it because the unfamiliarity of his face, or his sudden disy of affection that


    was too abrupt, or a grudge that I was unable to let go, or perhaps the resentment towards his abrupt


    departure years ago...


    I didn''t know, but at that moment, I felt inexplicably helpless. I even wanted to run back and throw


    myself into his arms to vent my pent-up emotions.


    If he hadn''t left without saying goodbye, without uttering a single word, would I have ended up in my


    current state?


    Even if he had given me a glimmer of hope back then, I wouldn''t have shifted my affections! You must


    know, back then, my heart was filled with him. His sudden dropout and subsequent disappearance left


    me in despair.


    I was full of him, filled to the brim. But suddenly, he was gone, nowhere to be found. Only I knew how


    much pain I was in. If not for my childish intention to revenge him, why would I went for Jan


    Dawson?


    Back then I foolishly thought, “you didn''t want me getting close to Jan, right? You said he wasn''t my


    type, right? You said this man wasn''t reliable, right? I was determined to get close to handsome Jan,


    as a deration of war.”


    I thought that by doing so, he would definitelye back. But he disappeared for twelve years,


    vanished into thin air.


    I gave a bitterugh, choked back a sob, and now when I think back, can I me him?


    Even though he left abruptly back then, he never rejected me, never said he didn''t love me. I only have


    myself to me, for being whimsical, capricious, seekingfort in Jan, leading myself into an


    irreversible situation.


    That regret, from the moment I saw him again, tormented me, especially his unfamiliar face, and the


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    bracelet on his wrist that I gave him, that he would never take off.


    I have no right to me him anymore, especially considering his extraordinary secret identity.


    Is this really my fate? They say, the gentleman does not quarrel with fate, but I’m unwilling!


    How blind was I to fall for Jan, a wolf in sheep''s clothing. And how different am I from his other


    women?


    The only difference is that I''m his legal wife, but the price I paid for this is just too high.


    If not for my three intelligent and adorable children as well as Milo, this price would be even more


    exorbitant. I might as well be no different from Marissa.


    I felt confused and dazed, as if my soul had been sucked out, to the point where I nearly bumped into


    Hannah, who hade out to look for me. I didn''t even notice her until she grabbed me and cried out,


    "Mydy, what''s wrong?"


    I stared at her nkly, my gaze scattered. She shook my arm a little, and I tried hard to concentrate, to


    pull myself out of myplex thoughts. I fixed my gaze upon Hannah''s anxious face.


    She was scrutinizing me anxiously, "Mydy, what''s wrong? Are you feeling unwell?"


    Only then did I see her clearly, and I hurriedly shook my head, saying quietly, "No... I... I''m okay, where


    were you just now?"


    She whispered a few words into my ear, and my eyes widened, "Really?"


    Hannah nodded firmly, "Yes, you must be careful!"


    "Okay!" I clenched my fist, gritted my teeth and strode back towards the hall, "Let''s go in!"


    I returned to the hall, havingposed myself, and carefully scanned the entire room. But I couldn''t


    find Jerome.


    I couldn''t help but wonder, had he not returned?


    For some reason, I had a strong premonition that this rainy night wouldn''t be a peaceful one. My heart


    gave a painful jolt.