Chapter 381
Chapter 381 Open Your Heart
“Absolutely not!” Boris was taken aback by her response and hastily exined, “How could I ever see
you as a mere vessel for reproduction? How could I…”
“Why wouldn’t you?” Ziana growled lowly. “You sc*mbag!”
“No! I didn’t mean that!” Boris felt anxious, and his thoughts became muddled. He hated the fact that he
couldn’t make himself clear no matter what.
Seeing Ziana getting ready to leave the bed in her agitation, he quicklyposed himself and carefully
chose his words. “Think about it. If I saw you as a reproductive machine, then I would forcefully take
the child from you. But what did I do? I let you leave with the child. Please calm down and listen to me.”
Ziana paused, her voice trembling. “If you don’t like me, then why did you make me pregnant?”
“Who said I don’t like you?” Boris looked into her eyes with utmost sincerity and said, “I like you.”
His expression was earnest, and his tone resolute, which left Ziana feeling even more perplexed.
But she quickly gathered herself and said, “You like me? What about Vivi? Don’t you like her? She
saved your life, and you’ve been together for so many years…”
“She’s not my savior,” Boris interrupted her, “She deceived me.”
Ziana was taken aback. “Deceived you?”
“Yes. Five years ago, when the Lewis family had an ident, I woke up, and she was by my side.”
“That means she saved you, right?” Ziana scoffed.
Boris smiled bitterly. “Yes, that’s what I thought too. That’s what she said at the time, and I regarded her
as my savior. I asked her how I could repay her, and she said she wanted to be my girlfriend. So, we
got together, but I never truly liked her. I never did. I only felt gratitude towards her as someone who
saved my life.
“But that gratitude gradually dwindled. I realized that she was different from the woman I dreamt of
when I was unconscious. It was a strange feeling… It was hard to exin. Yet, I still fulfilled her every
request.
“She wanted something, and I gave it to her. Later, she wanted to marry me to be the matriarch of
the Lewis family. At that time, I thought all women were the same, and it didn’t matter whom I married.
Since she wanted it, I gave it to her without much thought.”
Ziana sneered.
Boris nced at her and said, “But then you suddenly appeared, and you changed everything. The
moment I saw you, I felt something different. When you said you wanted to stay, I was happy. When we
went to register our marriage, I was happy. I felt like I was bing someone strange, but I let those
emotions flourish.
“I started to feel truly alive because of your presence. I enjoyed chatting with you on WhatsApp. I rarely
used my phone before and disliked the back-and-forth messaging. But one day, I realized that while I
was working, I was distracted, eagerly waiting for your messages.
“I was happy when your message arrived, and I was angry when it didn’t.
“When you came home, you were always there, talking to me. I was happy about that, but
unfortunately, I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t want to talk too much with you. because I always felt
guilty when I was with you. So, I forced myself not to show you any kindness.”
Ziana listened as if she were hearing a story, except that she was one of the main characters.
Ziana pondered for a moment and softly asked, “Why?”
“Because your presence made me betray my promise to my savior,” Boris looked at her and pressed
his lips together, saying, “If you hadn’t appeared, I would have married her out of gratitude, just like my
parents did. It wouldn’t have been a love-filled marriage, but she and I could have had children and
numbly lived out our lives.”
“You came into my dull and peaceful life like an enchanting spirit. You made me greedy, vibrant, and
fulfilled. You gave me so many emotions, transforming me into someone I no longer recognized. Deep
down, I enjoyed it. However, the debt of gratitude was like a shackle, suffocating me.
“Whenever I’m with you and feel pleasure, I’m reminded of how you turned me into a faithless person.
Ziana’s lips trembled slightly. “But how can you me me?”
“Of course, I don’t me you. I didn’t want to me myself, so I shifted the me onto you. I was weak
and evasive at that time, unwilling to face my desires. I convinced myself that you were the one
tempting me, but deep down, I knew I consented to it all. Since the moment you asked me if you should
stay, I indulged myself and silently allowed myself to make mistakes. I didn’t dare admit my feelings
until that email.
“I feared someone lurking in the shadows, targeting you. I made the decisive choice to protect you over
Vivi, forsaking my fidelity. So what if it meant betraying trust? As long as you were alive, you were more
important than anything else. But I didn’t want to let gopletely, so I manipted the situation by
getting you pregnant, hoping that having a child between us would make it impossible to sever our
ties.”
Ziana listened to this lengthy exnation, finding it unbelievable and absurd.
She gritted her teeth. “You truly are shameless!”
“I never liked Vivi, not before and not now. Later, I found out she wasn’t the one who saved me. She
deceived me. All that remains for her is disgust.”
If it weren’t for her lies, he wouldn’t have endured such agony in his marriage with Ziana.
He wouldn’t have suffered m*ntal torment, nor would he have directed his anger and me at Ziana.
They would have gradually developed feelings for each other, and with her personality, they would
have lived a fulfilling life together.
But s, there were no ifs…
“So now, I’m only using her as a means to gather information about Sean’s ns. It’s all just an act with
her, not love.”
Boris looked at her and spoke sincerely once again, “It’s you that I love, Ziana. That’s the reason we’re
getting a divorce. I pushed you away to protect you. Can you… Can you forgive me?”
He awaited her response. His nervousness was evident even in his breaths.
“I can’t.”
She replied calmly, “You keep saying that you forced me to divorce for my own good, but did you ever
ask for my opinion? You didn’t. You were arrogant and selfish, making me pregnant for your own sake,
thinking it would make it easier for you to control me so that I would obediently return to your side!
From beginning to end, you never treated me as the woman you loved but as your possession. You
never considered my feelings.”
Ziana’s tone was mocking and cold. “Who would want that kind of love? Who would want such
domineering, self-centered love?”
“I…” Boris was at a loss for words.
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Ziana’s emotions grew increasingly agitated. “Love is about equality and mutual respect. Do you truly
see me as an equal? Have you shown me respect? You im to love me, yet how have you treated me
over the past three years? You have ignored me, treated me coldly, mocked me, always wearing a
stern and harsh expression!
“You may have your reasons, your internal struggle, not wanting to be an unfaithful person, but how is
that my concern? It’s all your fault! I had no idea about your rtionship with Vivi. I was an innocent
person who knew nothing!
“It was your deception that kept me by your side. Why do you shift the me onto me for your
mistakes? Why do you take your anger out on me and give me such a cold shoulder? Did I make you
fall in love with me? Did I make you unfaithful? No, everything was your own choice! You couldn’t
control your own heart, fell in love with me, and yetcked the courage to admit it. Ultimately, it’s
because you don’t understand how to handle emotions, youck the ability to do so, and that’s why
everything has be a mess!
“You simply don’tprehend love. You don’t know how to love. Those things you believe have
touched me with your supposed acts of love moved you. That’s not the kind of love I désire.” She let
out a weary sigh and pleaded. “Your love has only brought me pain. I won’t repeat the same mistakes.
Please, let me go.”