You Owe Me, My Love Chapter 263
Chapter 263 Gu Mingchen In The Mirror
“I’ll do it. As long as you stay with me, I’ll do anything for you. You know that I’m being serious, don’t
you?” Su Xuyan replied lovingly.
Tilting her head, Bai Rong asked, “You’ll really do anything for me?”
“Anything.” There was not the slightest hint of hesitation in Su Xuyan’s voice.
“Hmph. Alright. I’ll go to the bathroom for a bit first.” She got up and left. Looking at the gorgeous
reflection of herself in the mirror, she saw the uncertainty in her own eyes.
She sank into deep thought. Things that she had learned about love shed across her head. She
once read that love could be equated to dopamine in terms of chemical elements. A person in love
would feel overwhelmed by a sweet sense of warmth from that chemical as if the world had turned into
a fantasynd. All that couples in love would see was the good in each other, and all that they would
feel was the longing for each other when they were apart.
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However, the effects of the dopamine would be flushed out of one’s system eventually due to metabolic
activity. A rtionship that ran on only dopamine wouldst for three months at most.
After three months, the key to maintaining a romantic rtionship would shift from their chemistry to
their morals, sense of responsibility, and attitudes toward life.
Rationality would have to be prioritized over emotions. One would have to consider the dynamics of the
rtionship and think more deeply about the good and bad of one’s partner.
The criteria for a lifetime partner would be much stricter than that of a short-term lover. With increasing
unmet expectations and their partner’s wsing to light, couples would find themselves fighting
more often. Their rtionship might take a fatal blow from all the fighting and thuse to an end.
With that, a new romantic journey fuelled by dopamine would begin.
So, what’s the reason that I’m falling deeper and deeper in love with Mingchen? Dopamine? And, why
does Su Xuyan say that he loves me?
“Rong.” Gu Mingchen’s voice pulled Bai Rong back to reality.
Bai Rong did a double-take upon seeing Gu Mingchen’s face in the mirror.
“Why are you here?” Gu Mingchen asked, walking closer to her.
Bai Rong furrowed her brows. Turning around to face Gu Mingchen, she said, “I think I’ve already
made myself very clear. You’re Bai Rong’s source of pain and suffering. Let’s stay away from each
other from now on. Even if we do meet, I shall act as if you’re just a stranger.”
With that, Bai Rong hastily made her way out of the bathroom.
However, Gu Mingchen quickly stood before her and blocked her way. Pushing her against the wall, he
said, “I’m Bai Rong’s source of pain and suffering, but what about you?”
Bai Rong swallowed. Looking up at Gu Mingchen with a confused look, she asked, “What are you
trying to say?”
“You know how Bai Rong feels about me better than anyone else. After all, you’ve always supported
her through everything she has experienced. You know her the best, so let me ask you. Does Bai Rong
want to be with me?” Gu Mingchen’s eyes were burning with passion.
Clenching her fists, Bai Rong forced out a few words. “You two are not meant to be.”
“Why not?” Gu Mingchen retorted with a pained expression.
Raising her face a little, Bai Rong replied, “I think it should be rather clear by now. Bai Rong is still
drowning in her past trauma. Every second of her life feels like torture, and there’s simply too heavy of
a burden on her shoulders. She’s sick… direly sick. And she’s almost at breaking point. Maybe… she’ll
turn out like her mother in the end… Maybe she’ll be spending the rest of her life in a hospital… “
Bai Rong’s voice cracked. After a moment of silence, she continued, “Just as she lost herst sense of
hope and sanity, she got me to take over while she sank into a deep sleep. I’m just a fragment of her
soul who knows nothing about emotions. I don’t feel love… I don’t have love, but I can’t feel pain either.
I don’t need the anti-depressants, nor do I struggled to sleep at night. I think… she’s nevering
back… And I’ll never fall in love with you.”
Gu Mingchen felt as if a nail had been hammered into his heart. His eyes darkening, he let go of Bai
Rong.
He had not seen iting. He would rather Bai Rong hide her feelings for him than turn into someone
else.
What… what should I do?
As he stood there silently as if in a trance, Bai Rong walked away from him. Before she left, she turned
back and said, “Bai Rong wishes for you to live a happy life with Zhou Han. She genuinely thinks
that. I wish you a sessful, happy life. If you truly love her, you should respect her wishes.”
“Doesn’t she know that I can never be happy without her?” Gu Mingchen’s voice was raspy.
Bai Rong smiled bitterly. “You’re a responsible man. Zhou Han has birthed your child, so you should
marry her. Love that runs on pure dopamine does notst. Love can run out too. Even married couples
can fall in and out of love over time. That’s just life.”
“Aren’t you being a little too pessimistic about life? Many in this world, past or present, havemitted
themselves to a lifelong rtionship of love! Bai Rong, don’t lose hope in life!” Gu Mingchen looked
worried.
Shrugging and averting Gu Mingchen’s gaze, Bai Rong replied, “If you experienced the same things as
she did, you wouldn’t be able to say those words, so just let go and live your own life. I don’t want to
hurt you, but I will if you continue to bother me.”
Those were herst words before she strode off.
Gu Mingchen simply stared at her despondently as she disappeared into the crowd. She looked
dignified but cold, like a lonely warrior.
He somewhat knew about Bai Rong’s past.
She had a dark childhood. She witnessed her mother being forced by her father to take drugs and her
mother getting divorced with her very own eyes. All that she could recall from the days she spent living
with her mother was her mother cutting their wrists in that old bathtub in their house.
She had crawled out once to the door but could not think of a ce to go. In the end, their neighbors
found the two of them in the bathtub and saved their lives.
Her mother was sent to an asylum, while she was sent to an orphanage.
When she finally grew up to be a financially independent adult, she finally got her mother out of the
asylum. However, things took a turn for the worst when she got kidnapped and raped on the day before
her wedding. It was a scheme nned by her fiancé’s ex-girlfriend.
Since then, her life had gone downhill. Her newborn child was taken away from her less than a week
after birth.
In her three years of marriage, she experienced nothing but betrayal and sleepless nights alone.
After all that while, he finally appeared in her life, but their rtionship came with a cost – she lost her
job and a finger. Soon after, he lost his memories. She was absolutely devastated when she found out
that he could only remember Zhou Han.
That was when she attempted suicide. The suicide was unsessful. Afterward, she picked herself up
and began learning psychology. Just as it seemed as if fate was bringing them together once more, her
hopes were again crushed.
Understandably, all that she felt toward the world around her was disappointment and sorrow, but he
did not want to let go just yet. He was willing to put his life on the line just to prove to her that there was
still some hope in life. He wanted to stay with her, no matter what bes of her.
Meanwhile, Bai Rong had returned to her seat. The waiter had already served four dishes.
Without saying a word, she looked down and ate the sticky rice dumplings.
Su Xuyan scooped a braised pork ball into her bowl. “You should eat a little more. You’re way too
skinny now.”
“Yeah.” Bai Rong took a bite of the braised pork ball. “Su Xuyan, how did you find out that Xing
Bachuan was the one who killed your father?” She said all of a sudden with an eerily calm face.