Chapter 943 Have No Idea What To Do


    Rae’s tears were still staying in her eyes and the tear marks were still shown on her face.


    Marcel’s slender hand had reached over Rae. Then, his fingers gradually touched her face and gently


    wiped off her tears.


    His movement was very soft and gentle. His finger was stroking her lips which were hurt by Reuben.


    His finger rubbed her lips gently and then he asked her with a gentle tone, “Does it hurt?”


    Rae’s heart was touched and softened at that moment. All the ice that was from her deep heart melted


    by his words. His brief concern was just like the only little source of light in the darkness. It had made


    her alive and she could not behave as calm as the stagnant water as she did in the past anymore.


    She cried. She was crying her heart out intensely.


    She was even bawling.


    Her tears were surging out vigorously and even Marcel’s big hands could not wipe off all of them. Rae


    was just weeping and her cry was going on with her low sobbing sounds which made people feel


    sympathetic when watching her crying.


    However, Marcel did not hug her into his arms. He just helped her to wipe off her tears.


    Rae was looking at Marcel through the mist of her tears. His brows were knitted in a frown and he was


    not saying anything. He just helped her to wipe her tears off.


    He was not doing any other action and just stood in front of her.


    Rae had learned about psychology and she knew that his purpose of doing the only action at the


    moment was to let her take the initiative. He wanted her to take the initiative to go and cry in his arms.


    However, Rae was not that kind of person. She could not do that. She wished to do so but she was


    afraid. She was frightened and had no idea what to do.


    However, Marcel was still doing the same thing. It seemed that he was almost acting like a robot that


    was helping her to wipe off her tears. He did not do any further movement. He was not speaking and


    just did that only action but he was treating her very gently.


    Rae’s warm tears were flowing out from the gap of his fingers and yet he was still wiping off them


    stubbornly.


    Finally, Rae raised her head and used her hand to pull the corner of his shirt.


    She had lost her confidence and her hand that was pulling the corner of his shirt was as timid as a little


    animal.


    Marcel was staring at her little hand and he still did not move at all!


    They just kept standing there in such a position for a long while.


    She was pulling his shirt and he was not moving. He did not stop her and did not do any further action.


    He was just looking at her with his cold eyes. Suddenly, he reached out and his big hand mped her


    neck instantly. His wrath was almost spurting out of his sharp eyes. He lost his control and roared at


    her in a low voice, “Damn it, why can’t you just take the initiative to approach me?”


    Rae’s body was trembling. She knew that he was pissed off! She stared at him with her vision that was


    filled with sorrowful silence. She was trying to hold her tears back desperately.


    There was silence in between them. It was an endless silence.


    Silence had made people go crazy. It made people’s blood boil and made people’s feelings to be out of


    control.


    Marcel red at her in anger crazily out of the blue. He was roaring at her, “Speak! You just speak


    something!”


    Rae went to Marcel and embraced him with all her strength. She buried her head in his chest and cried


    loudly.


    She was crying so sadly like she was heartbroken.


    It was because that she had seen Marcel’s wavering look through the mist of her tears at the moment.


    His look hurt her heart and made her feel sad as it seemed that he was in grief too!


    Her tears were rolling down of a sudden. Her crystal clear tears were surging out of her eyes. Her tears


    had wetted his shirt drop by drop and her eyes were filled with despair. Her voice was hoarse and


    trembling, “Marcel, I love you! I love you! No matter you believe me or not, I really love you!”


    At that moment, her desperate confession made his body stiff. His hand was not doing anything in the


    air. His hand that might want to stroke her back just stopped there and it didn’t move for a long time.


    Rae’s whole body was totally limp after she confessed to him. She felt like she had gone for a battle


    even though she had never been to a battlefield. However, she could imagine that it was just like going


    into a tough battle. No matter she won or lost, she had defeated herself and she didn’t need to hide her


    love anymore. She had said out all the words in her heart.


    She was still holding his waist without saying a word. She also stopped shedding tears gradually. It was


    just that her little sob was knocking on someone’s heart.


    After a long while, finally, Marcel’s hand hugged her back gently!


    Maybe Rae’s tears had stimted his nerves which made his stone heart slowly softened. It might also


    be because that he was vulnerable and in a blue mood at the night due to a phone call from home.


    Anyway, he just wished to get constion for his lonely heart at that particr moment.


    “You love me?” After a long while, he asked her in his hoarse voice.


    Rae leaned in his arms and nodded lightly.


    Marcel grabbed her shoulders suddenly so that she would be facing him. He was holding her shoulders


    with great force and asked her in his indifferent voice, “Rae, how many words from a woman like you


    are real?”


    Rae’s shoulders were gripped tightly by his hands. Her body was swaying like a leaf and she felt a bit


    dizzy. She coughed lightly, “You don’t trust me?”


    Marcel let go of her and then he looked at her helplessly with some doubts, “I am not able to judge it.


    Rae, I can see everyone clearly except you. You have made me puzzle and make me feel that I am like


    an idiot who is being fooled by you!”


    Rae was shedding tears after hearing his words. After a long while, finally, she spoke again, “I didn’t!


    Maybe you don’t trust me but I still want to tell you. I have lost my memories and forgot who I am. I was


    involved in a car ident five years ago and I remember nothing about my past. Everyone is telling me


    how Rae was in the past but I don’t remember any of it. I have been behaving myself for these five


    years. I don’t have any rtionship with any man and I have never fallen in love. There was an empty


    space in my heart before I met you! I seem to meet you before this and I treat you different from


    others!”


    Rae didn’t know how to exin it to him. Although the words that she said was not true, she was trying


    her best to figure out a way to break the deadlock and told Marcel the truth that she might not be Rae!


    For now, it was just a test! She also had no idea how effective it would be but she just felt that she


    should make it a try.


    He was not speaking. Rae continued to say, “Maybe I have met you five years ago before I was


    involved in the car ident but I just don’t remember it! My subconscious mind has told me that I might


    know you! That’s why I endured all the humiliations from you and didn’t hate you in the end! I agreed to


    be with you when you said so! I don’t have experience, I think you can also ensure that it was my first


    time that night! Therefore, all the words from Reuben and Mathew were not valid!”


    After hearing Rae’s words, Marcelughed sarcastically of a sudden. Hisughter was wild and


    unrestrainable. It seemed like there was a trace of pathos in his eyes and his tears would be squeezed


    out from his wildugh.


    “Rae, your words are really powerful. It has even made me feel sorry for you if I don’t trust you! I think I


    would have really believed you if I didn’t know who you are! I was involved in an ident and I also


    forgot many things! Therefore, I believe that you have lost your memory and this statement from you is


    valid for me! However, I felt that it was ironic as you say that you were wronged by others! You did act


    that you were inexperienced that night but all these can be pretended and even the hymen can be


    mended! But you, I am sure that you are not a good one!”


    He was staring at her. His low deep voice was suppressed with sadness and destion.


    He let go of her abruptly and then he watched her leaning against the wall after staggering a few steps.


    Her face turned pale, it looked really pale!


    He had forgotten his past. She did know that she lied to him about her memory loss but he had really


    lost his memory!


    It was true that he was really involved in an ident and forgot Nat!


    Rae fell in sadness and sorrow again.


    If he still remembered Nat, his little junior who named Nat, maybe both of them would not be so sad


    now and maybe the situation would not be like that.


    She had always felt that Marcel was approaching her intentionally but she didn’t know the reason for


    him doing that! However, she knew that his purpose must be something rted to Rae and not Nat. For


    now, since she was not the real Rae, there was no way for her to verify it. Since he had already


    forgotten her, she would still be in the same embarrassing situation if she told Marcel that she was Nat!


    God always liked to make such jokes. How could she feel relieved and go to exin it to him?


    Rae was really in despair.


    “You don’t trust me!” She spoke slowly. “Even if I love you, you still think that I am lying to you!”


    She could throw away her self-respect and took the initiative to confess to him without caring much


    about the traditional reservation of women. However, he did not trust her!


    So what could she say then?


    “What do you love about me in such a short time?” His cold voice wasing slowly from the upper


    part above her head. His voice was low, deep and depressing. He was sneering, “You are so talking


    such ridiculous things. You love my performance at the night?”


    Rae kept silent. Suddenly, she lowered her head and there was a surge of blood boiling in her heart. It


    seemed that all the suppressed blood in her heart was going to spurt out at that moment.


    ConTEent bel0ngs to N?v(e)lD/rama(.)Org .


    “If you love me, will you not tell me the truth and hide so many things from me? If you love me, will you


    be so mysterious and unpredictable which makes me feel so drifting and insecure? Is this your love?


    You are just fooling me, aren’t you?” He spoke sadly and slowly got his vision back from her.


    Rae closed her eyes and spoke in a low voice, “What about you? Do you approach me for love? If you


    are not frank, how can you request me for it?”


    Marcel squinted his eyes dangerously.


    “Marcel, I’m so tired. This world makes me feel so tired and exhausted. I have never felt so tired


    before!” At that moment, Rae felt very exhausted. The reality had made her feel exhausted. Not only


    that, their love was the factor that was even more powerful which caused her difficulty breathing and


    almost made her suffer from suffocation.


    He clenched his fists of a sudden. Then, he frowned, closed his eyes and took a deep breath to calm


    himself down. He said, “You need men now, right? You saw that Reuben wasing over and then


    you recalled the happy moment in the past! You are so greedy that you want to get all the men in the


    world, is it?”


    “Interesting!” Raeughed lightly in sadness. “How can you say that? Marcel, don’t talk to me like this.


    If you despise me, let’s break up!”


    An unprecedented panic was grasping his heart. He was gasping hurriedly and brokenly.


    Her face was so pale that he felt that her heart was soaking in icy water for a while and then roasting in


    the fire when looking at her.


    Slowly, he snorted coldly at her, “Only in your dream!”


    After he finished saying that, he turned around and walked out. He left there very quickly as if he didn’t


    feel reluctant to leave her.


    After that, Rae heard a ‘bang’ sound which was the mming sound of the door in the living room. It


    was such a loud noise.


    After she came out of the bathroom, she saw no one staying in the house. The smell of the smoke of


    cigarettes was still left in the living room. However, he was gone!


    The room was empty and Rae was the only one who stayed there alone. The strange living room was a


    ce that she was familiar with for only a few days. It was now so empty and she could almost see


    through it until the end.


    She felt an unprecedented coldness and shrank her body suddenly.


    Then, her tears started rolling down drop by drop when she looked down at her toes.


    She just felt sorrowful all of a sudden. It seemed like there was something that had destroyed her


    nerves and pulled out all the little feelings in her heart.