Chapter 647 Wanted to Leave


    After hearing what Esther had said, Elijah’s heart throbbed with pain. He lowered his head as he did


    not dare to look at her. As his car was parked at the side of the road, a faint sense of mockery could be


    seen through his clear sight. He actually did something stupid.


    He actually did something so obvious, he actually let Esther see him hesitating and struggling.


    However, even though he still had feelings for her, they were about to be separated. This was the


    saddest part of all. However, how could he tell her, how could he ask her to wait for him for three


    years? Although three years was neither long nor short, it still contained more than a thousand days.


    For anyone, it will be a very lonely and long time.


    “What is wrong with you?” Esther looked at him and asked once again.


    Although Elijah’s mouth was opened, he eventually closed it without saying anything as his hands were


    clenched into fists.


    He suddenly wanted to care about nothing and just embraced her thin figure. However, all the desires


    he had in his mind only made him let out a sigh. “Let''s go home!”


    He said he wanted to go back home, but he did not move!


    His eyebrows were drawn together as he was feeling sorrow. The feeling of frustration could be felt in


    his heart which made him let out a bitter smile. His very pale face was filled with a mournful expression,


    covering his former glory. At the moment, he was like an ordinary man, suffering and hurting because


    of love.


    “Since you don''t want to say anything, I won''t ask anymore!” Esther knew that this time, there was


    really something going on. Although she did not know exactly what was going on, she knew something


    happened. Otherwise, Elijah would not have such a tangled expression on his face.


    “Esther!” He suddenly stretched out his hand and hugged her.


    Esther was stunned and felt his body trembling.


    “I''m sorry! I''m really sorry!” Elijah’s voice sounded very deep and full of helplessness as he silently


    looked at the moon. This night felt extraordinarily cold, even the moonlight looked so miserable. His


    eyes were no longer able to hide the grief he felt. He then let out a long sigh, “Forgive me for not being


    able to tell you!”


    As he finally mustered up a smile, the feeling of bitterness surged into his heart. Although it felt painful


    as if something was gnawing at his heart, he still said those words. He originally wanted to leave


    without saying anything.


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    However, it will be so unfair to Esther!


    What had happened to him? Otherwise, he would not speak to herself in that mournful tone. Through


    listening to that soft tone of his, it seemed he had endless sorrow and helplessness in his heart that he


    could talk about.


    In the end, Esther did not ask anything.


    Elijah hugged her for a while and let go. He then said, “Let''s go home! It''s time to rest!”


    However, when she got back home, Esther could not find him again.


    After asking Quinn, she learned that he was on the rooftop.


    She ran to the rooftop to look for him again. Before arriving at the rooftop, she already could smell the


    strong cigarette smoke from afar. It had been a while since she saw him smoking. As he was smoking


    again now, he must be very troubled.


    From a distance, she saw his lonely figure standing on the rooftop as the cold wind blew on his


    sleeping robe. In thete-night, he looked solemn as if he was a stone statue that has stood for


    thousands of years.


    She did not know why she footsteps were getting heavier. Seeing the short distance between them, it


    felt like the boundary between life and death for her at that moment. Step by step, Esther slowly


    approached him. However, with the distance between them getting closer, she suddenly had the urge


    to escape. It was because he looked very lonely so that it made her already confused heart slowly felt


    sad and reluctant. Was he going to break up with her?


    Finally. she still walked over towards him. However, she still felt the lonely aura emanating from Elijah’s


    surroundings.


    “Husband ...” Esther softly called out as her voice was trembling. The tone of her voice carried a more


    concerning feeling than normal.


    As he heard a familiar voiceing from behind, Elijah closed his eyes in pain, letting the heavy


    sorrow showing through his eyebrows and face.


    After a long time, he finally slowly turned around. His deep gaze was focused on the familiar figure in


    front of him. At that moment, Elijah did not say anything, but only reached out his hand, and put her into


    his arms.


    The undisguised pain in his eyes deeply stung Esther’s hardened heart. Why did he look at her with


    such a mournful gaze? Although he was standing in front of herself with no health problems, at that


    moment, she felt as if they were about to be separated by death. That heaving expression on his face


    made her unable to breathe normally as if something was going to burst out from that cold heart of


    hers.


    “Why don''t you wear more clothes?” After hugging her, Elijah stretched out his trembling hands as he


    tenderly caressing Esther’s thin face. He observed her face closely, slowly carving a picture into the


    depths of his heart. In the long days toe, he might only be able to rely on this memory of her face


    to spend a thousand days or even a lifetime by himself. At that moment, he suddenly thought, there


    was a chance that he might be able toe back. If so, what is she going to do?


    Should he want her to continue waiting for him?


    No!


    He really could not be so selfish!


    Esther did not want to cry, because she never felt sentimental. However, tears were still inexplicably


    falling from the corner of her eyes, slowly passing her cheeks and dripping down onto Elijah’s long


    fingers.


    “Everything’s fine, why are you crying?” He painfully wiped away her tears with his thumb. Elijah’s deep


    gaze towards her was so gentle that it could melt the coldness of everything in time. Seeing such deep


    eyes of his containing so much sorrow, made Esther feel pain.


    “Well, let’s get in! You are already trembling from the cold!” His tone was full of pain and pity, but it


    made Esther’s tears fall even more fiercely. She was not used to seeing herself being so vulnerable,


    but sad tears still fell all over her cheeks.


    Elijah let out a long sigh, carried her off the rooftop, and returned to the bedroom.


    As he put her on the bed, Esther’s face was still covered with tear marks. Her teary eyes blurred as she


    looked at his handsome and extraordinary face. “Elijah, don''t leave me, okay?”


    His body suddenly trembled. This was because she said it in such a sad tone.


    At this moment, he realized that he loved her deeply yet it was always filled with sadness while she


    loved him dearly yet helplessly.


    It just that, she finally realized his feelings. As she felt her throat tightened, her words, like a surging


    river, hit Elijah’s, fragile heart. He tightened his grip on her hand so that she could be closer to him,


    close enough to hear the sound of each other''s heartbreak.


    Tears could be seen in his dark eyes. Elijah choked as he raised his head to forced back the heavy


    tears that were about to flow out. He hoped that he could keep hugging her like this forever, quietly


    holding her in his arms for eternity. Watching the sunrise, sunset, and as seasons pass by.


    Esther’s small hand tightly covered her mouth while nibbling on the back of her hand. She did not want


    the sound of her crying to be heard. At this moment, she knew that they were about to part ways.


    She had guessed it right!


    They were going to break up! Otherwise, he would have said nothing!


    However, why did he want to break up with her when he could choose to stay by her side even in front


    of life and death?


    Drops of tears started rolled down, each containing the feeling of helplessness as they fell little by little


    on the back of Elijah’s hand. Knowing that she was crying again, Elijah’s eyes turned red. He then


    tightly hugged her, as if he wanted to rub this petite body of hers and merged it with his. That way, no


    matter what happened, they will never be separated again.


    “Esther, I''m really sorry!” He spoke.


    Her body that was held tightly by him trembled slightly. Esther quietly relied on his embrace, as if


    something had been taken away from her heart. She felt empty as if the most precious thing to her had


    been left behind.


    “In the future, remember to eat, wear clothes to keep warm, and do not do any dangerous things!”


    Elijah’s voice was turning a bit hoarse but remained very calm as if he was talking about someone


    else''s affairs.


    After crying, her heart seemed to be calm again. However, as his words were about toe out,


    Esther still wanted to tell him, she did not want to hear his requests, she just wanted him to stay by her


    side. “I don''t want to! I won''t even eat or wear clothes to stay warm from now on, and I will always be


    doing dangerous things!”


    “Esther—” Elijah felt pain in his heart as he silently hugged Esther tightly. As they were now close to


    each other, it made Elijah felt torn in his heart. However, he could not let Esther get into danger.


    Elijah looked at her, his cold face remained expressionless. One of his hands was tightly holding onto


    Esther’s hand, pulling her into his embrace. Esther raised her head to look at the man. She then


    slightly propped up her body, raised her head, and kissed him gently on his chin, “I don''t want you to


    leave me, I don’t want! No matter what the reason is, I don''t want you to leave me!”


    “Esther—” Elijah’s sullen gaze looked at Esther who was in his arms. He then lowered his head and


    started kissing her wildly and without restraint, seemingly wanting to finish all the kisses he would have


    given her in these three years.


    Then, he kissed her gently, as if he wanted to slowly feel her presence as if he was back when he


    started loving her in the beginning.


    “Esther ...” he called her with a gentle tone and kissed her, feeling her as she submerged more and


    more into his embrace.


    As he felt her gradually softening, one of his hands started carefully caressing her cheek. It was as if he


    was caressing a fragile piece of porcin. Esther’s heart suddenly felt sour and unbearable, as if a


    great bitterness was present, surging from her heart and rushed to the bottom of her eyes. This caused


    her tears to start falling without a sound.


    “Elijah—” As she moaned, she could feel his hand slide into her clothes, caressing her chest after


    touching and going through every part of her back. Although at first, Esther shuddered in wariness and


    was refusing, her body softened under the lust she had afterward.


    “I want you!” His dark eyes stared intently at her face, and the thought of leaving for three years made


    his gaze towards her ache even more intensely.


    She quickly reached over and wrapped her arms around Elijah’s neck, kissing his soft lips with her lips.


    If he would not want to confess, she would also not ask about it. This was because she knew he must


    have a reason for keeping it a secret.


    At least, she knew that he was in love with herself and he was eager to have her by his side. Knowing


    this was already enough for her.


    As he was crazily kissing Esther who was below him, his big hands kept touching the skin of hers that


    he liked, rubbing it gently, as if he wanted to remember every part of her clearly in his mind.


    (Indescribable) ...


    She wanted to ask why he needed to leave, but she failed to.


    She also wanted to ask whether he will being back. In the end, she also failed to ask him this


    question.


    However, in this night, the feeling of desperation and confusion was amplified, even the tender and


    lingering love between them could not stop them from being separated.