Ste stared at Jasper, her eyes deep and distant.


    She lowered her head and ate.


    “What’s the matter?” he asked in confusion.


    “When the child was born, I was not able to see him clearly, so I’m not sure who he looked like. But he had really fair skin, his eyshes were long, and his mouth was small. He had double eyelids too.” Ste finally smiled when she talked about the child.


    He stared at her.“How did the child die?”


    “I don’t know. When I gave birth to him, he was taken away by a group of people. I don’t know who they were, and I couldn’t find out either. I have been looking for him for more than five years. I’ve hit a dead end. But if he is still alive, he should be five years old,” Ste said sadly.


    There was hope in Jasper’s eyes. “So, you’re not sure whether he’s dead or not?”


    Ste stopped talking, lowered her head, and kept eating.


    “Could it be that your ex-husband did it?” Jasper guessed.


    “That’s impossible. He didn’t know that I didn’t abort the baby. He didn’t even know the baby existed. I only asked him to find the babyter. He has been looking for him for more than three years, but to no avail,” Ste said with certainty.Original from N?velDrama.Org.


    Jasper frowned. “Nonsense, that child is not his. What’s the point of asking him for help?”


    “Then you should find him. If you find him, I will marry you,” Ste said casually. She took a deep breath and regretted what she said. “I’m kidding.”


    Jasper’s eyes dimmed. “Let’s eat first.”


    Jasper’s cell phone rang, it was Bettany Hadley. He rejected the call.


    The phone rang again.Still Bettany.


    “Answer it. I’ll go with you to see herter,” Ste said calmly.


    “She’s not in a good state.”


    Ste smiled. “Fine, I won’t go then.”


    “I didn’t mean that.” He hesitated and looked at her.


    “Are you afraid that I will hurt her?” Ste guessed.


    “She is very unstable and gets frightened very easily. She might also hurt others. It’s better if you don’t go there for the time being,” he exined.


    Ste smiled.


    He was still afraid that she would hurt Bettany.


    She had tried to help him. It wasn’t her fault that he thought she had ill intentions.


    “You should go now,it would be bad if she hurts someone,” Ste said with a smile.


    “I’ll be backter,” Jasper promised.


    She kept her head down and ate.


    Shewatched him leave fromthe corner of her eye.


    If this was how her marriage would be like, if her husband would leave the dinner table or even their bed for another woman, it would be better if she left him.


    Just three months,it’ll be over soon.


    Even knowing that, she still felt ufortable and unhappy.


    She wanted to call Eli, but she had been working through the day. It was alreadyte and she still had work tomorrow, so Eli must be asleep by now. In the end, Ste didn’t call her.


    She went out of the military region, called a car, and went to the nearest KTV. She booked a private room where she could be alone. And then she sang.


    She sang all the old songs that she knew. ‘Happy Breakup’, ‘I’ve Been Quiet’, ‘Falling Rain’, and even ‘Orbiting’.


    “How can I hide my sorrows, to the ce where I lost you… Even when I close my eyes, I can still see you leaving… I am stunned, I’ll forget about you, I’m waiting for the day, when someone will rece you… The tears in my heart have blurred the world…” She sang and cried until there were no tears left and she could no longer sing. She lowered her head and clenched her fists, her shoulders trembling.


    The door was pushed open.


    Ste looked up warily.


    Frederick Addington entered. “I know you’re alone, I’ve always been alone too. Let me apany you.”


    Ste cried even more desperately. She didn’t think about anything else, she just wanted to cry for a while. She was afraid that she might think too much, and her thinking would be chaotic once more.


    Frederick sat next to her and put his hand on her shoulder.


    Ste pushed him away. “Even if I’m sad, anxious or desperate, I will never be together with you.”


    Tears flowed down Frederick’s left eye,slightly shocking Ste.


    “I’m not trying to spark something with you. I just want to give you the warmth that I can offer.”


    Ste was agitated. “Do you think your warmth is what I want?”


    “Whether you want it or not is your business. But whether I want to give it to you is my business. Ste, do you know the real reason why I didn’t touch you for three years even after we got married?”


    Ste turned her face away. Her tears blocked her sight. She wiped them away coldly, but they kept flowing.


    “It’s because your father is my enemy, he killed my father. I knew that one day, my vengeance will burn you. I have liked you ever since I first saw you. Because I liked you too much, I dared not get close to you. I was afraid that I would destroy my own persistence. But in the end, I still ruined my n for vengeance. I am willing to give up everything for you.”


    “Frederick.” She raised her voice. “Do you think that those years have faded from my memory? Do you think that I’ve forgotten about the pain I felt when I was with you?!


    You hurt me, you betrayed me with other women. This is the truth. The truth that almost got me killed. I’m not smart, but I won’t forget.”


    “That was because I tried to fuel my hatred towards you. I’m sorry, Ste. I won’t do it again in the future. I’ve been punished. When I saw you cry, I felt pain. When I saw that you tried to kill yourself, my heart stopped beating too. I love you. I love you very much. I really, really, really, love you,” Frederick said anxiously.


    “Well, you love me very much, right?” Ste took out a fruit knife from her bag and threw it in front of him.


    “Cut off your private part, and I will stay with you and apany you for the rest of my life. I’d never wanted sex, I only want sincerepanionship. Can you do it?” Ste prompted impulsively.


    “Okay, if that’s what you want.” Frederick picked up his knife and reached for his lower abdomen.


    Ste closed her eyes and blocked his hand.


    The sharp knife prated her arm.


    “Ste,” Frederick said guiltily.


    Ste smiled, tears streaming down her red and swollen eyes. “I’m crazy again. Frederick, I’m just like my mother, I have a mental illness.”


    Frederick looked at Ste in surprise.


    Tears flowed down her pale face.


    “I’ll take you to the hospital,” Frederick said with distress.


    “I want to leave. My illness is not cured yet. I want to go back to the United States,” Ste cried.


    “Okay, you can go anywhere you want. I’ll apany you, even if it’s to hell, I’ll go with you.” Frederick pressed the wound on Ste’s arm tightly, staining his palm with blood.


    Ste stood up in a daze, then everything went ck.


    She didn’t even hear the ringtone of her mobile phone in her bag…