Chapter 74
There have been so many tears this morning. I’ve seen Le, Daniel and the twins, after I went to see
Ava at the hospital with Jake and Emma; another beautiful little green-eyed darling, yet she’s fair, so I
think she will be a mix of her two parents rather than one of each.
It’s clear that they are bothpletely infatuated with her, and they had all three kids in the private
room while Jake was taking it in turns to cuddle up with them and the baby, to let them see their new
sister. The whole scene was just heart-warming. Emma looks amazing, recovering in bed and hoping to
be hometer today, despite Jake’s reservations that she should stay there for a few days.
I throw thest of my clothes in the packing boxes on my bed. I have taken everything I want this time,
including some stuffed bears and personal things with sentimental value and the rest of my cosmetics.
It’s real this time, leaving home properly, and this time with my family backing me. No more running and
hiding, but actually doing it the right way and starting a life that is no longer under my parent’s’ roof.
A life with a purpose and a goal.
There’s some unspoken vibe that everyone knows this is different. I’m not just running away to party
and act recklessly. Following a n that might take me somewhere better and have some sort of road
in my life that leads to something more. The paperwork is waiting back home in Arrick’s apartment for
me for the design school, and I can’t wait to go back and get the ball rolling. I could stay a few more
days, spend time with the new addition, but my heart is aching to get things moving, and I know Arrick
needs to leave anyway. He hasmitments in the city, and I want to go home with him, notter.
Despite how things are between us.
Mostly everyone has gone now, to the hospital to see baby Ava, and I want it that way. Staying here
and packing up is harder than any other impulsive time I left. This time I know it’s real, it’s not a short-
term fix to a problem, but a real meaningful step out the door with no ns toe back here. Growing
up, finally doing something right, and I don’t want the added emotion of my family hanging around or
dragging out the goodbyes.
“You about done?” Arrick’s voicees from the open door. I’ve spoken to him only via text all day.
Even timing my hospital trip to avoid him. Short brief responses because I am still pissed, and this is
the first time I’veid eyes on him. I don’t know how to feel about him at the moment, and nothing
coursing through me is very affectionate towards him.
“Yup.” I answer tly, turning with attitude, still ready to do battle and bristling with hurt pride and a hurt
heart when I’m faced with a huge bunch of white flowers in a crazily expensive disy inches from me.
I falter and just stare at the dozens of white roses and baby’s breath staring me right in the face,
clouding himpletely from view. I frown, eyes roaming how beautiful they are, yet that inner demon
in me is never ready to ept an apology when I am still feeling this way.
“What are those for?” I eye him warily as his head appears from behind the bunch, lowering it with a
cute smile, looking too confident in himself today. Dressed up in a shirt and chinos over boots and
looking a bit too ‘first date’ for my liking.
“I never bought you flowers before. Figured being an assholest night warranted some. That’s what
guys do right? When they fuck up. Apologize with roses?” He holds them out to me with a doe-eyed
expression; obviously thinking cute and coy will work with me, because I’m female. I forgot how much
of a yer he used to be, and I’m not impressed that he is pulling out his arsenal of Casanova tricks to
smooth my ruffled feathers. Arrick is trying to be cute.
Right now, cute is just pissing me off.
I push them back at him and walk past to my vanity to check one more time that I’ve lifted everything I
want. Opening drawers and moving things around. My heart pounding, while everything inside of me is
heavy and bristling.
“Then send them to your girlfriend! She’s the one you betrayed, not me.” I respond sarcastically, trying
to keep the emotion out of my voice that’s strangling me. Arrick puts the flowers on the bed and walks
after me, catching my wrist as I move around and tugs me back to face him. I have no choice but to be
pulled, always at a disadvantage with him having way more muscle than me. I sigh in irritation.
“It’s a white g.... For a shitty reaction.... Just take the flowers, Sophs. I bought them for you.” He
seemspletely normal, no hint of any heartfelt apology, just that infuriating deadpan expression
when he hides his innermost feelings. That smug attitude that he knows how to handle me because he
knows me and thinks that is worth anything now.
“Fine!” I yank my wrist free and push past him, stalking towards the bed. I walk to the edge and pick up
the bunch of flowers, surprised by how heavy it actually feels, how much prettier they are up close, and
how gorgeous they smell. There’s a tiny flicker of doubt, possibly my resolve weakening at how
thoughtful it was that he obviously drove somewhere to pick these up for me beforeing here. I only
take a moment’s hesitation to decide. I turn and walk towards my table where a beautiful vase is sat
empty, by the window which is open for some air as it’s been stuffy in here all morning.
I walk over with intent, aiming in that direction. Feeling his eyes on me as he too see’s the vase I seem
to be going for. Thinking he’s worn me down after all.
Until I saunter right past it sat on the side table purposely, with two more steps to my open exit, and
throw the whole damn thing right out onto the back patio with a flourish. Turning with a raised brow as
we hear the dyed ‘woosh’ of exploding cellophane and scattering flowers on concrete bs. A sense
of soaring tion that I just pretty much delivered a big ‘fuck you’ with minimal effort.
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Arrick’s face changes from deadpan calm to utter shock; his eyebrow twitches, trying to conceal
disbelief, a confused smile and frown, yet doesn’t know what to say, or how to even react. He just
keeps staring at me, bewildered. I guess he probably just wasted a couple of hundred bucks on that
empty gesture, and I don’t actually care.
I smile haughtily and raise my brows back at him frostily, before sauntering back to my vanity to
continue checking my drawers. Almost a daring him to react. I could use an all-out screaming fight with
him to clear some of this inner rage. Completely bristling for an argument to just vent.
“Maybe should have sent them to her after all.” I retort bitchily, and then m myst drawer when I
find them all empty.
“So, flowers are obviously a no-go.” Arrick tries to make light of it, tone casual, even though I know he’s
still shaking his head at what I just did, but I ignore him.
“I think the no-go is probably the girlfriend, to be honest.” I snap icily, aware his eyes are followings me
as I cross the room. Trying my hardest to block him out and focus on packing.
“You know this isn’t like that. I’m trying to be fair while I figure this out. I am trying to put the things you
need first and hoping by the time you start school I will know what the fuck to do. I love both of you,
Sophs, so how am I supposed to choose? The oue is the same. One of you gets hurt by me, no
matter what I do, and that kills me.” Arrick bangs into the back of me as I stop; suddenly aware he’s
been following me around as I pick up items in my room. He muffles an ouch and steps back as I turn
on him. It didn’t hurt, it was just an awkward collision and I shake it off, getting in his face angrily.
“Well, here’s a n! How about, if you still don’t know by the time I find an apartment, you can kiss me
goodbye. Cos I’m not having you fuck with my heart right up until I start school. How about that, Huh?” I
shove him out of the way, putting all my strength into it, satisfied when it shifts him back as I march to
my wardrobe onest time, yanking open a concealed drawer that holds old trinkets and childhood
memories I wanted to keep here. I pull out an old photo of the two of us from Emma’s wedding, years
ago, and toss it at him.
Arrick silently watches me in tantrum mode, with that fucking goddamn nk expression, as he scoops
to pick it up and turns it over to see his neat scrawl on the back.
Forever x
He gave that to me not long after my sixteenth birthday, in a card about being best friends. He doesn’t
understand why I am giving it to him now, judging by the frown on his face and the questioning look he
throws me.
“Call it a retraction! You can have forever back. I no longer hold you to it!” I pout, m the drawer
closed aggressively and move to the bed to close the boxes I have left there without looking at him. I
ignore him watching me, feeling that hazel focus on my every movement as God knows what goes
through his head.
I can tell by the way he’s holding the picture and just regarding me silently that he’s letting it go. He
knows I’m still pissed and acting out, and he’s leaving me to simmer and calm down when he probably
thinks he will get more sense out of me. That may have worked for teen me, when pissed about
something dumb or childish, but this right here, he can go jump out the window after his flowers for all I
care.
“I’ll start taking these to the car. Bring down the lighter stuff but leave the heavy ones for me.” Arrick
moves away, throwing me another unreadable expression, obviously deciding to let me stew and not
make this worse. He makes his way downstairs after lifting the biggest box from the bed.
I bite on my lip, curbing the urge to cry at how this feels, hating that we’re fighting, but hating more that
even after kissing me like he did, he still can’t figure out what he wants. My heart is dying. I just want
him to love me the way I love him, and this is killing me.
I notice he’s propped my picture back on the small unit by the door when he left, standing there like
some sort of weird symbol or answer, maybe.
I have no idea what to make about that at all, nking it, turning away from it as though it isn’t even
there at all.