<h4>Chapter 44: Mistake Acknowledgement + Little Ming and Little Hong</h4>


    Trantor: Iris


    Proofread by DragonRider


    Leaning against the carriage, Minn felt a sense of nausea. She couldn’t help but vomit ast mouth of bile out, then rolled over and fell into the soft cushion. Old Madam Sheng touched her face gently. In just several days, Minn wasted away quickly and her baby fat was gone. Old Madam had thought that one day her little fat granddaughter would be a thin slim girl. Though she foresaw the result, she didn’t expect the result woulde in this way.


    Due to a severe carriage sickness, Minn felt dizzy and her vision doubled. She called Fang Mama grandma, recognized carter Zhang as Cui Mama and wondered since when Cui Mama got a beard. All these made Old Madam’s heart ache and then cuddled Minn to let her rest on her thighs.


    After the incident in the Yu Mansion, Minn was grounded immediately when she went back home and was punished to copy Buddhist scriptures by Old Madam. When asked by Old Madam that did she know what was wrong, Minn nodded with a good attitude, “Yes, too aggressive.”


    Minn’s punishmentsted until the family set out. She never had another chance to meet Yanran again. The whole Yu family was guarded tightly and no words came out. What all others knew was that Yanran was seriously ill and her engagement with the son of the Gu family was therefore postponed.


    Seeing grandma’s gloomy face, Minn hadn’t been daring to justify herself. It was not until Old Madam adopted a much more moderate attitude after seeing her suffering before she stammered her excuse, “...dear grandma, do you really think your granddaughter is stupid enough to risk herself?”


    ording to years of experience of her immediate supervisor, an old female judge, in throwing people in jail, an interesting conclusion was drawn, “Those risky things may look like peaceful. And the vice versa, those peaceful ones may look like risky.”


    First of all, she did a good deed without leaving a name. As long as the servants of the Yu Mansion didn’t go out publicizing the incident everywhere, Man’niang wouldn’t know who she was even though Man’niang had been scolded for quite a while. What’s more, the incident was indecent. The Yu family would rather keep it secret than leak it out, let alone details about Minn’s involvement and Manniang’s performance. In addition, the whole Sheng family was leaving but Cab Yu would stay in Deng Prefecture enjoying his retirement. They would hardly meet each other again after the Sheng family moved to the capital city or if Sheng Hong was transferred to other ces.


    Remained poker-faced, Old Madam Sheng replied, “Why you are so determined to be involved in the incident? After all, it’s just the matter of the Yu family!”


    These words went straight to Minn’s heart. Her emaciated young face became sullen. After quite a while, she slowly let out a long sigh, “Born as a girl means to speak and act cautiously to avoid being discussed. However, ..., what’s fun in living such a life? You’re haunted by various kinds of rules, from walking a step, speaking a sentence, opening your eyes, to lying to bed. Not a single moment will you be free from calcting. Your granddaughter is unwilling to live such a life like a puppet. Sometimes, ..., just sometimes, I want to follow my heart and act and speak based on my own wills.... Grandma, I knew I was wrong.”


    Resting in grandma’s arms, Minn was rather depressed. She was more upset by the fact that simr things would happen to her than indulged in a temporary relief of speaking all out. Though Yanran’s grandfather was still alive to protect her, her dad still sold her out for fortune regardless of her well-being. And how about herself? If one day, her dad needed to sacrifice her marriage for benefits, could grandma still fight for her? Born as a girl in such a world means drifting like duckweed. However, did it also mean that girls needed to sacrifice all her personalities and rules, to tolerate and tter others, and to even be malicious and vicious for decent lives with enough food and decent clothes?


    Minn’s words silenced Old Madam, who touched Minn’s deep ck loose bun softly. Actually, Old Madam Yu came to express her gratitude herselfter. She praised Minn for being able to think in others’ shoes and acting like a knight to rescue her granddaughter from the total mess. She also mentioned it was lucky for Yanran to have such a close friend like her. Old Madam knew the incident didn’t matter. She was just to help Minn reflect on herself by wearing a sullen face. This could save Minn from acting too aggressive and therefore hurting herself in the future.


    Since Minn had recognized what was wrong andpleted her punishment, Old Madam then cancelled the message blockage policy: Lots of twists and turns urred in Yanran’s marriage. Cab Yu was always bothered by the sputum stuck in his throat. However, annoyed by the incident, he spat blood with the thick sputum out. It was a blessing in disguise. After recovery, Cab Yu soon got down to business and found another family to be Yanran’s future inws. It was the family of his old friend. And this engagement was neither too bad pared to that with Gu’er) nor too good pared to that of Hun).”


    The future inws of the Yu family were far away in Dali, Yunnan. They were a local noble family. The future husband of Yanran was a Disun (legitimate grandson) of the Duan family. He was much older than Yanran and was said to be with good personalities. However, there was some problem with his legs (He had broken his legs when he was young.) which prevented him from finding a proper wife or bing an official.


    This time Cab Yu was so determined that he asked his son to send silvers to Deng Prefecture directly for Yanran’s dowry and threatened that he would open the ancestral temple and exclude his son from the family if he would dare to refuse the request. By the time the Sheng family set out, the Yu family had just epted betrothal gifts offered by the Duan family.


    “...this is not too bad.” Minn tried to think the matter positively, “Even though the man is deprived of chances to be an official, he can still be a doctor or a merchant. He can buy properties and do many other things. What matters most is that he treats Yanran well.” Thinking of Yanran’s narrow escape from the trap, Minn was happy again and said with her hands pped, “Now it would bother Marquis Ningyuan to find another daughter-inw and matchmakers in the capital city would get busy immediately!”


    “There’s no need to bother.” Old Madam said in a low voice, “Yanran’s dad promises her younger sister to the Gu family. And the wedding will be held as soon as her sister reaches 15.”


    Hearing the news, Minn was astonished and then irritated. She even wanted to clench her fists and run outside or curse the gods to vent her hidden fury. Minn was indulged in her feelings for quite a while before dizziness and nausea struck her again. She turned around, grabbed an empty basin and continued vomiting


    The Shengs was heading directly to the south with wheels running untiringly. Featuring a cloudless blue sky, the weather at the end of August in the north was very pleasant. However, Minn still suffered from carriage sickness. To divert Minn from boredom, or maybe it was due to a rxed environment, Fang Mama started to educate Minn, “My girl, don’t me your grandma. She did all this for your own good. As a girl, you still have a lot to learn to earn yourself a decent life.”


    Since Old Madam was resting in another carriage and she was taking care of Minn, Fang Mama couldn’t help but try to persuade Minn. She kept talking while she was smoothing the nket and pping the cushion.


    Thoughck in theories, Fang Mama had witnessed and experienced numerous cases for decades. ording to her experience, three factors mattered in a woman’s life, first birth, second fortune and third capability. Any two of the three would lead you to a happy life.


    Take Old Madam Yu for example, she was born in a noble family with a great schr. Her parents were nice and kind. The whole family was strictly run based on a set of family rules. We could conclude that she was with a desirable birth. Later she was married to Cab Yu, an excellent protege of her father. Cab Yu appreciated the guide and support offered by her father and thanked a lot for her father’s choice to turn him his son-inw when he was a nobody and thus treated Madam Yu well. Later even though Cab Yu enjoyed a smooth official career and gained a high position, he still maintained a harmony rtionship and wished to be together with Old Madam Yu till the end of their lives. We could also say that Madam Yu was with an extremely good fortune.


    Since Old Madam Yu had had two of the three factors, it didn’t matter whether she waspetent enough. And Old Madam Yu indeed didn’t suffer from severe pains during her whole life. There was no need for her to y tricks or to plot for something. She was lucky enough to be protected well. Hmm, maybe it was the reason why she was unable to control Yanran’s stepmother. Sometimes, she even needed Cab Yu’s help to educate daughter-inw.


    “Well, she is notpetent enough. So? Nevertheless, she was born and married well!” signed Fang Mama.


    Attracted by the story, Minn thought it was more interesting than that said by storytellers.


    “It seems that it really matters to be born in a good family! Having noble parents means all works needed for a decent life are half done!” eximed Minn, expressing her heartfelt feelings. Evidence showed that Old Madam Yu’s parents were good at choosing their son-inw. However, Fang Mama did not totally agree with Minn, “Not necessary. Yanran’s mother died before long after giving birth to Yanran. Her dad didn’t care about her at all. However, she was protected by Cab Yu and Old Madam Yu. In this case, as long as Yanran herself got capabilities to some extent, she would be able to earn herself a promising future. However, it was afraid that Yanran would inherit the personalities of Old Madam Yu!”


    “Is that so?” Minn wondered, still wanting more evidences.


    Hearing Minn’s words, Fang Mama continued talking by taking herself as an example. She said with a little bitcency.


    She was born in an impoverished peasant family. Her father was severely ill. She never got the chance to eat enough before seven. Her mother had no choice but to sell her to a middleman of human trade. Later she was sold to the mansion of Marquis Yongyi. Her birth was not good at all.


    However, after she became a servant girl of Marquis Yongyi, she was honest and diligent and was soon selected to serve the youngdy. Later she was eager to learn and had mastered a lot of skills, including writing, ounting, embroidery, and how to run a family. What’s more, she was loyal to the youngdy. Thus, she was promoted as a first-grade servant girl besidesdy Xu. Then she came here since herdy was married to the son of the Sheng family. When it was time for her to get married, Old Madam selected a male servant in charge as her husband and helped them both to get rid of their ve identities. Gradually, they had their own sons and grandsons and earned themselves properties. One of their sons became a schr and opened a private school. One ran several shops. And one purchased farmnds and became andlord.


    “Fang Mama does have a good fortune! Good people will be rewarded eventually.” Minn got excited on hearing Fang Mama’s story.


    Fang Mama waved her hand with a smile, “It is not enough to be a good person. I started to save money by working day and night since I had realized I would eventually be sold. When the time came, I offered the middleman all that I earned to beg him hard for selling me to a good family. Well, it was lucky of me to encounter a kind middleman. He gave me the chance to meet Old Madam. When I became a servant of Marquis Yongyi, it was because I could bear hardship and do extra work that gained the hostess’s attention. In addition, it was also me who urged my husband to go out and make a living. And now my sons and grandsons are able to enjoy the properties we leave to them. I serve Old Madam now not for money but to apany her and talk to her in case of boredom. If one day my body prevents me from serving her anymore, I will go back to my hometown and take care of my grandsons!”


    After she lose her husband at her middle age and saw all her children enter their marriages, she came back to the Shengs again to apany Old Madam and continued their friendship as master and servant. Her filial children all tried to persuade her toe back home to enjoy her leisure life at every festival. However, Fang Mama refused.


    Minn was astonished to hear that. Fang Mama was obviously a sessful case of striving for a better life! Now she couldn’t help looking at Fang Mama with adoration. Though Fang Mama was not born in a decent family, however, fortune and capability also led her to a sessful life.


    Actually, Fang Mama was not talkative and always spoke in a proper way. Minn knew that her nagging these days was to help her analyze her own situation. She herself was not with a noble birth. To be more specific, she was not the child of the hostess and not loved by her dad. And her mother died early. However, she was lucky to be brought up by Old Madam. Nevertheless, it was not enough. She still needed to fight for her future.


    The attentive listening of the audience encouraged Fang Mama, who then told Minn what she had experienced in serial stories. When she told stories, she had Danju guard the door to keep others away. When it came to important matters, she would talk in detail. asionally, she would discuss with Minn. However, sometimes she was not talking in a straightforward way, leaving Minn toprehend the hidden meaning.


    However, asked by Minn in a row, Fang Mama finally exined to her with a sigh, “...all said that our Old Madam was aggressive for she prevented her husband from taking concubines and threatened to punish and kill the concubines the whole day. However, ..., well, you can see that your dad still grows up safe and sound. Old Madam’s behaviors put her at a disadvantage. Though she didn’t behave as what she had threatened, she got a bad reputation because of her words. Actually, she was indeed nice and kind! She went straightforward and always argued with her husband, but she never guarded against possible despicable measures that may be taken by concubines. Her son waster dead therefore, which broke her heart.”


    Recalling what happened in the past, Fang Mama couldn’t help feeling sorry for Old Madam with tears welling up in her eyes. She held Minn’s hands and said, “You may think Old Madam is angry at your bold behaviors at the Yu family. In fact, she worries that you may act too aggressive. You can know from my stories that all aggressive thoughts need to be hidden. You would be put at disadvantage and defamed by others if you act aggressively. What’s more, all you have done may not help to solve issues! The morepetent a girl is, the less you can tell from her face!”


    “I now know I am awfully wrong.” Minn said in a low voice. This time, she knew in depth why she was wrong.


    Seeing Minn finally got Old Madam’s message, Fang Mama was happy again and began to tell another excellent example with great enthusiasm, “Thedy I’m talking about, hmm..., bes an old madam now. She has neither a noble birth nor a beautiful face. And the husband she married to is not as talented as your grandfather and to some extent, a yboy. However, she manages her husband’s personal affairs well and not a single child is born by concubines! I also heard that they get along with each other well since her husband gets old and they are not bothered by concubines.”


    Minn dreamed to be like this Madam He after hearing the story. Maybe it was just because they talked about her behind her back that Minn met the sessful example in person in just several days.


    The carriages of the Shengs arrived at Jingjin ferry and they were about to continue their trips to the south by ship. In the meanwhile, the He family happened to be there since they were heading to Jinling by boat. Madam He recognized the signs on the carriages when she lifted the curtain and looked outside by chance. Servants were then sent to see whether it was the Sheng family. It turned out that they almost missed the chance to meet each other again. The two old madams who hadn’t met each other for decades now were busy exchanging with each other about what they had experienced with tears in eyes.


    Madam He was a plump woman with dark ck hair and rosy cheeks. Though wrinkles sprawled her face, most of the lines wereugh lines. She greeted everyone with a happy face. She was outgoing and hospitable. She found Minn adorable and kissed her several times by holding Minn in her arms. Later she gave Minn a heavy pouch as a gift. Right inside the pouch were a handful of small gold ingots and a pair of Lucky Jade in white.


    Minn was astonished on the spot. She thought Madam He would be like Baoyu’s mother. However, she turned out to be a happy rural old woman. She was just two years younger than Old Madam Sheng. Nevertheless, she looked like ten years younger.


    “Have you got this right, Fang Mama? She doesn’t look like Madam He to me.” With pouch in hand, Minn whispered to Fang Mama since she still couldn’t believe what she had seen. Fang Mama replied in a soft voice with a big smile, “If one manages to be nice but with hidden vicious thoughts, it not only harms her credits in the next world, but also brings her a weary life. Look and learn how Madam He behaves. She’s got really something! Live a happy life, never bear unpleasant incidents in mind and see whoughsst!”


    Madam He led a witty conversation and Old Madam Sheng couldn’t help bursting intoughter since they met. They were happy together and decided to take a same boat.


    “My dear sister, I’ve been waiting for you to say it! This time, we have travelled in a hurry and didn’t book a boat in advance.” Madam He patted her chest, seeming to be lucky enough to meet the Shengs. She turned around issuing orders, “Be quick and call Childe Hong over. Tell him we have a boat now. His grandma ispetent enough toe across an elder sister with a boat.”


    All people in the houseughed out loud. Old Madam Sheng patted Madam He with force and pretended to scold her with a broad smile, “You are a grandma now, but still act in an undignified way! Wish my little granddaughter haven’t learnt from you and be naughtyter!”


    After vomiting thest round, Minn recovered gradually. She sat quietly beside her grandma. Since she had never seen such a broad smile on grandma’s face, she tried to tease her, “However, an old ox makes a straight furrow.”


    Madam He burst intoughter and couldn’t help leaning back. She hugged Minn, kissed her again and pretended to be angry with Old Madam Sheng, “I’m rather fond of her. She acts as if she were my granddaughter. On the contrary, my own grandson is just like you, pretending to be dignified!”


    A woman servant of the Hes came during their conversation and reported with respect, “Herees Childe Hong.” Madam He replied immediately, “Call him in now!” A tall youngster came out of the curtain and saluted to people the moment he came in. Old Madam Sheng called servants to lift him immediately. It was not until he raised his head before Minn saw what he looked like.


    He was about 14 years old with a white face, long eyebrows, and beautiful eyes. Though he was not asely as Qi Heng, he seemed to be with schr’s style. He wasposed and modest. Though the He family was rich, what he wore was just a long satin robe in in color. There were no decorations on him except for the green jade pendant hanging at his waist through a Ruyi silk braid. After figuring out who was elder and who was younger, they all sat down.


    “This is your younger sister from the Sheng family, little Ming.” Madam He introduced Minn to her grandson enthusiastically and called her by the nickname which was used by her grandma in the daily life. “And this is my grandson, Hong’er. He is three years older than you.”


    What He Hongwen saw was a doll-like delicate young girl sitting beside Old Madam Sheng. Her eyes turned into crescent moons and an aura of charming innocence arose when she smiled. However, she was apparently sick and weak, insufficient in vital energy. Hongwen couldn’t help persuading her, “Sister Ming, don’t take plums any more. They are extremely bad for your spleen and stomach.”


    Suddenly called by others, Minn was startled. She looked at the plums in her hand, turned around to seek help from her grandma, and then nced at the youngster nkly, from whom came a fait fragrance of fresh herbs, “These are for you. Plums can help you recover from fatigue. Hmm..., in this case, you’d better not take them.”