Chapter 87


    *Adide’


    Life had been nothing short of exhaustingtely-and 1 meant that literally I was exhausted and I had no


    idea why.


    Damon and I were doing amazing. Things were finally looking up for us. We had even gotten some


    couples therapy sessions. in. It had been his idea to go and I was all for it. We needed to learn to


    communicate the right way and to help each other in a healthy way


    It felt like I had known Damon my entire life but it was times like these that I forgot that we were only


    one year into our marriage. We were still figuring each other out. The majority of the years I had known


    him we were never close.


    I loved him and 1 loved us together. I was willing to work at it as long as he was in it with me.


    I had been in and out of meetings all day and we were about to wrap up but throughout the entire


    meeting I had been feeling so nauseous. It had been like that for the past two weeks. I didn’t know if I


    wasing down with something or what. Damon and Corinna were fine so I didn’t think I was sick.


    We had just wrapped with the showrunners when I had to bolt for the bathroom so quickly. I had just


    about made it in time before the entirety of my bowels expelled themselves.


    I hated vomiting. Not only the taste but also the core workout you got when you heaved and heaved


    and still nothing came out always made me angry. It got to the point where I had no more food left in


    me, just the acid in my stomach.


    When I was sure I was done I flushed the toilet and headed out of the stall.


    I came face to face with Sammy, one of my showrunners.


    “Babes, are you okay?” Her little British twang made the words sound a little weird but that was what I


    loved about her. She was hrious on her own but couple that with the ent and she would have you


    rolling inughter. “That sounded nasty in there Are you ill?”


    I nodded. “It’s been like this for a few weeks. I just wake up with nausea and I don’t throw up all the


    time but I wish I did because then at least the nausea would die down.” My stomach churned again at


    the thought of what I had just done.


    I had nothing left inside the tank to give. It was all acid in there and I didn’t feel like eating.


    I would need to go to the doctor.


    “You look poorly,” she said as she pulled out a handkerchief from her purse and walked over to the


    sink. She then came to stand in front of me and dabbed the sweat that beaded my forehead away I


    weed the cooler temperature onto my skin. I wasn’t burning up but I was having these hot and cold


    shes that just didn’t seem to let up.


    “You need some ginger tea for that stomach of yours and then some whole wheat bread.”


    I scrunched my nose. I hate ginger.”


    “Trust me, that will be your best friend in the first trimester.”


    “Wait-what?” I stared at her wide-eyed. “Oh, no I’m not pregnant.”


    “Really? Are you sure?”


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    “Positive, my period was…” I was trying to think back on thest time I had my period and when I


    calcted I was actuallyte Two weekste to be exact. “Wait, that can’t be right.”


    I walked over to the sinks, bracing my hands on the granite.


    I was neverte. I was usually early or on time but I was neverte. But I also had been under a lot of


    stresstely. From the movie to my marriage and that wicked witch who thankfully had not made a


    resurgence. Maybe that was why I waste.


    I stared at my t stomach wondering to myself if there was something in there. My hand came over


    my womb, the touch tentative and gentle.


    Was there something in there? Someone?


    Damon and 1 hadn’t had much sex since I came back from Paris. We had been so busy with work and


    he had now fully opened his branch here in LA.


    But there was that night in Paris when he hade banging on my door. We had made up. The sex


    had been some of the best makeup sex we’d ever had.


    “I’m pregnant?” I whispered the question like I was afraid of it being true.


    We had been open to kids and we finally said we were going to do it but I never imagined that it would


    be now. I was still shooting the movie and we were only now getting to a good ce again. I didn’t


    know if a baby was exactly what we needed right now


    Would itplicate things? Would we be able to cope? Were we truly ready to be parents?


    There were all these questions in my head already and I didn’t even know if I was carrying a baby or


    not. I was scared to find out but there was also another part of me that was excited at the prospect of


    having a child.


    A mini me and Damon. They would be equal parts of each of us. They would take the very best of me


    and the very best of


    hun.


    “I need to take a test.” I met Sammy’s gaze in the mirror. “Oh my God, I could be pregnant right now. I


    had wine the other night!”


    “Okay, calm down” She came up beside me with a reassuring smile on her face. “You’re going to be


    fine. Do you need me toe with you? Or are you fine to go on your own?”


    “I’m okay to go alone” My head was still spinning. “Thank you.”


    I hugged her and left the bathroom racing to my car. I felt like I was having one of those outer body


    experiences. Like I was living this very moment but it also didn’t feel real


    This was thest thing I had been expecting on this Tuesday morning.


    I got it into my car and made my way to the nearest pharmacy I could find. By the time that I got there I


    was already a


    bundle of nerves.


    I walked down the aisles until I came to the one I was looking for. I never had to pee on a stick before


    and there were so many options that I didn’t know what to choose from. So I did the only logical thing


    and bought one of each kind. I had about 6 different tests. I just needed to be sure.


    I paid for my items and headed home.


    I knew I was going to be home alone so I could do this in peace without feeling anyone’s nerves or


    having to deal with anyone else’s expectations of what they hoped the oue might be


    1peed in my cup and then dipped each of the sticks into it, flipping each one over as I set my timer.


    I sat on the closed toilet seat pondering what could be within the next few minutes of my life.


    When Sammy had first mentioned pregnancy I was a little panicked. But now that I had calmed and the


    truth was only moments from being revealed, I was a little scared but there was also that silent hum of


    excitement.


    I wanted it to be true. I wanted to be pregnant and now that I had this little hope bubbling inside I feared


    that disappointment was not far behind.


    The timer went off and I walked to the counter.


    I closed my eyes and took a few calming breaths. “One two three..”


    I flipped the first test over and looked at the results.


    My entire stomach dropped.


    Oh my God.