58 Chapter 58 ~ “Past Memories”


    “Both noble and aristocrat fictions are in a mess. Even though we have won the war, we need more funds to recover the damage...”


    “Yes, Your Majesty.”


    “So, what am i trying to say is that, a royal wedding isn’t possible at this moment.”


    “I have no problem with it, Your Majesty.”


    “Hah! You are really- Forget it. Now that you are okay with it, i will just make an public official announcement and appoint you as the empress.”


    “As you wish, Your Majesty.”


    “Just go back. Seeing you gives me nothing but headache.”


    “Farewell, Your Majesty.”


    Emperor Cathain just waved his hands to dismiss the empress to be out of his office and she left after bowing to him politely.


    .....


    Empress Eleanora came out from the emperor’s office and the door behind her slowly shut down.


    Eleanora clenched the hem of her dress but kept her emotions into her.


    ‘Didn’t you just asked me out of consideration, where you have already made the decision to not hold our wedding?’


    She had already heard about this decision long ago... but she just didn’t paid attention to it because she believed in him.


    But seems like she was mistaken... he doesn’t even love her, why would he care for their wedding ceremony?


    He just didn’t cancelled the marriage because he needed the support of Duke Dalton.


    Because, with Duke Dalton, came Duke Heartz, Marquise Roselia and many other noble families who would be loyal to the throne.


    As he be the emperor after his father, Previous Emperor Valerian suddenly died, hecked the proper noble support.


    Otherwise, why would the emperor marry a young girl like her, who only knows how to kill?


    Who isn’t all soft like otherdies but hands full of human bloods?


    This is what she had been hearing all day and night, everywhere she went.


    Eleanora walked towards her room, which was in opposite direction of the emperor’s.


    ‘You hate me to the point that you won’t even let me stay beside your room, let alone sharing the same bedroom.’


    ‘Why do you hate me so much, Cain?’


    Eleanora turned her gaze away from his bed room direction and after reaching her room, she took the budget papers that she worked for nights.


    ‘All of my hard works is useless now...’


    She nned a wedding ceremony in the lowest budget that anyone could ever imagine.


    ‘I shouldn’t have believed you...’


    Then she stared at her hands, which had several tiny wounds from sewing. She had designed and with the help of other maids, she made her own wedding dress.


    Eleanora walked towards the dress and touched it gently. A beautiful white dress with a long veil.


    Which she made by imagining her dream wedding with him.


    Simple, yet full of love...


    ‘But i still can’t help but want to believe in you...’


    Eleanora took the veil and put it over her head, she was amazed as it really matched with her.


    ‘It’s beautiful... but it’s a pity that i will never be able to wear it...’


    Eleanora felt frustrated and pulled away the veil from her head.


    She suddenly looked at it with disgust and put the dress into a corner to not see it anymore. Seeing it just made her heart ache and get more angry.


    ‘Am the first ever person who be the empress without any royal wedding or crowning ceremony.’


    ‘Just a signature made me his bride, the mother of this nation.’


    Eleanora sneered at herself. Seeing her own crazy behaviour in the mirror, sheughed at herself like a mad woman.


    ‘Look, Cathain... Look! What you made me do!’


    ‘My love for you turned me crazy! Are you satisfied now?! Will the hatred you have for me will reduce if i keep going crazy like this?!’


    Eleanora yelled at her own mind as she keptughing and throwing the things inside of her room.


    ‘I have really gone crazy...’


    Alexander was greatly unhappy about this. Her daughter deserves the best wedding in the world.


    He knows it’s just a excuse that the funds aren’t enough and all.


    But to Eleanora, she just thought her father was unhappy because it was disgracing for their family.


    Days passes by, the people praised her for being sensible at a young age. She thought about her empire first, rather then having a wedding ceremony.


    And this same people discussed behind her back about how pitiful she was for not even having a wedding ceremony.


    But Eleanora was not that kind hearted. She still had the hopes for her wedding once the situation got better.


    She wanted to wear the white dress, put a ring on his finger as they will take the vows and kiss each other to seal it for eternity.


    She wanted to have her own wedding ceremony...


    But, gradually she be busy with pce work and kept waiting for Cathain in her room.


    Only, He nevere and she couldn’t understand why.


    Till one day, she saw Cathainugh and talk with a mere pce maid, she had finally found out why he doesn’te to her.


    Everyone told her that this won’tst long and she believed it. She believed in Cathain and her love.


    She believed as long as she shows her capabilities, help him grow stronger, He will feel her love and devotion to him.


    Eleanora be the number one war strategic as well themander of the first imperial knights squadron.


    She took down every enemies for him, making him grow stronger and be the sadistic tyrant of the battlefields who loved to ughter.


    Her hands be full of blood as glory came upon him.


    Then, suddenly she was banished from the empress pce to the abandoned pce that no one visited only with two single maids.


    Countless killer was sent every night to kill her...


    She couldn’t even sleep peacefully at night where she had to see her man loving another woman during the day.


    He woulde to her whenever he felt like to vent his anger by pouring his desires on her, like he wasn’t making love but merely doing what he was supposed to do for calming himself down.


    nora somehow liked it. Because those were the only moments when he was her.


    Even though it hurted, but she liked how he hated her.


    Because you can only hate the person, you once loved or care about.


    This little false hopes was everything to her tiny dark world. But she gradually started to realise how wrong she was to hold onto those falls hopes.


    Her two unborn babies died without anykind of mourning or proper invesigation about their dead...


    Like this, four years of her marriage with him and as a empress passed.


    Then Eleanora, the empress was imprisoned and execute because of a queen’s unborn child.


    Thinking about her pathetic life, Eleanora felt likeughing as soon as she opened her eyes.


    ‘The past feels like a joke to me now.’


    Eleanora was still in the twelve year old body of hers. She sat up on the bed as she started to think about the past incidents during this time.


    If she isn’t wrong, then the war with Rua Kingdom will broke out soon after this negotiations.


    ‘I need to remember more details so that people would suffer less.’


    ncing at her surrounding, it seemed like she is in the tent. She was feeling a slight headache.


    ‘Who bought me here?’


    Eleanora thought as she couldn’t remember how she got back. She only remember bursting into crying as she heard a familiar voice calling her.


    ‘This must be my illusion. How can either dad or Ain be here?’


    Eleanora got up from the bed and walked outside.


    “Lady! You are awake?! Come and eat with us!”


    .....


    A young knight waved at her and he was immediately punched into his chest by his another collogue.


    “P-Pardon himdy... he is new so he doesn’t know-”


    The knight, who was speaking frozed as Eleanora went and took out a normal te like them to eat.


    “What are you looking at? Am i not allowed to eat?”


    Eleanora asked the knights, who was frozed by seeing her sitting with them.


    “Lady... You aren’t supposed to eat with us...”


    Another knight spoke and everyone nodded in agreement.


    “Why can’t i eat with you guys? Unless you guys are animals, i can eat with anyone.”


    Eleanora spoke and started to eat as she sat on the ground, folding her legs.


    All the knights was astonished but soon they all started tough and eat together.


    Eleanora stare at the young knight who had called her at the first.


    ‘You are still the same as past even at a younger age, Charles.’


    [In case you guy’s forgot: Charles is the guy who had helped Eleanora in her previous life to meet with her father onest time before her trial in the prison]


    Everyone soon be free with Eleanora and she felt like she is back in those war times.


    Where this same people wouldugh and chat with her during meals, assist her in fights, the only people who believed in her innocence.


    Many present faces right now was sacrificed in the war’s, while assisting her, protecting her.


    Some lost their limbs, hands, eyes, even lives.


    ‘I will make sure to save and cherish you guys in this life time. We won’t suffer like before.’


    Eleanora was lost into her thoughts so deeply that she didn’t noticed those bloody eyes on her.


    With a cracking sound, his bare hands broke apart an entire thick tree branch.


    He was angry, hurt, devastated... He was burning with jealousy that he had yet to realise.


    ‘That smile should be only mine...’