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    It was good to have it all out in the open, but still with every word I felt I disappointed her more and


    more. The only thing I never wanted to do was to disappoint her. Not just because she was my


    mate. I honestly think if I would have to pick a chosen mate, she would still be the only one I could


    have ever fallen in love with. She is so perfect for me that I sometimes don’t understand why we are


    each other’s second chance mates.


    It means David was better suited to her than I was. It was always an afterthought, though.


    Something that popped up in the moments when I realized how perfect she was for me. I know part


    of her wish to be David’s mate, David’s Luna stemmed from her will to help the BloodMoon pack,


    her pack, the pack where she grew up was going to do better. Even as the Queen, she could have


    helped the BloodMoon pack. Now that I ruined her chances at that, I suddenly felt the weight of only


    being her second chance made weight me down.


    Being pitied never felt good, still, I was more than ready to be faced with A’s pity. Or with her


    anger for absolving the pack she wanted to rescue. Not with the fragile determination she had when


    she told me she needed to tell me something. Like she was sitting on a huge secret without


    knowing what letting us all in on the secret would do to us.


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    When she was done telling us about how she experienced her time in aa. I understood what


    worried her. As wolves, you get taught that the Moon Goddess herself handpicks the one wolf that


    is perfect for you. To learn it is not an exact science. To hear that not only does yourpatibility


    change depending on how you grow and evolve as a person. But that she sometimes picked the


    second-best choice for you


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    because of what it could mean for the pack or the kingdom. Or whatever she figured needed the


    help of a specific couple. It was jarring, I have always been big on traditions and making offerings to


    the Moon Goddess.


    “How are you feeling about all of this, Griff?” A asked me and I know what she meant, she must


    be afraid that her revtions changed something for me. Made me feel less sure, or maybe even


    disappointed in my faith. In my love for the Mood Goddess and our cultures. All I hear though is that


    I am not just her second chance mate. I am the most perfect wolf out there for her. How can I me


    Selene for wanting A to save a pack that was on the brink of ruin for so long? Like A said, it’s


    not like I would have been unhappy if I found my first fated mate. I would not know what I could


    have had with A.


    Knowing I have done enough to be worthy of her in the end, finding out that with what I have done.


    How I lived my life only made me an even better, even more perfect mate, for he is the biggest


    compliment I will ever get. If anything, it took a weight off my shoulders.


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    It has been three weeks since A’s family was over, three weeks since I learned the truth about


    how being mates works. Things were slowly getting better, for the two of us. And for the people


    depending on us. A had gotten back to her Luna and Queen training. Part-time, though, because


    she made sure to see a werewolf therapist every week and go to physical therapy on all the other


    weekdays.


    We still kept our promise to make sure we took the weekends off to have time for each other. Those


    weekends were bittersweet. Being able to just spend time with her was amazing. I loved being able


    to spend time with them, not having to worry about anything. It didn’t matter if we would just spend


    the entire weekend staying in. Going on dates, the two of us, or if we spend time with our friends


    and families. It was always a good time, reminding us both of how life used to be before all


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    of this.


    One thing was bing a struggle though, I was unsure how long I could keep holding back on


    this attraction I still had towards her. The urge to mark her as mine was always on my mind. I still


    did not want to bother her with it. David had told me she nned toplete the mating process


    the day she would permanently move into the castle. Since she got back, I never heard from her


    aboutpleting the mating process again. She would be the one to initiate intimacy between us.


    Yet she never said anything when I stopped at just kissing her.


    Confirming for me that she did not want to go any further either. It was another Friday again,


    another weekend where we would spend all of our time together. Tonight was the first time she was


    going to try to shift. She asked me toe with her, to shift so that Conan could be there to support


    Willow. Of course, I said yes. Not only would I always do everything I could to support A in a time


    like this. Conan was more than eager to see Willow again, too, and I could not me him. He must


    have missed his mate as much as I missed mine.


    Still, with A does not officially break her connection with the White Oak pack to form a connection


    with the Silver Moon pack. And with us still not havingpleted the mating process means we still


    cannot mindlink. Which in turn means we cannotmunicate when we are in our wolf form. A


    scary thought, because if something goes wrong now, there is no way she can let me know. And I


    still long to hear her beautiful voice in my mind, I want to be able tomunicate with her no matter


    what, no matter the form we are in..


    After our morning coffee, I have been able to drown myself in work. iming I needed to make sure


    that I was able to take the weekend off. A did not seem happy with it, she knows me so well that


    she probably knows I am lying. Maybe I should just confess to her what is on my mind soon. Just


    not a weekend that is so special and so scary as this weekend is. The sound of a text pulls me from


    my worries because


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    the irony is that I haven’t gotten anything done with all this worrying.


    “Grill, you seem to be too busy, and maybe I am better off shifting again for the first time with


    someone who wants the ability to mindlink me. Don’t rush your work. I think I am just going to ask


    Jessa. I love you A X XX”


    The text is sweet enough, but I do not miss the implication that I do not want to be able to mindlink


    with her. So I rush out of my office to go and find her and talk this over once and for all. There is no


    way I will let my mate think I do not want to be with her in that way.N?velDrama.Org holds ? this.