Chapter 172
Jane
I flinch as Ethan’s harsh words m into me. For half a second there, I actually hoped things might not
be as bad as I was expecting. He seemed so thrilled to see the pups I even wondered if I hadn’t
somehow concocted this narrative about our separation in my head. But no, the moment the pups went
down for a nap the warm, loving father disappeared.
He’s been reced by the same heartless bastard who rejected me so brutally, who betrayed every
promise he made me on our journey.
You know what I’m doing here.” I rasp a momentter, hating how badly it hurts to be in the same room
with him. The Ethan I fell in love with hardly ever kept me out of arm’s reach when we were together.
His hands were always on me if I was near, and I always felt safe to reach for him too.
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The worst part is that he smells and looks as good as ever, and my pregnancy h0rmones are pulling
me towards him like a ma. My inner omega is responding to his anger and dominance as ever,
urging me to submit even though I have to be strong right now. I have to fight for my pups. “The
children need you. I was wrong before – when I wanted to take them from you. I realize what a mistake
that was.”
I told you neve? to contact me again.” He snarls, positively vibrating with rage. “And so you choose to
turn up on my doorstep instead?”
“Are you even listening to me?” I cry, trying to keep my voice low to avoid waking the pups. “Ethan the
pups are devastated. They’re traumatized and they miss you like crazy. I know you want to punish me,
but please don’t punish them too. They’re innocent – they don’t deserve this.”
I’m listening, Jane.” Ethan bites back. “And would you like to know what I hear?”
He’s prowling towards me again, circling me like the predator he is and making my spine tremble with
unease. I’ve rarely seen this kind of feral energy from him – and certainly never directed at me. The
closest he ever came to being so aggressive with me was after Eve and Petra’s plot, but then it was all
anger and betrayal. This feels different somehow – wilder, almost unhinged. “Please – I begin, feeling
truly afraid of my mate for the first time.
I hear a pathetic little omega who thought she could get away with disrespecting and humiliating an
Alpha who should never have even given her the time of day. I hear a spoiled schemer who finally got
exactly what she deserves and still refuses to take responsibility for her actions. I’m not doing this to
the pups, Jane. You did this to the pups.” He hisses, his powerful hands balled into white knuckled fists.
I know!” I cry, trying with all my might not to fall to pieces in front of him. “I know this is my fault, and I’m
sorry! I take responsibility – I lied, I faked my death, I nned on stealing Paisley from you!” I hup,
feeling a breakdown looming very near now.
So much for my vow not to let him get to me, or shed any more tears over him. I’m on the verge of
sobbing – but I don’t care. I don’t have any dignity left, there’s no ce for pride when ites to
protecting one’s children. But I can’t just stand by and watch them suffer, Ethan! I’ll do anything you
want, just please don’t reject them too, I know you love them.”
So what, you want to make me the bad guy?” He rumbles. You want me to take them back knowing full
well I can’t possibly take you to0, so that they’ll hate me instead of you?”
No!”I answer desperately. “I just don’t want them to hurt anymore. I want them to be safe, not taking
wild risks to get back to you!It has nothing to do with me. They can hate me if they need to, as long as
they’re happy.”
“So you would leave them all?” Ethan demands.
You would turn your back on them and walk away for good?”
The suggestions slices through me like the sharpest knife. I can’t leave them, I immediately think. They
need me! However the more I consider the question, the more I wonder if it’s true. Ethan’s right, they’
re hurting right now because of me. I don’t think he’s being fair about me deserving this punishment,
but if I’d never started a rtionship with him again, if I’d listened to my instincts and never let them get
to know their father, they wouldn’t be so heartbroken now.
They never would have been kidnapped, they never would have learned how terrible the world can be.
Maybe they really would be better off without me. After all, I can’t protect them. My pathetic fight with
Anita proved that, just like her scheme proved they’ll forever be targets. If it has to be one parent or the
other, they’d certainly be more secure and better provided for with their father.
Ethan is watching me closely, and I know he’s reading every thought as it runs through my head.
His l!p curls in absolute disgust, and I don’t even get a chance to answer him before he gives me a look
that makes it clear exactly how vile he finds me.
You would, wouldn’t you? What kind of mother would even contemte such a thing?” He uses.
The more time I spend with you, the more selfish I realize you are – do you even want them? Are you
just trying to pawn them off on me so you can start over with someone new?”
Oh Goddess, I can’t win. I’m a liar and a traitor for taking them from him, and I’m a monster for
considering giving them back. “I’m just trying to help them!” I practically shout. Tears streaming down
my cheeks. I don’t know what to do anymore.
Just tell me what you want – just tell me what to do!?
I sink down onto the floor, literally on my knees begging now. I cover my face in my hands, sobbing and
rocking back and forth.
“Stop that!” Ethan orders viciously, sounding even angrier now. “I can’t stand to see your weakness.
Don’t you have any backbone at all?”
Of a sudden, I’m reminded of the first time he stood over me this way – that fateful day I learned I was
destined to be his pleasure ve. As the memory shes in my minds eye, I recall my wolf’s
advice before we set out – her words about going back to being Ethan’s toy.
I feel a sick sort of fascination with the idea. That would certainly be a punishment I deserve, and it
would let me stay here with my pups. When we reunited Ethan insisted degrading me had never been
his intention, but now I’m sure he was lying. I have no doubt my demotion to omega ve was well
calcted and thought out – not just some mimunicated house arrest. It would certainly suit his
sadistic streak, and the pups wouldn’t have to know. They could have us both, and Ethan could punish
me in the way he clearly loves most.
Not to mention it would let you be close to him. My wolf adds slyly. I feel absolutely sick to my stomach
when I realize what I’m considering. How broken and fvcked up does a person have to be to think this
way? To consider shackling themself to a monster?
It would be for the pups, but that’s not the full story and I know it. My wolf still loves Ethan, the way she
always has. She’d let him do anything to her as long as she got to be near him. That’s not the example
I want to set for my daughters, and I’m so ashamed of myself for that secret desire. Why did I have to
be born an omega? Why can’t I be as strong and powerful as I convinced people I was when I was
pretending to be Elise Carrington?
Before I can think better of it, I look up at him through red rimmed eyes. “I’Il do anything.” I say again,
l!cking my l!ps and gulping in a deep breath of air. “I’Il pay any price.”
Ethan narrows his eyes, squatting down and snatching my chin between his thumb and forefinger,
forcing me to look up at him. I’m sure he’s onto me, he senses the direction of my thoughts, but if my
station wasn’t already low enough, he’s not going to just decide on it himself.
He’s going to make me say it. He’s going to make me ask him for it. What are you suggesting?”
“I’m saying… ” I almost can’t get the words out.
I’m saying I’Il be your ve again.”I whisper, knowing I’ve officially reached rock bottom. “Take the pups
back, let me stay with them, but punish me however you like. Make me your pleasure ve or chain
me in a dungeon… whatever you want. Just take us back.”
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