Her Cold-Hearted Alpha Chapter 121
Her Cold-Hearted Alpha Chapter 121
Devastation
KIARA
” I love you … Amore … ” His voice pierced m y heart . The sadness , regret and guilt in his eyes
before they closed . No … This was not farewell ! Pain ripped through me and never had I felt such a
level of hurt .
It was worse than seeing Alejandro and Jasmin together at the mating ceremony . My knees almost
buckled under the agony , my eyes on Alejandro as he ripped her heart apart .
” Baby no ! ” I shrieked . No ! I can’t lose you ! No ! His howl of pure agony ripped through the air , and
it was a sound I’d never forget . I rushed towards him , falling to m y knees . ” Hold on ! ” I cried ,
pressing my hands to his chest . I poured all my healing into him . My heart was thundering as I tried to
listen to his heartbeat . Nothing .
” Goddess no ! Please no ! ” I cried . My eyes were blurring with tears but I didn’t stop .
He had to heal ! He couldn’t die ! Why him ! No … please no … ” He’s … gone … ” Someone
whispered . I didn’t even notice when everyone hadi gathered around me or the fact that it was raining
lightly . ” He isn’t ! ” I cried out .
He couldn’t leave me , I felt the weakening bond , but it was still there … He’s still here No one spoke ,
as Mom wrapped her arms around me , letting me do what I needed to SEE Please , Selene … Please
… A broken sob left my body as I rested my head on Alejandro’s chest . ” Please … ” I whispered . ”
You promised me ”
*** A faint beat of a heart reached my ears and my heart leapt . He was still here ! I didn’t stop pouring
my healing into him , but the heartbeat remained faint .
Why wasn’t this working ? ” Alejandro ! Babye on …
” Kiara … You’ve healed what you can . ” Dad’s quiet voice came . H ” No ! It’s not strong enough yet
… I kept going . My entire body was screaming for a break but I couldn’t . My vision blurred , but I
couldn’t stop . What if he slipped away ?
The thought terrified m e . I couldn’t live without him . He couldn’t just step into my life and then leave !
” Kiara ! Think of the pup ! ” Mom pleaded , cupping my face and forcing me to look at her . My heart
pounded as the truth hit me .
I couldn’t help Alejandro … Why ?! Wasn’t this my gift ?! Why can’t I heal the one I loved ?! What kind
of joke was this ? I pulled away , refusing to stop , not relenting until I felt the strain wrapping around
my stomach .
I stilled , I had used up everything I had … but I couldn’t risk the pup . If it wasn’t for my pup , I’d have
drained my entire life source for Alejandro . My tears spilt down my cheeks as I kept my hands on
Alejandro’s chest .
His heartbeat was so faint … ” You’ve healed him . The rest is up to him . Endora tried to take him with
her , but she didn’t seed . Have faith , Kiara . Rafael’s hoarse voice came . 11 I looked up at him ,
seeing the pain in his eyes .
” He’ll be ok , Kiara … We all know how stubborn Alejandro is . ” Dad said softly . I didn’t reply , looking
at the man before m e , his body covered in dirt , blood and sweat . His handsome face looked as if he
was simply asleep .
I cupped his jaw , leaning over and ced a deep kiss on his lips . Wake up , my king … Please wake
up … Nothing . I could barely feel him breathing . What was wrong ? Why wasn’t his heartbeat
steadying ?
My mind was going through a vicious cycle of questions that had no answers . ” Kia … ” Mom said
softly . ” Let’s take him inside . ” Rafael said , gently . I didn’t want to move away . Mom pulled m e
back and Rafael lifted his brother .
I could barely stand , my energy waspletely depleted . I reached out to Alejandro , don’t leave me
…. please … My vision spun and I felt myself fall forward before darkness weed me … TWO
DAYS LATER ..
The devastating aftermath of a battle was never one of happiness … We had won , yet I felt nothing but
remorse for our losses .
We had lost so many … Uncle Aaron , Grandma Amy , Grandad , Aunty Indy , Daniel and his mate …
Valentin … Someone I had struggled to save , in the end , he still lost his life . So many had lost their
mates , parents , siblings .
It hurt more than I could ever put into words . Everyone was affected , one way or another . Two days
had gone by , yet my king never awoke . His heartbeat was fainter than an unborn pups … I was
unravelling .
Looking back , I felt like he knew there was a chance of this happening .
I had seen how he had shielded me from her right until the end , but he was not protecting himself … At
thatst moment when he had her heart in his hand … The silent apology in his eyes , the pain and the
guilt .
The man who said he was a monster , sacrificed everything for our kind . Why did you leave me ? The
worst thing was , I couldn’t even let myself break .
An entire pack was looking a t me for guidance . For answers to why their king did not make it ? To
know that it’s going to be ok . I looked towards the shining moon . Was this fair ? I felt as if I had failed
everyone …. I had failed my mate .
Every day I tried to heal him , but nothing . Callum hade a s well , but there was nothing . It was
not magic . We both had determined that … But there seemed to be nothing we could do , a Whatever
Endora had done in herst moments by linking their hearts had all but destroyed Alejandro . Although
I had been able to stop it frompletely killing him , it only put him in a deadlock .
It was as if I had simply frozen him on the brink of death . The bond was so weak I could barely feel it ,
and in its ce was a terrifying emptiness that was pulling me into its depths .
” Kiara , It’s time for the farewell . ” Liam’s voice broke me from my thoughts , and I turned towards him
. His eyes were filled with sadness , 1 nodded . We had burned our dead and tried to list everyone who
was gone , but not everyone was intact .
It had been hard to tell their families that there wasn’t even a body for them to look upon . Many Alphas
had taken their dead and moved on , but The ck Storm , The Blood Moon and The Night Walker
Pack remained .
We werebining our farewells , those who had lost mates and family had all joined us here . Liam
took my hand and led me from the room . I saw Grandma Jessica standing there and it hurt to see that
she was losing it . The loss of her mate and daughter had hit her so hard .
She also didn’t understand why Grandma Amy had not saved Aunty , not understanding when Mom
told her the baby was holding out thanks to something Grandma Amy had given to both me and Aunty
beforehand .
This only triggered Grandma Jessica even more , to the point where she was ming Grandma Amy
for not stopping us from joining the battle . But I understood , whatever Grandma Amy’s gift was , it
seemed she couldn’t really foretell it .
She always seemed to know things , but at the same time , she never said much . We would never
truly understand the depths of Grandma Amy’s past or her heritage .
But to me , no matter how many people were disgusted that she had a witch heritage and that she had
lived amongst us , I would always remember her as that beacon of light who had always been here for
me and for my mom .
The one with witty crass remarks and how she loved to tease all the men , a That was another thing
that pained me . The hatred our people felt towards witches had increased ten – fold . It hurt
considering Janaina had helped us somewhat ,
Delsanra had given her life to ry the truth and Grandma Amy , maybe not a full witch , but she had
some lineage .
No one saw that , in fact … the disapproval that mom agreed to carry a child transferred by magic had
hit the wrong way . It seems no matter what we aplish , something else takes its ce .
The negativity and stigma that Mom was facing shocked me . Although she took it all and put people in
their ce , it did not stop people from talking . ” We should go . ” Mom said to Grandma , who clung to
her .
Dad was quiet too … He had lost so many people he loved , including his best friend . Damon had
stepped in as Beta already , although he wasn’t showing his emotions at all .
I tried a little , but there was nothing I could do when I myself was crumbling from within . ” You’re going
to have to speak for the Night Walkers Pack . ” Dad said to me . I nodded , as he pulled me into his
arms and kissed my forehead .
” You got this ; he’s going to wake up . ” He said firmly , looking down at me .
I nodded but said nothing , I had barely spoken unless I needed to give orders . Alejandro … I looked at
the glittering ring o n my finger and my heart clenched . I need you , my king .
Ten minutester , we were gathered in the open grounds , not far from where Endora had tried to
resurrect the dead witch . My mind flitted back to that night . I had felt the darkness she was
resurrecting and I had channelled my own power into destroying the remnants of the magic that
remained within the earth .
I wondered if I hadn’t focused on that , would Alejandro b e here now ? I had deviated from the n ….
But something had told me I needed to stop her frompleting that ritual no matter what … and I had
seeded .
I knew she had already made the link with the darkness , even if we killed her , I had a feeling it
wouldn’t have been the end of her … I was sure if Endora had gotten the third death , or even me , she
would have aplished her n .
It had been close but we had won . But we had paid a price … ” We’ve all lost someone close to us ;
parents , siblings , mates , children , friends , neighbours … someone .
I understand your loss because I have lost many too . Each one of my wolves and those of our allies
were like brothers and sisters . We faced an enemy who had been nning for years , we won but at a
great cost , one we are all feeling . And our King … was the one to deal the finishing blow , but at a
price .
He is currently in aa . ” ” A murmur rippled through the crowds , and while everyone knew
something had happened , no one knew what it was . Until now . ” Luna ! Can’t you heal him ?! ”
Someone asked .
One of Alejandro’s warriors growled , but I raised my hand .
” I tried . ” I said quietly . ” But Endora did something before she died . I have faith that Alejandro will
wake up soon . Until then , let’s pay our respects to those who have lost their lives . Let’s work on
supporting those who need it , to show your emotions aren’t weakness , to feel isn’t wrong .
Be there for one another and let others in . I’m hurting too , for every loss that has happened , for my
mate , your king Alejandro … my grandfather Jackson , my great aunt Amelia , my aunt Indigo , Uncle
Aaron … and everyone else who lost their lives … It’s ok to let the world know how you feel . They say
time heals all wounds , but I think it doesn’t .
We just learn to live and ept what’s happened . Toe to terms with it , it won’t be easy , ” but we
will get there … ” I couldn’t carry on .
The suffocating pain that threatened to consume me overtook me once more , and I felt Raven’s arms I
wrap around me . She had wanted to fight , but her father had refused , and Dad had also said no one
without a wolf was to even try .
She had been so pro – active since everything had happened , helping Mom around the pack , telling
Mom to take breaks . Without Mom and Aunty Monica a t their best , Raven had stepped up and taken
on the role that the Luna or Beta female would usually do .
Rafael said a few words and I simply listened quietly .
The pain in my chest was growing , but for my pack , I had to hide it n o matter how much I told them
that I was ok . Everyone was suffering , and as queen , I couldn’t afford to fall weak . I would not ruin
my king’s reputation , not when he had done everything for the werewolf kind *** Everyone fell silent as
we remembered those we had lost , joined as one as we howled into the night sky .
The pain and loss of our loved ones will never be forgotten … ” Come on guys , cheer up . ” Raven
whispered . The four of us were sitting near the river . They were drinking beer and I clutched a mug of
hot chocte .
It was long into the night , and everyone had retreated indoors after those who had gone for a run in
remembrance of those w e had lost had returned . But the four of us hade out here , and although
it was rainy and cold , it didn’t matter . Nothing was worse than the pain we felt inside .
” How the hell do you expect that to happen ? ” Damon asked quietly . ” How is Aunty ? ” I asked softly
. ” She’s losing it , I don’t think she’s going t o make it if she continues like this . ” He sighed , ” Don’t
say that ! Aunt Mo is strong .
She’ll ” Raven broke off and looked down . We had all seen her try to take her life earlier today . After
that , Mom refused to leave her alone . Grandma was deteriorating too . ” We can’t imagine what losing
a mate feels like .
We can’t just expect them to be o k . ” Liam said softly , pulling me into his arms . Silent tears trickled
down my cheeks . I hadn’t wanted toe out here , I wanted to go to Alejandro …. I still did … but
Liam and Raven had been adamant .
” No matter what , we’re always here for one another , right ? ” Raven said softly . ” Guess so . ” Liam
said . ” The four of us have always and will always be friends , no matter what . ” Damon said , raising
his beer can . ” Always .
” I whispered , raising my mug as we clinked our drinks . Alejandro … Please wake up . We sat there ,
trying to make small talk , or just falling into silence andforting one another , huddled together for
warmth .
I stayed for an hour but the pain within me to go to him could no longer be satiated . I excused myself
and headed to the pack hospital . I was halfway there , using my powers to illuminate the path .
The leaves in the trees rustled and I felt a shiver rush down my spine . I wasn’t alone . I spun around ,
scanning the area . ” I’vee for my reward . ” A quiet voice said from behind me .
My heart thumped as I turned only to see Janaina standing in the shadows . I looked at her , feeling
anger at the same time . If she had so easily gotten here now , why hadn’t she helped us ?
” You could have helped us . ” I said quietly . How had she gotten past patrol ? Witches were indeed
dangerous if they wanted to b e . I understood people’s fears , but I still hoped that one day there would
be peace between our kind . ” I’ve told you before , I dislike your kind . ” She said , holding her hand out
.
So she hade for her ne , I reached into my pocket and took it out . ” He removed it from her
neck before she died … He fulfilled his promise . ” I said softly .
” So , He didn’t make it . ” She said , motioning for me to throw it . I did , and she caught it . At one point
I would have wanted to know what was so important about that pendant ? But I no longer cared .
” Can you not help ? ” I asked , trying not to pay attention to how unbothered she sounded . Despite the
fact it stung . ” There’s nothing I can do , nor am I willing to .
This is thest time we shall meet , daughter of Selene . ” 18 I said nothing as she turned and vanished
into the woods . I looked at the passing buildings . Some still had lights on , whilst others were
completely dark .
Would anyone remember those that had lost their lives ? Would they remember a few months or years
down the line ? Was anyone worried about their king , who was known as ruthless and cold – hearted ?
Would anyone remember his sacrifice ? In the end , no one cared . I didn’t care if I sounded bitter . It
hurt . I continued on my way , my heart shattering a little more . With each step , it felt harder to breathe
.
I broke into a run , rushing through the hospital halls until I pulled open his door . Rayhan jumped , he
had seemingly been dosing off in the armchair . ” Sorry . ” I whispered . He shook his head , giving me
a small sad smirk . ” Not at all … no changes . ” He said ,
answering the question he knew I’d ask . For thest two days , Rafael and I have taken turns being
here . Rayhan hade onlyst night and was returning home tomorrow . ” He’ll get better . ” He said
quietly . I looked at him in the dim light , barely able to make out his eyes . ” I hope so . ” I whispered .
” I know the timing might not be the best , but congrats on the baby . ” He said , shing me a wink . ”
Thank you … ” I said as I walked over to Alejandro , caressing his cheek .
The soft tingle was so faint that my heart ached , his skin was so cold … ” I’ve been without cousins for
ages and now suddenly I’m getting two , Marcel’s kid and this one . ” a ” I guess so .
” A moment of awkward silence fell between us . ” I’ll leave you to it … ” He said , picking up his jacket
and heading to the door .
” Rayhan . ” ” Yeah ? ” He stopped at the door . ” Delsanra . How did she die ? ” I whispered . Talking
about witches has be so tabootely that I didn’t dare ask anyone else this . He sighed deeply .
” She jumped . She was under some spell . With every word she spoke , it was destroying her . She
wouldn’t have survived either way , and the look in her eyes . I can’t get it out of my head …
” I turned and looked at him . Clearly , he didn’t seem to hate the topic as much as most around here . ”
Did you try to stop her ? ” ” I did , I told her you could help . I told her that I knew someone but she said
she has no one and that it wasn’t worth living .
” H e looked down , I sensed the guilt and regret in him . ” 4 ” It’s not your fault . ” ” I try to tell myself
that … ” He muttered .
Take care , Kia , he’s going to be ok . If anyone can make it out of that state , it’s Uncle .
” I nodded , turning away as silent tears trickled down my cheek . Only taking a deep breath when the
door shut behind him . I looked down at my mate , my lips quivering . ” Wake up , my love .
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” I whispered , bending down to kiss him deeply .
My warm lips met his cool ones , a soft tingle rushed through me . Letting my healing pour into him ,
but once again there was no change . I moved back , brushing my fingers through his hair as I slowly
slid into the bed next to him .
” We’re waiting for you to wake up . Me and our little pup . ” I whispered , sliding m y arm under his
head . Iy there gazing at his face . The moon shone on him from outside , illuminating his handsome
face .
He looked like a work o f art as he simplyy there . I wouldn’t give up , not now , not ever . He would
wake up . He had to wake up .
I needed him.