Book 14: Chapter 48


    <strong>*Gasp!!*</strong>


    Vyvyan vigorously sat up and panted. She extended her hand to her side, but there was nothing there. Panic-stricken, she looked left and right, only to suddenly discover that nobody would ever lie next to her again regardless if it was the dubious husband of hers or her most beloved child, for they were no longer around.


    Vyvyan sat in ce. She wasparable to a maiden who lost her most cherished toy. She wanted to hug something but couldnt. She shouldve been the happiest woman. She was the mightiest, had a harmonious family and had her most precious treasure, which was her obedient and adorable son. Her tribe granted her the mana she possessed, and her husband was forced to be with her. Only her son truly came from within her. He really called her Mom.


    Vyvyan covered her face with her shaky hands. Her tears were on the verge of bursting. She was in despair. She didnt know how she was going to live. Everything she cherished was no longer in sight. Everything she loved most had left and to the same ce, no less.


    Vyvyan actually knew where her husband was. She also knew what he did and went through. It wasnt hard for her to track her brother. She could sense something as long as she had a blood rtion to her target. However, she had no idea where her son had gone, since he no longer possessed his own mana. The mana he currently had was Gods mana. As such, she wasnt even able to tell if her son was alive or not A few days ago, however, she sensed her sons mana once again. He was where her husbandst was, though. She sensed him at the elves out of bounds area where her husband died.


    Vyvyan assumed the dragon took her son. She couldnt confirm if he had escaped or not. If it was possible, Vyvyan would instantly go there Although she didnt have her sons precise location, she could reach the lighthouse via teleportation. That was the mana hub for the entire area surrounding the forbidden zone.


    But my son left with the determination to die. What would I do after saving him? Would my son die on elven soil or the North? Vyvyan asked herself.<em> She</em> didnt dare to go. She didnt dare to see her son, who would never wake up. She was extremely afraid. She worried, How am I going to live the day I see his corpse?


    Vyvyan looked toward the North and took in a deep breath.


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    Elizabeth vigorously opened her eyes then drew her sword by the head of her bed. However, somebody hugged her before she could take a swing. Shocked, Elizabeth threw her sword away and caught the person hugging her. Voice surprised, she asked, Vyvyan?! Vyvyan, what are you here for?


    I cant I really cant Elizabeth I cant hold myself together any longer I really cant I cant take it anymore I want to die. I really want to die What am I going to do about the elves after I die? Living is so painful now So painful Why do I Why cant my husband and son be with me? My son has gone to suicide, right?


    Elizabeth hugged Vyvyan and let thetter cry in her arms. She let out a soft sigh: Its okay. Its okay. Its okay, Vyvyan, its okay. My son will be all right. Hes not going out there to die; hes gone off to live. Vyvyan, Vyvyan, trust my son. Youre out of ways, but he has a way. Think about it: when has he ever let us down?


    But hes just a kid Hes just a kid Hes just a kid Why does he have to go through these things? Its too cruel on him too cruel Hes just a kid Its all my fault Its all my fault Its all my fault that hes suffering so much Its all my fault!


    Vyvyan raised her head and tightly grabbed Elizabeths arm. Vyvyan was no longer eloquent andposed as usual. She grabbed onto Elizabeth as if she was a terrified child. Elizabeth let out a heavy sigh, and then sped Vyvyans face. In a solemn tone, Elizabeth exined, Vyvyan, calm down. Calm down. Its not your fault, and Troy is no longer a child. Youre not the only one whos currently worried about Troy. Everybody is worried about him right now. Hes not just your son. Hes also Nier and Lucias husband, and hes the father to several girls. We cant do anything right now, though. We


    We can!!! Vyvyan grabbed Elizabeths cor before she could finish and shouted. I can sense my sons location. I initially couldnt, since the mana he had didnte from me, but a few days ago, his own mana reappeared. Do you know where he is? Hes in the elves forbidden zone. In other words, hes where Inard passed away!


    Elizabeths expression changed at the mention of Inard. She looked nkly at Vyvyan. Vyvyan took in a deep breath and went on, Since my son wants to live, we must go and rescue him!! We have to go! How is my son going to fight that dragon without our help?! How will he survive?!


    It took Elizabeth a while to pull herself together to answer, You want to go there to save my son? My son went there with ns to save himself. Wouldnt you get in his way if you went there now? Think properly, Vyvyan. You cant save my son, so let him save himself!!


    Why would he go there if he wanted to save himself? Can a dragon help an elf?! Moreover, thats where his father died!! You think that the dragon will spare an elf in front of it?!


    Elizabeth lingered. Though she didnt want to disturb Troys operation, Vyvyan was right. Besides, while Elizabeth appeared calm on the surface she was actually suffering within. Every day Troy was still in danger was worrying. Shed runps between hope and despair every day. She felt her son would appear at any moment, but she was also afraid he wouldnte back


    Vyvyan sternly said, Lets go protect him, Elizabeth. I, alone, cant defeat a dragon. Dragons are inherent nemeses of elves. Our magic is ineffective against them no matter how pure our mana is. Thats why its impossible for me to y the dragon. You, on the other hand, can. Call that girl, too. The three of us can definitely y the dragon and bring my son back.


    Elizabeth went to speak, but nothing came out. The two of them exchanged eye contact for a while before Elizabeth slowly shook her head: I believe in my Son. Vyvyan, I believe he has a reason for being there if he dared to go there. I believe he would never seek death, so I dont n to go. It would be pointless for us to go. We have to let him face all this alone.


    I knew it. Youre still a coward just as you were in the past. Vyvyan shoved Elizabeth back down onto the bed. Vyvyan yelled, Youre the same as you were in the past. Youre a coward who abandons your child! You dont have the guts to make decisions, because youre afraid of bearing the consequences! Youre afraid youll be met with pain, so you dont dare to go and act!! Youre not worthy of being a mother!! Youre doing the exact same thing you did back then, throwing your child away!!


    What else can I do?!! Just do as you say and rush over there to kill the dragons?! What next?! What next?! Huh?! What are we going to do next? You have a way to sustain my sons life?! You still have a way to keep him alive? Do you?! Elizabeth grabbed Vyvyans blonde hair and shouted in her face. Whats the difference between my past self and you right now? Can you not do anything except cry and shout?! Arent you the same as I was in the past? What right do you have to call me a coward?! Youre the same as I was in the past! You have no right toe seek me!! What are we going to go there for?! What for?!! Can my son stay alive if we kill the dragon?! How would we do that?!! How on Earth would we do that?!!


    We should, at least, do something, shouldnt we?! Are we supposed to just watch my son be around that dragon?! Are we just going to watch him?! Id rather do something wrong than do nothing!! What do we need to do to calm ourselves? I can only calm down if I see my son safe and sound!!! You coward! All you could do was watch your husband leave, and now youre going to let your son leave, too!


    Elizabeth stopped talking and pped Vyvyan instead of arguing. Vyvyan dawdled for a moment, and then returned the favour. The two of them soon began to fight, grabbing each others hair and trying to yank it out.


    Elizabeth thundered, You called me a coward! You called me a coward! You think youre the only one worried about him?! You think youre the only one who loves him?! You think youre the only one who cares, Elf?!! Im very worried about him, as well! I love him, as well!! I want him toe back, as well!! You think Im inferior to you?! I dont love my son any less than you do!! Im not a coward!! Im not!!!