Book 11: Chapter 24


    I turned around to see the group of envoys quaking so intensely they couldnt speak. I snickered, See that? That is your future.


    Behind me is the anthropoids Imperial City, or rather, once was. The pce that was akin to a long sword piercing the sky had now vanished, leaving just a pile of snow. There was now only a small section of therge city at the base of the mountain remaining. The snow came down from the sky simrly to a waterfall, burying the city underneath.


    The Imperial City was reduced to half of its original size within an instant. Why? Because it had been reduced to snow. The mortar shot at the mountain and turned it into a volcano. The snow that had umted there for ages came crashing down in the blink of an eye. It appeared as if the mountain itself would rip to pieces. The city at the foot of the mountain was basically Pompeii all over again, except that they were buried by snow.


    That is your ending. I gave you a chance, but you showed me no respect. Sending you here shows that your chief had no intention of negotiating with me. You just came to send me a warning, am I right? Or were you here to try and pry information out of me? You want to get news here from me? I taunted. I looked at the envoys with faces as pale as corpses and raised my hands up, In that case, sorry, but you failed. You wanted to defend your city with yourst breath to get yourselves some bargaining chips for after your surrender, didnt you? Forget it. Youpletely failed. I dont think youll be able to exin yourselves if you return with this news, huh?


    I looked at them and drew my sword at my waist. I smiled, In that case, let me help you solve your problem. Youre going to die anyway. Who knows, your family might wee you back as heroes if you die to me. If you die inside the city, youll be considered cowards, wont you?


    I looked at their expressions of despair and terror, their cold sweat and their lips that trembled so intensely they couldnt speak. I surprisingly had a strange pleasurable feeling. I felt satisfied. I guess you could say their despair was my fire. I was excited about being able to control their lives.


    <em>I am your King. I have the right to kill you, because I am the King. Youre my prisoners. Theres nothing wrong with me killing, you and nobody will question me, for I have the right to kill you and the sword to kill you. Now, die.</em>


    What are you doing?!


    Just as I went to kill them, somebody hugged me tightly from behind. I lingered.


    Logically, a person only has two hands, so how was there something else around my waist? I turned my head around to see Ling Yues terrified gaze. I looked at her frown and spaced out. I lowered the sword in my hand and asked, Whats wrong, Ling Yue? Is something the matter?


    These people didnt do anything wrong! Why do you want to kill them? Theyre just envoys. Why do you want to kill them?! They just came on orders! They did nothing wrong!!!


    If everybody could erase the sin of killing others just by saying mymander told me to, while the people could avoid punishment by saying, war has nothing to do with us, then this world would seriously be too perfect. I argued. I turned back to the group in front. They are part of the machine of this war. Thats enough of a reason for them to die.


    This has nothing to do with them! They didnt kill anybody! Theyre just a group of envoys. They dont know anything. They just did their job! Shusia said that youre a fair tyrant, but arent you killing indiscriminately? This group of anthropoids didnt do anything wrong. They came here for peace, but youre going to kill them just because they didnt bring you the conclusion you wanted?! eximed Ling Yue, in a shaky voice. She looked at me with distress and sadness in her eyes. Didnt you promise me that you wouldnt kill indiscriminately? What are you doing now? Youre killing indiscriminately. They havent done anything wrong! You want to kill them just because they didnt bring you the conclusion you wanted!!


    I I


    Stop. Stop. Youre just numbing yourself. Lunas death is not an excuse for you to kill indiscriminately. Do you think Luna would want to see you transform from the gentle you into a murderer who kills anyone who doesnt fit into his ideal frame? Nobody is willing to. Youre just numbing yourself in order to kill. Youre drowning in murder. Youre looking for excuses to kill people. Not only are you looking for excuses to kill, youre also using them to justify your killing so that you dont feel guilty! Youve be a murderer. Stop now Stop Killing is not your reason. Your reason for killing people is because you want to kill!


    Ling Yues tears ran down her eyes as she looked at me. She looked at me with anxiety. I saw nothing but terror and anxiety in her gaze. I looked at her face, her weak gaze and her trembling body. I wanted to hug her. I wanted to hug Ling Yue, who was so terrified, that she was barely able to hold herself together.


    However, when I reached my hand out, I discovered the sword in my hand didnt allow me to hold her hand. I paused. I looked at Ling Yue on my chest. I looked at her with my sword in my hand. I didnt know what exactly I wanted to do


    I recalled that day in the dungeon. Mommy Elizabeth passed me a sword. It was this Elven King sword in my hand. She told me that the group of people in there were the ones who hurt Luna and got her killed, so I killed them. I didnt know if they actually had to do with it. As a matter of fact, I knew some of them had nothing to do with it. The child had nothing to do with Luna. Still, I killed them in the end. I killed the group rted and unrted one by one under Mommy Elizabeths watch.


    I killed every single one of them. I was covered in blood. In fact, I almost copsed due to exhaustion from killing. I had nowpletely forgotten their faces, but I could still remember Mommy Elizabeths words.


    <em>You have the right to kill them. You should kill them.</em>


    Therefore, I killed them. Therefore, I thought I had the right to kill everyone. I could kill anybody who opposed me.


    Im the Emperor. Im the highest ruler here. I have power, so I can kill everyone. I can kill everyone Im displeased with, was my thought process.


    <em>You are killing indiscriminately! They havent done anything wrong. You want to kill them just because they didnt bring you what you wanted!!</em>


    <em>Ling Yue is right I seemed to have changed. I can kill now, but I shouldnt kill indiscriminately. Ive been killing indiscriminately ever since I began killing in the dungeon. Ive been killing indiscriminately. </em>


    <em>I used countless excuses to tell myself that they deserved to die. However, that was my perspective, alone. It was just my way of tricking myself. How hypocritical have I been during this period? I killed while telling myself I wasnt killing senselessly. Theyre all dead. Theyre all dead just because I wanted to kill!!</em>


    <em>How far has Mommy Elizabeth led me? How far have I chased after her for?</em>


    <strong>*ng*</strong>