Book 8: Chapter 50


    I never expected Vyvyan was making me the Elven King when I returned this time. It turned out everything she did was a session ceremony.


    <em>Please tell me how making a trip to humanitysnds to bring Luna back resulted in me bing the Elven King. Im not being modest. I truly cant figure it out for the life of me. Go ask someone brighter Yeah, get lost!</em>


    <em>Im Vyvyans only son, so the throne should naturally be mine. However, I have no intention of bing the Elven King. Firstly, I dont know the elves as well as I know humans. Secondly, Vyvyan is more suited to the role than I am. As a demi-god, Vyvyans lifespan is unknown. She might even be able to live longer than I can, so what business do I have being the Elven King?</em>


    <em>Vyvyan wasnt giving me the throne to console me, but to keep me there. If I became the Elven King, I wouldnt be able to run about. Ill have to stay in the elven Imperial Capital the same way Vyvyan does for a long time. If she did this in the past, I wouldnt have been too averse to the idea, but I really want to head outside now.</em>


    <em>Not only do I want to go outside and go around, I want to create a great nation. I want to create a nation ording to my desires. The people around me will be proud, because of me. Nobody will question my authority to rule. Those who are loyal to me will be proud that theyre loyal to me, and there wont be anybody who gets hurt because of me.</em>


    <em>Thats the sort of nation I want. I want to be a ruler as my moms are. I want to have the right to take revenge. If anyone around me gets hurt again, I want to make a city bleed a river as Mom did. I want to kill all those involved as I did before. I want that sort of authority. I want the highest power. I want the power to determine the lives of others the same way I decided the lives of the group of people I murdered not long ago. Thats the sort of authority I want. If I had it sooner, I wouldve been able to behead Alice!</em>


    <em>I must possess that sort of power. That sort of stuff can only be avoided by wielding power. I must have that sort of power. I must have the authority and ability to kill all traitors. I want to kill all of those sorts of people as I did with thatst group. I want to kill them all.</em>


    <em>Killing itself is just a means to an end. Its a method used to strike fear into people. Only by striking fear into others can I protect those around me. I wouldnt mind killing group after group if thats what it takes to protect those around me. I dont mind killing more people regardless of whether its necessary or not. I dont care if theyre innocent or deserve it. Ill kill anyone necessary, so that nobody dares to approach those around me! I want to make them fear me!</em>


    <em>I dont have anyone left around me who can meet with harm. Im only left with Freya, Nier, Lucia and my mothers. If something happens to them, I wont have any reason to continue living in this world. Thats why I dont have a choice. I wont stop others from killing those around me anymore. Im just going to kill them.</em>


    Vyvyan was a little excited. She hugged me as she touched my head and with a giggle, said, Son, how does it feel to be the Elven King? Its actually very simple to be the Elven King, Son. You have a very great image in the eyes of elves. You handled the Earth Dragons, and you performed fabulously in the deer hunting festival. The elders have no issue with your appointment. Further, with your lineage, you can receive the support of all the people. You are the descendant of the Gdriel Tribe we are most proud of. Son, Mommy has prepared everything already. You just need to return and take over.


    Mom I


    I looked up at Vyvyan. Vyvyan looked into my eyes. Her expression changed before I said anything. She looked at my eyes and spaced out. She then tightly sped my face. Her eyes were filled with anxiety and sadness. She looked into my eyes as though she found something that shouldve been there, but had vanished.


    Son, Son, tell me, what happened to you?!


    Vyvyan gripped my face particrly tightly as if she was going to rip my skin off. I tried to back off a little as it hurt, but she didnt let go. She looked into my eyes and impatiently shouted, What did you do?! Did you kill?! How many people did you kill?! Why did you kill?! Why did you kill?! Son! Tell me! What did that woman Elizabeth make you do?!!!!


    Mom they killed my Luna they


    I already warned you about killing!!


    Vyvyan shouted at me. Her entire body trembled. Her tears ran down from her blue eyes. She looked at me and cried. She said, Son what what did you do? Why did this happen? Son Mommy told you not to kill people out of vengeance or delight Dont do this Do you realise youre ruining yourself with this? Mommy spent over ten years trying to prevent letting you be another Elizabeth. Why did you still turn out this way in the end? Tell me, did Lunae back to life after you killed those people?! Your I killed them for Luna is just an excuse! You merely killed for the sake of killing!


    Mom! The people I killed were the ones who killed Luna! I killed them, so that Luna could rest in peace, and so that I could be at peace! Mom, do you know do you know how much pain Im in?! I wake up with my face smothered in tears, because I dream of her! My heart screeches whenever I see things rted to Luna. I only have one Luna! Only one! Shes gone! Shes dead! Am I not allowed to avenge her?! Cant I?!


    Whats the point of your vengeance?! What did you get out of killing those people?! Youre just killing to deceive yourself! Mommy told you to never swing your sword for revenge. Son, the light in your eyes Mommy wants to see most is not there anymore! What do you want?!Why did you be the same as Elizabeth, too?! Why?!! Mommy tried so hard Mommy tried so hard Why did you still end up this way?


    Vyvyan tightly gripped my chest and cried. I hugged Vyvyan and spaced out. I didnt know what to say. I couldnt detect myself changing.


    <em>What exactly did Vyvyan see? Am I really changing? I havent changed. Its this world thats forcing my hand. This is the only way Ill survive. This is the only way</em>


    Dont kill again Mommy is begging you dont kill again If you continue this way youll be a second Elizabeth Pleasee home with Mommye home with Mommy and live a peaceful life dont Dont continue with this!!


    Vyvyan looked up. It was the first time she looked at me with this sort of pleading expression. I looked at mom. I looked at her blue eyes. I shook my head with my teeth clenched, Sorry, Mom I cant return just yet. If I return now, I wont be able to leave again. I still have things that I want to do. I still have things that I must do