Book 8: Chapter 46


    <em>As opposed to saying that my anger went away, it would be more urate to say that I randomly got brought back.</em>


    <em>Am I too young or is Mom too sly? She admitted her faults right as soon as she appeared, leaving me speechless. She then named my faults, causing me to lose momentum. She then forcefully brought me back to the outer court, and then put me under house arrest. My guard unit got sent to stay at the Valkyries station to go and flirt with them</em>


    <em>They thought my rtionship with Mom had gone back to the positive way it was before and felt relieved. As soon as they heard they could leave, they really left They really did</em>


    <em>Though Im under house arrest, Her Majesty didnt have her Valkyries protect me. It looks as though Mommy Elizabeth pays a lot of attention to the Valkyries now after that incident. She didnt arrange for any guards to protect me. Instead, she had Philes and Shusia bring a few others to stay with me under the pretext of protecting me.</em>


    <em>So why did I say I was under house arrest you ask? Thats because my horse is missing! I went to the stables to look for my horse, but there wasnt a single one there. Thats Moms trick to keep me here. Im now wondering if shes going to take my shoes away, too. I could just leave and look for a horse to leave this ce; however, I do want to have a proper talk with Mom, too. Therefore, I decided to stay here for a while longer.</em>


    <em>We still need to make some preparations to transport Luna home. I cant just carry her back the whole way. Of course, if thats what I must resort to, then so be it. I need to prepare a better casket for her. and then transport her back to Troy City via horse carriage. Shes gone through so much, so I want to let her, at least, be able to rx on herst journey.</em>


    I gently held Lunas freezing hands in my hands. I sat next to the bed that she was lying on and looked at her cheeks.


    <em>Luna still looks so beautiful and pitiful. Ive already done my very best to give Luna the just treatment she deserves. Besides not being able to personally avenge her, Ive done everything that I can. But despite that, the immense guilt and sadness I feel when I hold her hands hasnt reduced at all.</em>


    <em>Its as though everything I did was meaningless.</em>


    Luna Luna Was I worth it? Was I worth you throwing your life away for?


    I wiped my tears off my face and tightened my grip on Lunas hand. Luna, however, couldnt hold my hand again. Her expression didnt even change. I looked at her smile and gently stroked her lips.


    <em>If I couldve let Luna depart with this expression, I wouldnt be feeling so sad right now.</em>


    <em>Luna died for me. She died because of me. If I was strong enough, Luna wouldnt have met with this sort of fate. If I was strong enough, I wouldnt have had to return here, and I wouldnt have to seed Her Majestys throne. I could establish my own empire. Seeding Her Majestys empire will only attract more and more and more schemes and sinister plots </em>


    <em>Im sick of it already. I am honestly sick of it already. Ive tried so hard already, yet Castor still ended up swimming in their own blood. I did what I did to protect them. But humans always like to do things they themselves perceive to be correct.</em>


    <em>I cant protect others nor can I conquer others. My kindness is meaningless to these people; meanwhile, they can take everyone I love from me.</em>


    <em>I dont want Moms empire. Her presence has been engraved deeply into this empire. Mom shines too brightly. I believe that even more people would be stating that Im unworthy of seeding this empire had I not gone all out to save it once. I really dont want to fight with Moms supporters. I dont want to get into a political war. I want my own country. I want my own empire. I want my on loyal people and my own power.</em>


    <em>Troy City is too small for me. Im not longer after a city, but a region with my power. I want a grand empire simr to Moms. I dont want to seed hers. That way, everybody will change their opinion of me.</em>


    <em>If I could have done that, Luna wouldnt have died. Shed still by my side right now.</em>


    <em>If possible, I really want kiss Lunas lips again, hold her hands again and hold her beautiful, yet weak body again.</em>


    <em>Unfortunately, its impossible now.</em>


    Luna, lets go home. Ill take you home. I think that the sea of flowers suits you more. Ill take you to the sea of flowers in the vige that you were born in and grew up in. Ill alwayse to see you and the flowers bloom.


    I gently stroked Lunas forehead and struggled to my feet as though I exited my memories in the past and my love for Luna. I let go and returned her hand to her chest.


    This isnt all that I can do for Luna. Since Alice fought so hard for the Valkyries, Ill ruin what she worked so hard to create.


    <em>I said it before. I couldnt kill Alice, so Ill destroy her, instead. I want to make it so that nobody will remember her in the future. I want her to vanish from this world without a trace.</em>


    <em>My next step is to destroy the Valkyries. Such a squad shouldnt continue to exist. The Valkyries have gained too much power. Theyve gained so much power that they can bring harm to anyone in the Empress absence. I must change them into a simple guard unit from now on. I wont let another Alice appear.</em>


    <em>Further, I want Alice to know that I, personally, destroyed the Valkyries that she worked so hard all her life nurturing!</em>


    <em>Im not angry with Her Majestys faults, but I will forever remember what you did Alice. Ill remember it for life. Ill never go to visit your grave, and I wont touch anything you were involved with. My descendants will never be named Alice. </em>


    <em>Once Im dead, Ill go to where you are and personally kill you again!</em>


    <em>Ill never forget this grudge.</em>


    Philes walked in and made a small bow to me, Your Majesty, Miss Lunas new casket is ready. Do you want to put Miss Luna inside now?


    Ah, Ill do it myself.


    I nodded then carried Luna up and headed outside. The guards in charge of transporting her stood on both sides of the corridor and solemnly weed Luna and I who came out. They wore formal robes and stood next to us. They were silent as the forest that guards us. The ck horse carriage was parked at the entrance with an open casket set on an incline behind it, revealing the soft-looking cloth inside.


    I gently ced Luna inside, and then adjusted her posture. I then gave them my order, Dont ce any bouquets. The bouquets here arepletely meaningless to her. I will personally fill it up with flowers. You just need to put the lid on properly first.


    Understood!


    So, Your Majesty, when are we heading out? Are we leaving first?


    I cant go even if I want to right now. I need to speak to Her Majesty onest time. Were leaving together for sure. As I mentioned, I want to <em>personally</em> bring Luna home.


    I touched the ck casket then turned around and walked toward the inner court.