Book 6: Chapter 46


    Mom, Iming in.


    Ah, Son,e on in.


    I pulled the door open and saw Elizabeth smiling broadly.


    She shyly hung up a piece of cloth over her drawing, then giggled and said, Its so embarrassing Mommy has been drawing for so long and yet Mommy hasnt improved at all. Mommy learnt swordy so fast, so why cant Mommy draw well? Mommy wants to draw you. Why is it so hard?


    I looked at her sketchpad curiously and said, Its alright, Mom. Let me have a look. I promise not tough at you since I think that drawing requires talent.


    Mom shook her head shyly and said, Nah Mommy feels that Mommy drew you really badly. Mommy is going to throw it away now Wait, no. Mommy will burn it.


    No, dont! No matter ugly it is, its still me! Its not good to burn it, dont you think?! Does that count as cursing me? Does this count as cursing me?! I didnt know if I shouldugh or cry and pressed my hand onto Moms.


    Honestly, drawing has been a hobby of Moms for a long time. However, Ive never seen her work. Ive never even seen a work like a kids graffiti from her.


    <em>It looks like she really does burn her drawings Does she do that to prevent her artwork from being</em><em>circted?</em>


    Mom looked at me. She extended her hand out to pull the cloth off her sketchpad. She looked at me and said, Really? Dontugh at me, Son. I dont draw well


    I wont Ah


    I looked at the drawing.


    <em>Im a good talker, alright? Not even the stupidest person would say something like </em>Ugh, how ugly<em> in this situation. You would give your bestpliment, right? But I couldnte up with anypliment for Moms drawing No, it wasnt that it didnt have anything that stood out. It was basically like a kids crayon drawing Mm, that sort of retarded looking drawing.</em>


    <em>Am I that ugly?! Burn it! Hurry up and burn this drawing! This drawing cant be circted around. Nobody willpliment anything on this drawing. This is basically Her Majestys embarrassing history. No wonder why she wanted to burn it! Burn it! Burn it! Completely burn it!</em>


    See, Mommy draws really badly, right.? Its alright, Mommy doesnt mind, either. This is just something Mommy does to kill time. Mom smiled bitterly and then took the piece of paper back. She scrunched it up and tossed it into the fire.


    She then stood up, sat on the bed to the side and patted the spot next to her. She said, Whatever the case,e sit down first, Son. Mommy has a good guess of what it is you want to say.


    I walked over and sat down next to Mom.


    She reached out in a reserved fashion and ced her hand on my shoulder. She then said, You want to talk about your wedding, right? Mommy has prepared it for you. Mommy saw how you have been busy and outside every day, so Mommy took it into Mommys own hands. Dont be angry, Son.


    No, Mom, Im not angry. Im actually very grateful to you. If it wasnt for you, I wouldve forgotten about it. That would be unfair to both Lucia and Nier. I chuckled, then hugged Mom gently and thanked her, Thank you, Mom. Thank you for helping me organise my wedding.


    I noticed that Moms body was shaking from nervousness


    Elizabeth is different from Vyvyan. Elizabeth always gets particrly happy whenever I hug her, while I feel that Vyvyan gets sexually aroused


    Elizabeth hugged me with joy and then said, You dont have to thank me, Son. Youre Mommys son. Mommy is very sorry for not protecting you when you were young and sorry for not being by your side. Mommy can only help you now. Mommy wants to help you organise your wedding. Mommy wants to see you go towards happiness. Youre Mommys child, after all. Mommy wants to see you happy over the things Mommy does for you, just like that woman.


    Uhm Im very happy, Mom. Honest. Im happy whether were talking about having you by my side or marrying Nier. But are you in a hurry, Mom? About my child


    Uhm, Mommy is rushing that. Elizabeth nodded and then rubbed my lower abdomen


    <em>Thank god for you always keeping control of your hand</em>


    She said, Mommy isnt an elf. When Mommy lived with the elves, Mommy came to realise the short lifespan of humans,pared to elves. Mommy doesnt know when Mommy will leave this world, so Mommy wants to see you and your family before Mommy has to leave. Son, Mommy doesnt have any other wish. Mommy just hopes that you can be happy. As long as youre happy, Mommy can leave with a smile. Mommy isnt doing this topete with Vyvyan over something Of course, Mommy has considered that, too, but Mommy still hopes that you can be happy. Honest.


    <em>You just emphasised that part didnt you?! You just emphasised thatst part, didnt you?! You just revealed your thoughts, didnt you?! You did it topete with Vyvyan, didnt you?!!</em>


    But I still believe that Mom sincerely wishes for me to be happy.


    Mom hugged me and then gently stroked my head. She softly said, Moms biggest regret is not getting to see you grow up. Mommy wanted to see you grow up from the time you were a kid into the gentle and determined man you are now. I imagine that being able to watch over you as you go through that process would be iparably blissful.


    I looked at Elizabeth and noticed her yearning gaze.


    She looked into the distance and softly murmured, Youre the most precious treasure my husband left behind for me, as well as the only memory he left for me. When Mommy sees the side of your face, Mommy can virtually see him still by Mommys side. Mommy has no family left. Youre the only one.


    Mommy really wants to see you slowly grow up, but its impossible now. Mommy didnt provide you with any warmth in your childhood. Mommy didnt even hold you. Thats why Mommy wants to give you the most blissful wedding.


    Mom looked at me seriously. She then lowered her head and kissed me on my forehead. She softly said, Son, your happiness is Mommys only wish. Mommy couldnt give you happiness in the past. Mommy hopes that you can stay by Mommys side from now on. Mommy will do Mommys best to ensure youre happy


    I looked at Moms gaze; her powerless and worried gaze. The gaze she looked at me with was so sad.


    <em>She must be really sorry. She must be really apologetic for not having been by my side during my childhood. Mom just wanted a perfect home, but she had to leave her child behind. That must be Moms biggest regret.</em>


    <em>Mom wants for me to be happy. She wanted to give me happiness in the future. However, half of her own happiness was missing.</em>


    Mom. I clenched my teeth then stood up and opened my arms.


    Mom froze up as she looked at me not knowing what to do.


    Carry me like when I was a kid.


    <em>Thats a princess carry then, isnt it? Though Im very close to Mom, this most intimate form of interaction is something weve never had.</em>


    Mom looked at me with her eyes full of surprise. Even her hands were shaking. She shook as she asked, C-Can Can I really? C-Can Mommy do that?


    Uhm. You said you never held me in the past. Its never toote. Come, Mom.


    Uhm!


    Mom nodded firmly and then stood up. She wrapped her arm around my legs and then picked me right up


    Mom! Mom!


    When I wrapped my arms around Moms neck, she cried out with pleasant surprise and then she fell down like a stick falling over


    And so I didnt return that night I had to stay behind and take care of Elizabeth who passed out from excitement