Chapter 59


    Valen came back a few minutester with a towel before marching into the bathroom and shutting the


    door while muttering under his breath. I heard the shower start and sighed. He had a point, though.


    The media would go insane over two mates, especially one holding status in the city but living apart. The


    scandals it would lead to, and I could only imagine the spection it would cause and the rift once


    everyone found out I was, in fact, Alpha John’s daughter. That was another thing I was also worried


    about because it woulde out.


    Secrets always do, they never remain hidden, and I know it would alle out when they dug into my


    past. Yet the thought of having to answer to someone irked me, and living with Valen, I knew I would


    have to, plus he could pull rank over me, yet the stories that would be in the papers. I could already


    imagine the headlines. ‘


    Pack rivalry keeping mates apart.’ ‘Valen’s cheating ways’ ‘Trouble with the notorious Alpha’ stupid shit


    and that would be stacked on top of the ‘Everly the gold digger trapping the Alpha.’ ones. F*ck! I never


    thought of the different scenarios, and now they appeared endless. Valen walked out of the bathroom


    with a towel wrapped around his waist.


    He ignored me, and I could feel he was upset. I chewed my lip before getting up off the couch,


    wandering down the hall toward his bedroom, and pushing the door open.


    Valen was getting ready for bed as he pulled the sheets back. “If you areing in here to tell me you


    don’t want to live with me or to give more bullshit excuses, Everly, I don’t want to hear it,” Valen said,


    climbing in bed and tugging the nkets up. He turned away from me, facing the wall, and I sighed


    before showering myself and returning to the room.


    I rummaged through his closet for a shirt to wear before climbing in bed with him. Through the bond, I


    could tell he was still festering over our argument and very much awake as he kept his back to me. “You


    said earlier you wanted to be my Luna. How do you expect to do that if we live separately?” he said.


    “The Alpha meeting is in two days. What do you expect me to tell everyone? Everly and I are mates, but


    it’splicated? This isn’t like updating a F******k status Everly; I get you don’t want me to mark you yet,


    but at least f*cking try,” I remained quiet, pondering over my tho ughts and his words when he rolled over


    to face me.


    “What are you afraid I will do, that you keep refusing to try and make this work?” Valen asked. There


    were plenty of things I was afraid of, Valen taking control of ever thing in my life when I only just got


    some semnce of the normal back in it.


    I was scared of him taking my son and me losing the hotel and everyone who relies on that ce,


    worried about the rogue woman losing everything when they have no jobs because I failed them. But


    most of all, I was afraid of ending up back in a shitbox car living in the train station parking lot with


    Vrian. I was scared of losing everything, just like I had. Going back to having nothing and no one, at


    least with how things are, he can’t control everything. He can’t take it from me.


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    “Anything I say will sound like an excuse,” I tell him and he sighs. Unless you had lived with the


    hopelessness of failing at everything and having no one to rely on, you couldn’t understand how terrifying


    it is to allow someone else to have even the slightest bit of control when you worked so hard to get


    where you are. Moving in with Valen would be trusting him not to break me again, not to take everything I


    worked hard for away from me, trusting him not to throw me away like trash like my family did.


    “Try to exin, I want to understand Everly, no bullshit just tell me,” Valen breathed, frustrated. “I lost


    everything for our son, everything Valen. I had no one and o my him until I found that ce. No one


    helped me until Vrie, my own father, couldn’t bear the sight of me. Society disyed me as some vile


    homewrecking whore; I lived with that.


    The other rogue women lived with that. I won’t lose it all, I won’t go back to that ce where I let myself


    think I would have help, only to find out I wouldn’t and that everything could be taken away from me,” I


    answered honestly. I used to use the excuse it was his cheating, the fact he didn’t recognize me, but


    deep down it had nothing to with that because he was here now, he proved he would stay, it was my own


    thoughts that ruined everything, I knew it was toxic, and my own safety mechanism but it was the truth.


    Until you hit rock bottom and wed your way back, no one can tell you not to fear ending up back there


    again. And that thought terrified me, I had too much to lose now, and if I did, I would lose everything,


    including my son. “But no one is taking anything from you, Everly,” “You did.


    I know that it’s in the past, I know you want to make up for it, but it f*cking haunts me. Do you have any


    idea how lonely it is when you have a baby relying on you to keep it alive and fed when you have nothing


    and no one to help? Then to feel so selfish for forcing that life on a child.


    Choosing yourself over your own kid because you can’t bear the heartbreak of giving them up, you can’t


    bear the thought of letting someone else raise them, I lived with that guilt of thinking I was destroying my


    son, so I dam n near k*lled myself to earn the right to be his mother, one he deserved, I created a life for


    us, I won’t lose it,” I tell him. “You do deserve him, and none of that will happen again; I am here now,”


    Valen says.


    “Yes, you are, but what happens once you mark me? You make me give up the hotel? Take it from me,


    from them. Before Vrian, I was oblivious to how this city was run, like any other Alpha.


    Shunned the rogue whores until I found myself one of them. Zoe, Macey, and I, we built that ce. I


    won’t allow you to take it from us, from those that work there. I won’t just quit because you want a Luna.


    And I know you expect that. You expect that because it is what is taught to us. Luna’s abide by their


    AIpha. The Alpha has control. No one should have that son of power over someone else,” “You think I


    will make you give it up?” Valen asks. “Yes, but I am also worried about what they will think when I


    be one of those that suppressed them in the first ce. You marking me doesn’t just affect me; it


    affects them when I be what society wants, what you want,” I tell him. “What do you want then?”


    “What I want is for my son not to be ashamed because he is rogue, I want the stereotypes gone.


    I want everything I have worked for to mean something so our son can say she tried. She had nothing


    but made something, something that made a difference, and that is why I don’t want you marking me. It


    will be like throwing everything we worked hard for away if you make me give it up, to toss what I was


    trying to change away, and all of them will go back to being just another rogue whore, and I will just be


    another selfish Alpha,” I tell him.


    “I just want my mate Everly, that is all,” “You say that now until everyone stans putting pressure on you to


    force me to conform to their ways, you think I will remain quiet in Alpha meetings? When do they speak


    garbage against the way they treat rogue-whores or when the packs bring in anotherw that restricts


    them more, like the stupid schooling cuts they madest year? It will cause an uproar, one that will reflect


    poorly on you because you can’t keep your Luna in line.


    You pull rank over me, Valen. You will have control, and when they kick up a stink that I a m speaking


    against the way they have lived for decades, I know you will use it against me,” I tell him clutching my


    head. Everything was so f*cked up, and the stress was beginning to get to me, the stress of the mate


    bond, the hotel, people going missing, my father and this stupid Alpha meeting. Tears burned my eyes, I


    was so sick and tired of the responsibility but at the same time I needed to keep going.


    “No, you think you know, Everly. I am not trying to take anything from you; use your title how you want.


    F*ck, abolish thews for all I care, I’ll even help you,” I scoff and drop my hands and look over at him.


    That would go down well, the media would tear shreds off him, his pack would be aughingstock. I


    shake my head. He seems to think it is so easy. That I should just ept him because his title could


    help, but it could also destroy everything.


    Valen sighs and sits up on his elbow and looks down at me. “I mean it, Everly, you want to help the


    rogues. What better position than one of power? Change thews, change their views but do it with me


    by your side and in your corner, you think you have to solve all their problems yourself; you don’t.”


    “You backing me would stan a war, Valen. Wars never solved anything just got innocent people k*lled,”


    “Yes, you’re right. But then those wars ended up in history books and became everyone’s turning point; A


    reflection of how we messed up and a ce to see the error of their ways. You’re worried about war?


    The packs are always at war, but why not go to war for something that will hold value, give a future to


    someone who otherwise had none? You have my pack.


    They will fight for you if you are my Luna, they will fight for the rogues,” My brows crease as I think over


    his words, yet him saying it and allowing it after he marked me are two different things. “one thing I have


    realized since meeting you is that the rogues hold just as much value, and are capable of more than they


    realize, because not one of your people have ever talked down to me, treated me differently or those that


    enter your doors, they treat everyone with kind ness even though they are shown none, you want to


    change thews, change things for the rogues then let me help you,”


    “You could go back on your word, though, Valen,” I whispered. He could ruin everything because me


    taking that title gives him everything I own, what the rogues own. “I won’t, I swear I won’t, and I will prove


    it,” Valen sighs, dropping his head on my shoulder and groans. He felt defeated, yet I could also tell he


    understood because his anger was gone. “How?” I ask. “Because tomorrow I will open up my packs


    schools for the rogue children, and I am shutting down that terrible ce you call a schooI.”


    he lifts his head back up and presses his forehead against mine. “Besides, when I spoke to Vrian


    about changing schools, he refused unless Casey and Taylor coulde to his new school, so the more,


    the merrier.” “But what of the rogues that work there? They will lose their jobs,” “And I hear Mountainview


    Hotel is looking for extra employees.


    We can help find them jobs. We can work it out, “Valen says. “In a city where rogues can’t go past the


    two streets on either side of the main street unless it is for the reserve, there are no jobs, Valen, no one


    will hire them,” Valen sighed and appeared to think for a second before pushing his knee between my


    legs and shoving them apart.