Chapter 1187


    I was stunned. "You didn’t try going to the hospital?”


    Shannon gently sighed. “He refuses to go. When I want to do it, he''ll be fine with it at first but


    something would get to himter. He’ll back out at thest minute. I''ve thought about it and figured


    that this could be a psychological problem. But I haven''t gotten a clue about his past and don''t know


    how to start asking him about it. This irritates me a lot."


    I thought about it and said, "Maybe you can try asking Lally. She worked alongside Frank Fredericks


    for many years before this and surely knows a thing or two about Jordan. Maybe she has the


    answer that you want.


    Shannon nodded. "I''ll find time to ask her, then.”


    "Do you think it''s because he once loved a woman and ended up getting hurt by her, which left him


    with psychological trauma? Why else do you think that a rich and handsome man like him isn''t


    married yet? Also, why isn''t there a single woman around him?”


    I twitched my mouth. “Aren''t you a woman?”


    Shannon rolled her eyes. "Before this, I mean."


    "I suggest you stop making wild guesses and just ask Lally about it.”


    One would not find the reason by making wild guesses.


    Shannon gently sighed, then she rolled her eyes. She changed the topic back to me. " Looks like


    you n to continue things with Theo?"


    I pursed my lips and said with aplicated expression, "I don''t really know what my next step is,


    actually. There are a lot of things out of my control. I was dying to push him away previously


    because I was afraid that I would be a burden and couldn’t make him happy. I was afraid that he


    would one day regret being with me."


    After a pause, I continued, "If he hadn’t pestered me so much, then I could have held myself back.


    When he chose to pester me, I wasn''t able to control myself anymore. I love him and felt tormented


    every time I had to push him away."


    Shannon looked at me with a slightly envious gaze. "You know what, Wanda? I’m really envious of


    the love Theo has for you. I once thought about the kind of man I wanted. It''s alright if he has no


    money or power, but he must love me. Nothing should be more important to him than me. 1 n fact, I


    knew in my heart that Jordan may not love me at all, and at best, he just likes me. As for me, I don''t


    love him that much either. We''re dispensable in each other''s hearts."


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    This was the first time Shannon spoke to m e about her requirements for her future husband.


    Though I was a little surprised, it was not entirely unexpected.


    A woman like Shannon must find a man who loved her very much, and only then could she remain


    simple-minded forever.


    After a long silence, I said, "I’m blessed to have met Theo. Although I suffered greatly i n the first


    few years, he loved me all along, using his silly ways to treat me better. After learning about his


    intentions, I stopped doubting if he''ll one day stop loving me. He has given me a sense of security


    when ites to loving me, so a woman really needs to find a man who truly loves her."


    If love was not enough from the beginning, how could love be enough once it was consumed by the


    mundanity of life?


    “That’s why I envy you.”


    Shannon smiled. “Actually, I’ve not dated anyone before. I had ssmates who were dating at the


    time but I found them to be childish. Later when I saw that everyone had started dating, I wanted to


    try it out of boredom. But I was too picky and no one could capture my interest.”