Chapter 191


    Fated To The Alpha by Jessica Hall Chapter 191


    Sage POV


    Zane and Nora sat with me the entire time. I felt nauseous knowing something was going on and I


    didn’t know what it was. I couldn’t sit still while I waited for the phone to ring. Malik said Andrei went


    after Clive but that was all he could tell me because he wasn’t with him.


    What if something happened to him? Surely I would know if something bad happened to Andrei, mates


    feel that sort of thing but all I felt was his burning hatred and  then nothing  but  calm through the bond.


    It unnerved me.


    “He is fine, Sage. Andrei can handle himself and Malik and Derrick have Jonah” Zane tells me as I


    paced nervously in front of the dining table.


    I just couldn’t help it, not knowing what was going on was worse, my imagination was running rampant


    and putting terrible thoughts in my head and making me worry. When the phone rings I practically dive


    onto the table to retrieve it. My hands were shaking so much I couldn’t swipe the phone to answer it


    when Nora takes it from me. She answers it quickly and hands it back to me.


    “Hello” My voice was shaking just as  terribly as  my hands.


    “I   have him”  es  Andrei’s voice through      the phone and it  was  like a tonne  of weight  was


    lifted off  my   shoulders  upon hearing  his voice. He was ok, my Jonah was ok. I thought as I slid down


    the pantry door to the cold floor.  I could breathe again.


    “Sage are you there?”


    “Yes I am here, Malik said you went after Clive. I have been so sick with worry” I tell him.


    “I know I could feel you, I am on my way home with Jonah” Andrei tells and I  feel tears prick  at the


    edge of my vision.


    “And he is ok?” I ask.


    “Yes, has a few bruises  but he is okay, Hun. I will be home in a couple of hours, try to get some sleep”


    He  says,  like I would even be able  to manage  that. I  let out  a breath. I  just  wanted them home


    where I could see for myself that they were both safe, not that I doubted Andrei but seeing is believing.


    “I  will try” I lie knowing that won’t happen. He chuckles softly and my heart pinches at the sound.


    “You are a terrible liar, you know I can feel you, right? I will see you soon. I love you Sage”


    “I   love you too, can I speak to Jonah?” I ask him.


    “He is asleep, you will see him soon” Andrei tells me and I nod before realising he couldn’t see me.


    “Ok, hurry home but drive safely” I tell him.


    “See you soon, ” He replies before the phone goes dead. I rest my head on the pantry door. Nora is


    watching me standing by my feet.


    “ See, he is fine ” She yawns and I feel bad that she was woken because of me, the entire pack was


    woken. What a mess  the night turned into but I was just relieved I was getting Jonah back.


    Eventually I convinced Zane and Nora to go home.


    Once they left I cleaned, having nothing else to do and also made Jonah a bed on the couch before


    making more  coffee.  Not that I  needed it  because I was alert and on edge the entire time but it gave


    me something else to focus on while I cleaned.


    Distraction kept me  going  insane but  when I finally heard the car pull up it was twenty past four in the


    morning. I leapt out of my seat and rushed  to the front door. Unlocking it with my palm it felt like it took


    forever for the door to utch and I held my breath as I pulled it open.


    Malik stretches his back as he climbs out of the car yawning. Andrei was at the back door leaning in.


    When he stands up he has a sleeping Jonah in his arms and Derrick climbs out of the backseat after


    him.


    I watch as Andrei sniffs his little head gently, holding him close to shield him from the breeze. I wanted


    to jump with joy at them being home but held myself together as Andrie looked over at me. His


    excitement burned just as strongly. My hands were already reaching for him as Andrei approached


    mee. My handsbing over Jonah before taking him and molding his tiny body around me in my


    arms as I  took  him. He lost a little weight. Not much but I could tell, I could tell you every little detail of


    my boy and I noticed instantly as his body was ced in my arms. I bury my face in his neck and my


    breathing was shaking  as I  brought   him inside. Derrick follows Andrei in and kisses my head before


    motioning that he was going upstairs to bed in the spare room. I nod walking into the living room with


    Jonah.


    I didn’t want to put him down, like if I did he would disappear   again.  Andrei  wraps  his arms around


    us. Jonah pressed between us sleeping soundly, only when Andrei cups my face did I realise how


    terribly I was shaking and that I was crying. Sierra was so present and vignt as we watched him


    sleep. Also excited but nervous for our boy.


    “Stop crying, he is fine. You should put him down before you wake him” Andrei tells me and I look up at


    him. I never wanted to let him go again but I knew he was right as I tucked him into his makeshift bed.


    “He is  safe  now”  Andrei tells me  as I  tuck him in. I quickly pull his shoes off  his tiny feet  and tuck


    the nket up under his chin.


    “What  if   Clivees   back for him, or Dominic”  I whisper worriedly before wrapping my arms


    around his middle and pressing my face into his chest.


    “Clive is dead and Dominic knows I have him, he said to bring him home with me”


    “Clive is dead?” I ask him, pulling away and looking up at him.


    “He won’t touch our son again, you don’t have to worry about him taking him, Sage. I will kill anyone


    that tries. I won’t make that mistake of letting him go again. I swear to you” Andrei says before dipping


    his face down to mine. He kisses my lips softly before pulling away.


    “How are you feeling?” Andrei asks.


    “Relieved now you are home” I tell him.


    “No, I know   that but I wasn’t   talking about that, are you okay? I hated having to rush out on you”  He


    says and it took a  few seconds to  realise  what he was talking about. With everything I hadn’t even


    thought about it, too worried about Jonah and Andrei I didn’t even give it a second thought.


    Andrei leads me upstairs and I hesitate  at the top of the step not liking Jonah being so far away.


    “I  will put the rm on ” Andrei  says walking back down the steps and fiddling with the digital panel,


    he also checks the door before  wandering off and returning a few secondster and climbing the


    stairs.


    “House   is locked, windows   are locked, no one is getting to him” Andrei says and I chew my lip still


    hesitant. It felt surreal having him back. I couldn’t live with losing him again.


    Andrei turns me around when I don’t move, pushing me toward the bedroom. I robotically hop in bed


    and Andrei strips out of his clothes and puts on some boxer shorts before climbing in beside me. His


    arms wrapping around me as he buries his face in my hair.


    “You never answered me, ” Andrei whispers into my hair.


    “I am fine, I forgot about it until you said something, I was worried about Jonah and you” I answer him


    honestly.


    “Hmm not that memorable” Heughs.


    “No, I didn’t mean that, I was just worried”


    “ I know, I was teasing, And now I have mentioned it?”


    “I don’t know,” I tell him. I truly didn’t. I wasn’t scared, I wasn’t anything really just content.


    Sierra hadn’t  left  me all night, like she was relieved and I could hear Donnie without it being forced or


    through Andrei. I felt more connected with my wolf and Andrei. I felt like I wasfortable in my own


    skin for once. I felt freed like the shackles  that held me  for so  long unlocked, releasing me.


    Andrei   purrs behind me and I roll in his arms to face him, his nose brushing mine. Andrei pulls me


    closer and I felt  safe like I never knew before. My body had never been mine, I was never given choice


    but Andrei was my safe ce. He was mine and I was his and I knew I could trust him more than I


    could trust myself. I knew without a doubt this is where I belonged, with him and Jonah. He would


    never hurt me, no this man would fight to the death for me and I wouldy my life down in a heartbeat


    for him and our son.


    I sniffle at the realization and how liberating it felt. “Shh, I am right here, you can tell me anything, I


    won’t get upset Sage” Andrei whispers brushing his nose across my cheek.


    “Tell me” He whispers before kissing the side of  my mouth. I close  my eyes  just  breathing in his


    scent, the scent of what’s mine, the scent of  the man who loved me despite being broken, the man that


    put all my broken pieces back together, the man who would continue to love me whole and the one the


    person who gave me a choice.


    Andrei showed me what it felt like to be loved again and taught me  to love myself, he never looked at


    me with disgust, he never looked at me like I was less, no he looked at me like I was his world even


    though my body was marred by the scars of my past, he loved me despite  my ws  and without


    judgement, without me, he loved me and set me free of myself.


    “I  feel  free, I  feel like  I am home” I breathe.


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    “You’ll always have a home with me, and Jonah, Sage. With our pack. You have all of us and we will


    always have you, this is home. Your home ”


    Andrei whispers before pressing his lips to my head. He purrs happily and I enjoy his familiar embrace


    letting go of everything. Everything that was my past, it no longer held me in it’s  confines  or trapped


    me there. I was free to live and let it go and for the first time my future didn’t scare  me, I no longer


    feared the monsters of my past but instead I vanquished them, they had no ce in my future,  they no


    longer had control and I would never give it to them again, they didn’t deserve it and I owed it to myself


    to  ensure  they  never had it.


    For the first time I was excited about my life, excited about the life I would share with Andrei and Jonah,


    our little boy. He was ours and we were his. They were all that mattered, and all I needed. I slowly


    started  to drift  off  into a  peaceful sleep without  the burden of trying to sleep with one eye open and


    my senses alert and on edge of the what if’s, I could sleep knowing no matter what happened  Andrei


    would keep me safe.


    Movement   jostled   me and Andrei’s soft  spoken words as he rolled over woke me.


    “What’s wrong Jonah, are you okay?” Andrei whispers. I sat up rubbing my eyes to find Jonah standing


    beside   him at the  edge of  the bed and I knew I must not have slept long because it was still dark


    outside. Jonah was holding his pillow in arms looking longing at the bed.


    “I’m scared, can I sleep with you?” Jonah whispers. His little eyes filled with sleep and fear and I


    wanted to hug away whatever scared him.


    Andrei picks him up, lifting him onto the bed.


    “I   have just the ce for you” Andrei tells him, tucking him between us.


    “Right where  you belong  with us” Andrei tells him,  tucking the nket   up around him. I fix his pillow


    between mine and Andrei’s and Jonah nestles against me letting out a breath while Andrei hugs us


    close.


    “I love you my little Jonah” I tell him, kissing his little cheek. He presses his face  under  my neck and


    yawns tiredly.


    “I love you too mummy” He whispers, patting my face with his little hand.


    My heart burst into a million pieces at his sleepy words. Andrei moves his arm moving under his little


    head and mine. I watch him kiss Jonah’s


    head before rxing and gettingfortable, his fingers ying with my hair.


    “You are our new world, Jonah, you are ours and we are yours forever and always” Andrei whispers to


    him  before closing his eyes.