168 168. Chasing Her


    ra unsteadily walked out of Doctor Evans’ clinic. Why did she have to meet Samuel when she just wanted to vent her anger on everyone who had hurt her and herte baby? ra’s desire to vent her anger evaporated instantly, reced by feelings of guilt and helplessness.


    ra’s tears continued to flow even though she wiped them many times. Her eyes were swollen and her face turned puffy, but her feelings were much more broken than that. Why did he have to have a father like Patrick who treated her like cattle? The animal that the man used as he pleased. Even without caring about her feelings.


    What would she say to Samuel when they met? Is she just going to keep it a secret? Should she tell Samuel?


    “ra!” Samuel’s voice came from two meters behind her.


    ra kept walking faster so she wouldn’t have to talk to Samuel at this time. However, Samuel continued to approach and managed to catch her.


    “ra!” Again, Samuel called her name. “Why are you avoiding me?”


    ra gulped hard. She then decided to turn around, facing the man she wanted to avoid the most.


    She red at him with a challenging look. “Don’t be ridiculous! Who is avoiding you?” ra asked curtly. “I am not avoiding anyone.”


    “You’re not heeding my calls!” protested Samuel insistently. He called her many times but she ignored him intentionally.


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    raughed reproachfully. “Am I wrong if I don’t answer strangers’ calls?” ra asked curtly. Her amber eyes looked at Samuel, making Samuel see the traces of tears and sadness that were visible on her face.


    “What? A stranger you say?” asked Samuel in a hoarse voice, disappointed by ra’s words. “After all that has happened, you say I am a stranger to you?”


    ra’s heart felt like it was being squeezed tightly. She couldn’t bear to face the current Samuel. However, she didn’t want to make Samuel feel hurt if the two of them got involved in an even more serious rtionship. Moreover, after she decided to leave Dave, the chances of her getting close to Samuel would be very high.


    ra didn’t want that at all. She didn’t want to be close to any man anymore and have a serious rtionship with them. She was now barren. She couldn’t possibly build an ideal family with a man who wanted an heir like Samuel. He clearly said that he wanted to pass his piano to his children.


    Instead of her being trapped in a rtionship that would cause pain in the future, ra chose to cut offmunication with Samuel from now on. Samuel would be safe from heartache. She, as well, would dodge the pain.


    “Are we … that close?” ra asked softly. “We’ve only met twice, maybe thrice. It doesn’t mean that we are not strangers,” ra said again.


    This made Samuel get hurt. His ‘Adam’s apple’ was going up and down, holding back a strongly suppressed anger.


    “I fucked your pussy,” Samuel muttered in a deep, hoarse voice. “I fucked your almost married pussy.”


    Samuel’s jade eyes stared unblinkingly at ra. His teeth clenched, holding back the pain that somehow could arise uncontrobly. “How can you dare to say that we don’t know each other after you stroke my dick with your engagement ring on?”


    Quickly, Samuel grabbed ra’s left hand and eximed, “I’m sure your hand still remembers how it felt—”


    However, Samuel’s words stopped suddenly when he realized that there was no longer the engagement ring that ra was wearing yesterday. He was dumbfounded, eyeing the ring finger that had a ring mark on it. The skin color was paler than its surroundings.


    “You—”


    Samuel was stunned. His confused eyes met ra’s sad eyes which were now shedding tears again.


    ra tugged at Samuel’s hand. She didn’t say anything, then pulled away from Samuel’s frozen body, not moving even an inch.


    “You canceled the wedding?” asked Samuel with mixed feelings. He was happy and at the same time felt guilty. He felt he had steered ra’s life, but he didn’t quite understand where his joy hade from.


    “Yes,” ra answered shortly. “And this has absolutely nothing to do with you if you want to know,” she added as she looked away from his sharp gaze.


    A faint smile tugged at Samuel’s lips. However, seeing ra’s sad face, there must be something else she didn’t know.


    “Then why are you at Doctor Evans’ clinic?” asked Samuel in the end, making ra’s heart feel so painful to death.


    “That ….” ra bit her lower lip, making Samuel feel like doing that to her lips. “This has nothing to do with you. So, please let me go.”


    ra pushed back Samuel’s hand that was holding her palm. She held the tightness in her chest and said, “Goodbye, Sam! Thanks for everything.”


    Tears rolled down ra’s cheeks as she said her goodbyes. She desperately wanted to hug and kiss Samuel in search of strength. She desperately wanted to lean on and cry on his muscr shoulder to find peace. She also truly wanted to pour out her heart to the man to get support.


    However, she realized that she was not the right woman for him. The man was more entitled to get the perfect woman he wanted.


    ra realized that she had been too carried away by her short time together with Samuel. His tongue was sharp and did not promise anything to make her enchanted. His harsh words made her feel like she could express herself more freely.


    However, ra knew, like six years ago, if she didn’t leave Samuel now, she would never be able to let him go. She would never escape his charm. And it would make her and him suffer … if she let herself ept his hands.


    ra was about to cross the road, letting go of the happiness that existed in front of her. However, Samuel’s hand pulled her, bringing her into his warm and tight embrace.


    “Don’t go!” whispered Samuel, kissing her forehead gently. “I will never let you go again.”