157 157. Let Me Go


    Dave’s face turned pale. He stared at ra expressionlessly. He was distraught because of the problems Lea and their baby were facing. Now, ra said something that broke his heart.


    “Did you get drunkst night?” Dave asked, swallowing hard. Dave tried to distract himself by tidying up the pile of documents on his desk. “You spent a good time at the bar?”


    ra shook her head. She approached Dave and said again, “I did it consciously, Dave …. I chased after the man, tailing him like an infatuated woman. When he invited me to take revenge on you, I agreed. Not just once. I enjoyed it. We did it several times.”


    Instantly, a fire of anger burned Dave’s chest. His face was red, obviously from rage. He raised a hand, about to p ra. However, he was still sane enough to hold back. He clenched his fists so tightly that his hands ached.


    Dave mmed his fist on the table. He shouted to release his anger. ra’s heart ached, but she realized that she still had to continue this. For everyone’s good. No. This was all the more selfish, she was doing it for her own good.


    “Why are you telling me all this, ra? You should have kept quiet and didn’t have to tell me,” Dave asked in a trembling voice. His hands were still clenched on the table. He didn’t expect ra to take revenge on him. Didn’t they agree to continue their wedding ns?


    “I just wanted to let you know, this is how I feel right now, Dave. I’m still heartbroken. I’m still easily instigated. I’m still tempted by another man, under the pretext of your betrayal,” ra continued, holding back tears. “Is it possible, with feelings that are still like this you will ept me?”


    Dave fell silent. He caught his breath. inhaled. Exhaled.


    “I said I would ept you as you are. I’ve convinced myself to try to convince you,” Dave repliedter. “We’re still getting married.”


    .....


    raughed. Theughter was sad and suffocating. “I don’t believe in my loyalty, Dave. What if we’re married, and I make love to him again? In secret. Without telling you. Do you think that will make our future marriage life intact and happy?” asked ra with tears in her eyes.


    Dave sat on the chair. He was heartbroken, feeling unable to face everything he was going through. It was excruciating and made his heart worried.


    “What made you do all this? Why are you suddenly doing this to me?” asked Dave suspiciously. His eyes were bloodshot because sadness and anger had taken over him. “Why didn’t you do this earlier?”


    Dave’s gray eyes stared at ra intensely, trying to enter ra’s soul from his eyes. He managed to make ra’s heart feel chaotic. Feeling helpless, ra burst into tears.


    “Why do I need a reason to cheat?” ra asked back. “He is so … handsome and seductive. It’s natural that I really want to feel how to have sex with him, isn’t it?


    “You’re lying, right?” Dave asked, demanding an honest answer. An answer that would make him believe, apelling reason for her to betray him. “Look at me in the eyes and tell me your reason again.”


    ra wiped away the tears with her fingers. “It doesn’t matter, Dave! I betrayed you! And I really believe that I will easily do it again in the future. Even after we got married.”


    Dave rose from his seat. He walked over to ra and bent down to level his face with hers.


    “ra, tell me that you still love me. I wouldn’t mind if you had an affair. As long as you still love me.” Dave’s face was pitiful. He tried to look at ra who was crying even more profusely. However, ra turned away. She felt so guilty. Why all of this had to happen?


    “Tell me, ra! Say that you’re just bored and need a distraction. Tell me you just want to vent your anger,” Dave squeezed ra’s shoulder. He begged and begged.


    ra sobbed even more. Her tears were so heavy. She swallowed heavily. She couldn’t say the reason. Should she convey it to him?


    “I saw you talking to Lea,” ra said in a trembling voice. “You already know Lea’s problem right?”


    Dave’s heart seemed to be squeezed hard. His eyes stared nkly at the office floor. So, was that ra’s excuse? His knees were weak, and he fell kneeling to the floor.


    “I feel that you two are connected by something that I would not be able to interfere with. You two made me feel that I was not a part of it,” exined ra further.


    ra’s hands reached Dave’s face. She cupped Dave’s cheeks with her cold slender fingers and said, “Sure, I love you, Dave. I love you so much.”


    Tears streamed down Dave’s face. His teeth gritted, holding back the vibrations that welled up in his chest.


    “I also know that you love and care for me, Dave,” ra continued with sobs that were getting heavier. “But I know that you also feel the same way... in our case... love alone is not enough to keep us together.”


    He shook his head. “No, don’t say that!” He hugged ra, not wanting to let her go.


    “I’m sure you know this too, Dave. We shouldn’t be together,” ra whispered again. She hugged him tightly, seeking strength from his embrace.


    “Lea is fighting for her baby... your baby...,” ra whispered again in a deep, hoarse voice. “She is risking her life for the innocent baby you made together.”


    Dave kept shaking his head. He didn’t want ra to say the things that had confused himtely.


    “Be a good dad, Dave. Give her your full support and care. She and your baby deserve your love,” ra continued again, she hugged Dave even tighter.


    Dave could only hug ra nkly. He felt that this time he would lose her. He would lose the love he had cultivated for so long.


    In a trembling and heavy voice, ra said, “Let me say goodbye to your life, Dave. Start your new life. Let me go.”