Do you remember when you told me I was a good person ? That''s the nicest thing I''ve ever been told even though it wasn''t true. Sometimes I just stop and think about when things started to go off-road. Was there ever a turning point ? Or did everything tip slowly over decisions and years passing by ? I can''t think of a moment when I could''ve done something different that would''ve changed how I turned out. When I was young I wasn''t decisive enough and when I grew older I was too decisive. There are a lot of questions I regret not asking you. For one, how do you know when you''ve gone too far ? Because I think I went too far. I know I''ve gone too far. You wouldn''t approve. You wouldn''t have said it but I know you wouldn''t have. Don''t you think that''s fucked up, though ? You''ve never held me accountable for anything. That I never held myself accountable for anything. Though I know the shadow guys are scrupulously jotting down everything. Wouldn''t surprise me if I became a rock in my next life. Sometimes I think back to how it was when we were still a family with Rei, Natsuo, and Fuyumi. You held Touya accountable on my behalf and that fucked him up more. Is that why you didn''t, for me ? But I''m not blaming you. It would be a pretty shitty thing to do as you can''t defend yourself and I wasn''t a kid anyway. I think I''m barely starting to realize that there are things I''ve done that I can''t take back. You''d say it''s not too late but on the contrary, I think it is. I know they''ll soon come for me, those are the consequences of my actions. I''ll wait for them because I need to finish what I''ve started. That''s what you taught me, remember ? Always finish what you start.If you come across this story on Amazon, it''s taken without permission from the author. Report it.


    I wish you were here so you could tell me everything''s going to be alright even though we''d both know you''re lying.