Chapter 51


    theory, being in this lifestyle long enough, I tend to witness a lot of different things.”


    I bow my head and feel as though I’ve been punched in the gut multiple times. I did this to E. I turned


    her into someone who needs pain to get off, or to feel better. How can I face her after learning all of


    this?


    I nce back up at Master Thane, “Would she forgive her bully and then enter a sexual rtionship


    with him because she has feelings for him or is it because she wants to keep her bully happy?”


    “That’s hard to say without knowing them personally, but I guess it could go either way.” He says as he


    thinks hard, trying toe up with an answer for me, “My thoughts in this situation would be that if the


    victim came to me after the bullying had stopped, then I would take it that her feelings could be real, but


    if the bullying stopped and the bully is the one that pushed for a rtionship, then I would think that the


    victim would only be entering the rtionship because she feels like she’s being bullied into it.”


    That right there, Thane’s words, they bring my entire world down. All I can think about now is how E


    may not love me like she thinks she does. Did I bully her into being with me? I know I pushed and


    pushed, but surely, she would have told me off if it wasn’t what she wanted, right? I can’t stay here right


    now. I thank Thane for his time and tell him that I just remembered something and that I have to go,


    letting him know that I will call to set up another meeting as soon as I can figure my schedule out. Of


    course, it’s a lie, because if I end up losing E, then there is no reason for me needing him. I don’t


    want to dominate anyone else; E is it.


    After my meeting, I don’t go home, and I don’t go back to the Training Center. I need to get my head on


    straight and think about


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    what I’m going to do to make this right, because as of right now, I may have to give my girl up in order


    to see if she really does love me. So, instead, I head to the Gym to take my frustrations out on weights


    and punching bags.


    It’s been a while since I’ve been here and it feels good to hit something as hard as I can, pummeling


    the object until sweat runs down my body and my arms tire. I step back from the punching bag as I try


    to catch my breath. After a two-hour workout, I’m feeling good, physically, but not much better mentally


    or emotionally. I still don’t know what I’m going to do, but I know that I need to talk to E about it


    before I make any decisions. I refuse to make any more assumptions when it concerns E.


    TJA


    Looking at the time, it isn’t aste as I thought it would be, so I pull off the wrap that I have around my


    hands and pull out my phone. Finding E’s name, I hit the video call button and wait for her to answer.


    It rings a few times, and I start to think that she isn’t going to answer, but then the call picks up and I


    see my beautiful girl on my screen.


    “Hey, handsome. I wasn’t expecting you to call.” She gives me the smile that she only reserves for me.


    “Hello beautiful,” I smile back but I’m sure it doesn’t reach very far, “We need to talk.”.