Chapter 284


    <h4>Together</h4>


    She was a young girl again . A young girl who was currently being chased around by her master because she had snuck off into the woods instead of staying behind to practice her Qi control drills . She wasughing and giggling, finding joy in the familiar lilt of her master’s voice . Then, it all faded . The dream was slipping away . She knew that because Master’s voice was bing more and more masculine .


    "...Chan’er? Chan’er . "


    Yundong’s concerned expression came into view when she blinked her eyes open . He was sitting on the bed, right beside where she was lying . As wakefulness slowly trickled in, she began to feel the sharp dig of Yundong’s fingers on her shoulder .


    "Beloved?" she mumbled, rubbing her eyes .


    Her fingers were damp . She’d been crying in her sleep .


    Yundong released his grip on her shoulder and smiled . "Are you okay?"


    Su Chan went for a smile, though she wasn’t sure if it had worked . Yundong was still looking at her with concern, so she guessed it hadn’t .


    Yundong pushed a few strands of her hair away from her forehead . "Did you have a good nap?" Yundong’s tone was cheerful, but the look on his face was anything but .


    Su Chan nodded a few times, then stretched out her legs .


    "I made supper . " Yundong stroked her head again . "Are you still hungry? Or do you want to go back to sleep?"


    Su Chan shook her head . "I wanna eat . " She should eat . Stuffing carrots into her mouth was better than filling her mind with countless illusions that always ended up turning into nightmares .


    Yundong smiled and rose from the bed . "Come on, then . " He offered Su Chan his hand . "Let’s eat before the food gets cold . "


    ***


    The food was still warm when they sat down on the square table to begin supper . Yundong had made two simple dishes: stir-fried turnips with carrots; and also vegetable soup .


    Yundong ced two steaming bowls of rice on the table and then sat down on the stool opposite hers . "Dig in, princess . " Yundong smiled and picked up his bowl of rice .


    Su Chan smiled and picked up her own bowl .


    Ten minutes into the meal, Yundong lowered his bowl onto the table . Su Chan stared at Yundong’s empty bowl, then shifted her gaze to her own bowl . She hadn’t even finished half of her rice .


    Wow . Yundong had actually finished his meal before she did . That had never happened before . This deserved a new entry in their Food Wars records .


    She could feel Yundong’s eyes on her for the past ten minutes . She knew he was worried, but he hadn’t say anything so far . He was just there, taking care of her, reassuring her with his presence . And for that, Su Chan was grateful . The truth was that Su Chan wanted so much to open up to him . She just didn’t know how . She felt like she would fall apart the moment she started talking .


    "How about I feed you?"


    Su Chan looked up from her bowl .


    Yundong was stirring her untouched soup with a spoon .


    Su Chan bit her bottom lip to stop it from trembling .


    What was wrong with her?


    Just eat, Chan’er . It’s food . Just eat . Suck it up and eat . Gobble everything down like you used to .


    "Chan’er?"


    Yundong raised the spoon .


    Su Chan opened her mouth . "Ah..."


    Yundong smiled and brought the spoon to her lips . Su Chan wrapped her lips around the spoon and slurped .


    The soup tasted nd .


    It made no sense . Sweet potatoes are supposed to be sweet . Why did it taste so nd? Why did everything feel so meaningless?


    The spoon rose to her lips again . Another spoonful . Would it taste sweeter this time? Yundong let out low humming sound, encouraging her to drink up . Su Chan parted her lips and slurped .


    nd . Meaningless . Painful .


    Her throat felt warm,fortable . Her eyes felt warm too, the stinging kind .


    The spoon didn’t rise to her lips again; Yundong had stopped feeding her soup . Secondster, her half-empty rice bowl was pried off her hand . Her chopsticks ttered to the table when she let go of them .


    "S- Soup..." Su Chan’s lips trembled, and her throat clenched . "I... I want . . . s-soup..."


    Lies . She wanted something, alright . But it had absolutely nothing to do with soup .


    "Oh, Chan’er..."


    "I..." Su Chan buried her face into her hands and started sobbing .


    There were noises amidst her sobs: the legs of a chair scraping against the floor; footsteps; whispers offort .


    "I miss her, Yundong..." Su Chan sniveled and swallowed the lump on her throat . "God, I miss her so much..."


    Warmth enveloped her body . Someone’s jaw pressed down onto the crown of her head . Her beloved’s jaw .


    "I know, Chan’er... I know . " Yundong patted her back gently . "You... You were calling out her name in your sleep . "


    "Oh God... Yundong... Oh God... What have I done? Yundong... What have I done?" Su Chan gripped her hair with both hands . Her voice had turned into a whisper by then . "It’s my fault... It’s all my fault... Everything is my fault..."


    "Hey, hey, hey..." Yundong slowly got her to loosen her grip on her hair . "Come on... Don’t say that . How is any of this your fault?"


    "Master... She... She was..." Su Chan sniffed and wiped her cheeks with one hand . "She was ambushed . "


    There was a sigh .


    "Yeah . I kinda suspected that . " Yundong said, then paused . "But it isn’t your fault, you know?"


    Su Chan shook her head . "I... I tried to tell her . I was... I..." Su Chan let out another sob . "I can’t lose her, Yundong... I can’t..."


    Yundong stopped her rambling with several taps on her shoulder . "It’s okay, Chan’er . It’s okay . " He crouched down until they were looking into each other’s eyes . "Just tell me slowly, okay?"


    Su Chan swiped her tears, then took a deep breath . "I saw, Yundong . I saw what Mo Ahshi did to Gu-shībó . I knew there was something wrong with... with..." Su Chan sucked in another breath when her voice turned into a choking sound . Yundong started patting her back again . Su Chan exhaled and cleared her throat . "Then, I told Master what I saw . She was furious . She didn’t believe me . "


    Yundong said nothing and kept stroking her back .


    "She didn’t believe me because I’ve..." Another lump formed in Su Chan’s throat . "I’ve been disobedient . I haven’t been a good girl..." Su Chan sniffed . "Running around causing trouble... I..." Su Chan blinked away more tears . "If... If only I’d been more obedient... Then Master would’ve listened to my warning . She would’ve been ready... and... and... none of this would’ve happened . "


    The words kept pouring out of Su Chan’s mouth . She’d been holding everything in ever since her escape from the Fox Zen School . And now that the floodgates had opened, she just couldn’t stop talking .


    "...She’s been so busy . Her mind was upied... Helping you... Worrying about the attack... And I didn’t even help... So weak... A burden... I... I was just hiding... If only I’d been a bit stronger..." Her voice turned into a wail . "Oh God, what have I done..."


    "Chan’er, look at me . "


    Her hands were pried away from her face gently .


    Yundong’s determined expression came into view .


    "We’re gonna get her back, Chan’er . I’m going to do everything in my power to get her back, you hear me? Everything . "


    Su Chan exhaled tiredly and stared down at her ownp . She didn’t even have the energy to nod . This was too exhausting .


    "I wanna help," she said tiredly .


    Yundong lifted her chin up . "Then we’ll do it together . "


    Su Chan stared into his beloved’s eyes . She didn’t smile even though her heart felt a bit lighter now .


    "Together . "