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    Nyx''s pov


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    I hissed as the silverced whip came down against my back. I felt my skin sh open with a


    new wound as the whip came down again leaving an injury worse than thest.


    "Should we do twenty one?" Hisugh was sinister as always, "Or twenty one multiplied by two?"


    He brought the whip down again and this time I yelled in pain as I couldn''t keep it in any longer.


    The tears I had been fighting to hold back rolled down my eyes and they stung harshly.


    We are suppose to be mates! I bit back my words, why are you doing this? And I couldn''t ask this


    either fearing for what woulde next, we have a child together for goodness sake! I didn''t have


    enough courage to say this too.


    "I wonder what the moon goddess was thinking when she made us mates!" He gritted as he bent to


    where I was hunched over on the floor. He grabbed my head and made me face him, my own


    pained green eyes meeting his of grey that glinted with hate for me, "Weak mutt!" He spat.


    "You should have just let me ept your rejection!" I said and instantly regretted as a harsh blow


    landed on my face.


    "You dare talk back at your Alpha?!" His voice was filled with rage, "Seems you have forgotten what


    put you in this position in the first ce." He reminded me, "And why would I have let you ept my


    rejection?" His question was somewhat rhetorical, "I want you to feel every pain anytime I have sex


    with another person."


    "I am sorry." I muttered weakly as I remembered what had put me in this state. He had asked earlier


    this morning to prepare an omelette and I had refused stating that I wasn''t his maid and he had


    gotten angry as usual and vowed to punish me.


    So, here I was observing my punishment, I had never had it this bad and I wondered what the rest


    of the day had In store for me and what my life had in store for me.


    "You know I would have been nicer if weren''t some ugly, weak, cursed bitch!" He grabbed a hold of


    my hair and pulled by head back with so much force  I felt the strain in my scalp, "And that stupid


    wretched father of yours…you know why he gambled you away at such a young age?"


    I kept mute as his horrid words cut through me like an actual knife.


    "It''s because you are nothing! A waste! Useless! A curse! You are worthless and I am hell bent on


    giving you so much pain to remind you how much of a letdown you are. You deserve only pain."


    I whimpered at his words as more tears fell from my eyes.


    "And that stupid child of yours…"


    She''s our child, I so badly wanted to tell him, why are you this cruel?


    "She''s a waste just like you! Cursed and useless!" He said, "And you even have the guts to say that


    she''s mine?" His grip on my hair tightened, "How do I know the little bitch is mine? Every unmated


    male has been between those useless legs of yours! Whore!"


    I cringed at his words, same words I heard ever since I birthed her.


    "She''s yours and you know it!" I spat at him, "I am no whore!"


    His grip left my hair and travelled to my neck squeezing hard restricting my airflow, my eyes bulged


    as I struggled to breathe.


    "You can use that mouth of yours right?" He growled at me and I felt wsing out piercing my


    skin as the grip tightened.


    His wolf was out and I felt raw fear wash over me.


    "I will show you how to use that fucking mouth!" He stood up releasing his hold and I slumped to the


    floor gasping for air. I wasn''t even given a moment to catch my breath. He bent swiftly, picked me


    up harshly and with long strides he reached the bed.


    He threw me on it with a growl and I howled in pain as my head met with the head board, tears


    clouded my vision.


    I looked up at him and his shirt was gone, his handsid on his belt unbuckling it and he had his


    usual signature smirk on his face anytime he wanted to take advantage of me.


    I closed my eyes as hisst piece of clothing came off and soon I felt his weight on me and Iid


    there stilling in silence as I bore it all with tears flowing down my cheeks.


    I woke up to a soft hand caressing my cheek, opening my eyes I saw Amara in front of


    me, her green eyes looked sad as she peered down at me. She was holding her teddy ''fluffy'' and


    her dress was stained with mud, her face was dirty too.


    "Mummy…" She called, "Blood." I knew she was talking about my wounds as I saw tears glistening


    in her eyes too.


    I tried to sit up and was rewarded with pain as I did so.


    "Where am I?" I groaned trying to decipher my surroundings as I  looked around only to discover


    that was in the alley as expected. He always ordered warriors to drop me here when he was done


    as I always passed out.


    "Sorry mummy." She sniffed as she dropped fluffy and flung her arms around me not minding that


    the blood on me would mess up her hand and clothes.


    I drew her closer and hugged her back holding tight to my daughter, the only reason for me still


    being alive and fighting. I had to be alive to take care of her and give her a better life.


    "Have you eaten baby?" I asked her.


    "No." She shook her head and looked up at me, "I was waiting for you…"


    "Okay." I gently pushed her off me and stood up. I picked her up once I was on my feet and made


    my way back into the pack house.


    "Whore!"


    "Slut!"


    "Cursed!"


    "Abomination!"


    I tried not to pay attention to the words I got used to over time as I passed by the members of the


    pack making way to my room or should I say cubicle. Each time I heard those words I was pained,


    hearing them over and over again pushed me to tears but I couldn''t retaliate or defend myself as I


    would get punished.


    "Look at her…" I heard one of thedies sneer, "Imagine she was our luna." Her wickedugh


    followed, "I bet she''s even fake mates with the Alpha, she''s such a slut, no wonder she got


    rejected."


    Others joined her in mocking andughing at me but I  paid no attention to them, still hugging


    Amara close and trying to shield her ears from hearing such derogatory words but I knew it wouldn''t


    work, she could hear them and often times try to ask me what they meant.


    You are not what they say you are, you are not a slut neither a whore, you don''t deserve this, you


    don''t deserve the pain, I tried convincing myself so as not to believe their words as I walked into the


    kitchen with their voices fading away.


    It was empty and I let out a huge sigh of relief.


    I walked to the fridge and took out some fruits with meat.


    Amara loved meat a lot, would have said it was because she was a werewolf but she had a very


    large appetite for meat which was strange for her age.


    I finished from the kitchen and walked away quickly before someone would find me out.


    I followed the stairs leading downwards towards the basement of the pack house which was where I


    stayed. I got to it quickly and closed the door behind me as I got in before dropping Amara and the


    food I had in my hand.


    It was dark down here, really dark. This ce also served as a temporary store room


    where things that weren''t needed were kept. In the corner of the basement was where I called


    home.


    A thin mattress was near the wall with a light nket thrown over it. I had a worn out sack next to


    the bed which carried most of Amara and I''s clothes and other petty belongings.


    I took my child''s hand and led her to the bed, sat her on it andid the food out before her. She


    immediately reached for the meat on the te and I giggled as she lifted it to her mouth and began


    gobbling it down.


    I sat joining her on the bed, picked up some grapes to eat and leaned against the wall, I hissed in


    pain as my back came in contact with the wall as my wounds were still raw and fresh.


    Let me heal you! Hera my wolf growled, stop being fucking stubborn.


    No! I said to her, if you heal me now, he will find out and get really angry, you know how he forbade


    us from healing, besides, you aren''t even strong enough due to the wolfsbane and silver.


    We need to get out of here Nyx! She said, we need to get out of here before he kills us or hurts our


    pup.


    I looked at Amara at her statement and felt anger surge within me at the thought of him harming


    her.


    You know we can''t run. He will find us and hurt dad, you know it. Besides are we going to be rogues


    all our lives if we run, what will happen? We are omegas, we can''t survive out there and Amara


    can''t survive out there and I can''t just leave dad here.


    Nyx! Hera growled, I could tell she was really angry, this man put us in this situation in the first


    ce, gambling us off to the  Alpha and not even caring till now, he''s cruel to us and yet you bother


    what''s happening with him.


    She was right, my dad hadn''t been an angel but even though he always saw me as a curse and an


    abomination because I was a silver wolf and never cared what happened to me, I still cared for him


    despite his cruelty.


    We can''t run away Hera, I said to her, what if worse happens to us out there?


    And what if good happens to us? She countered me, we can never know if we don''t try.


    You have to rest Hera, we got a long day tomorrow, I said and cut off the connection.


    I looked at Amara to see that she had fallen asleep with fluffy tightly clutched to one hand and a half


    eaten grape fruit held in the other.


    I smiled at her andid next to her myself with the hope that sleep will embrace me soon.