Chapter 39


    I lose track of time and didn’te back to my surroundings until Kade shook my shoulder, making me


    jump back. “We are here, love,” he tells me and I blink.


    We had arrived already?i nce around to find it waste at night, yet this wasn’t the packhouse that


    Kade had told me about. There was no huge sandstone mansion or gardens, no fountains and tall


    hedges and or any people in sight. I look at the run down cabin we had parked out the front of in


    confusion


    “Where are we?” I ask him, noticing this ce waspletely isted and surrounded by forest.


    “A safe house. We have been having issues with neighboring packs. We don’t want to alert them to


    your existence. It would put you in danger,” he says. My brows furrow and I go to say something, yet he


    was already climbing out of the car. The wind was harsh as he walked around, opening my door. I climb


    out, rubbing my arms before retrieving my bag.


    “How long will we stay here for?” I ask him, looking at the tiny porch that sloped on one side. The door


    had a huge crack and a chunk missing from the bottom corner.


    “You will stay here until the mess is sorted with the other pack,” he says while fiddling with his keys.


    “Wait you aren’t staying with me?” I asked, peering around at the tress, and into the shadowing


    darkness.


    “No, I need to head home. Keep up appearances. If I don’t return, they maye looking for me, which


    isn’t safe for you,” he tells me.


    “But this ce is safe?” I ask him. He nods his head.


    “I will stay for a little bit. I sent a list to my men. They stocked everything for you. Come on, I will show


    you inside,” he tells me. He ushers me to follow him before unlocking the door. He has to kick it a few


    times to get it to un-stick; the door was swollen from what looked like water damage. Stepping inside,


    the ce was a dump, rubbish strewn everywhere, and it reminded me of some of the old abandoned


    buildings near the orphanage.


    Inside was a double bed, the mattress heavily stained. No, actually, I believe it is a futon. Kade flicks


    the lights on and they flicker as he moves toward the kitchen


    “You’ll find everything you need here. I will bring more supplies and food as soon as I can. But with a


    tidy up it should be quite cozy,” he says. He hunts around in the tiny kitchen, that I could reach my leg


    out from the bed to touch the counter it was that close. He returns with a box of matches and passes


    them to me.


    “I need to go, but I will return tomorrow. Firewood is around back. You may need to chop some up.


    Some fresh bed linen is over there and food is in the pantry and fridge.” he tells me.


    “Wait, can you help me get the fire started?” I ask him desperately. I always sucked at it and Gannon,


    Liam or Dustin would always start mine back in my little room back home. Sometimes Damian too.


    “Don’t be silly. It’s ridiculouslyte, I need to get home and shower to get up for work. You can manage


    fine on your own for one night. I will be back around lunchtime tomorrow,” he says.


    “Please, let mee with you. You can sneak me into the packhouse. No one will see me, it’ste


    night no one be up at this hour,” I tell him, not wanting to stay out here by myself.


    “Abbie, love. I need to go. I haven’t got time for the theatrics. Behave and I will be back tomorrow,” he


    says, pecking my forehead. He then turns to leave me here. I nce around, sitting on the creaky old


    mattress, the springs digging into my backside. It was freezing in here. It was so cold my breath was


    making clouds in the air.


    I needed to start the fire, but after only moments of sitting, the cold seeped deep within my bones,


    making them ache. I reach for the sheets and nkets, huddling beneath them and pulling my phone


    from my bag. I turn the screen on and see the time and sigh. Much toote to call Gannon and wake


    him. Instead, I listen to his messages over and over of him telling me he misses me and asking me to


    call him back.


    I can’t believe my mate left me here, I think to myself, before reminding myself it was for my safety. The


    sun was almost rising by the time I finally managed to sleep. Only it wasn’t long before Kade was


    waking me. I jump, startled when a hand touches me before peering around.


    “I told you I wasing by at lunch,” he says. He looks around at the ce, and l yawn, stretching my


    arms above my head.


    “I’ll make you a coffee,” he says, wandering the few steps away to the kitchen. “I expected you to have


    this ce cleaned up. I wanted to stay here tonight with you, but I suppose I can’t now. I can’t reward


    laziness,” he says, and I jump to my feet.


    “I can clean it. I will get to work now,” I tell him.yet my belly rumbles hungrily, but I would ignore it if it


    meant he would stay the night here. Last night was unbearable.


    “Sit. You don’t have time now. The sun will be going down soon,” he says, passing me the steaming


    mug.


    “Ah, what time is it?” I ask, and he nces at his watch. “A little after 4 PM,” he says.


    “But you said you would be here at lunch?”


    “I got held back. I’m here now, though. Come here,” he says, patting hisp. I wiggle closer, only for


    him to pull me onto hisp. I rest my head on his shoulder, and he chuckles when I inhale his scent.


    “When can Ie to the packhouse?” I ask him.


    “Soon. Hopefully. A few of my men were killedst week after the other pack attacked. As soon as it is


    safe you will be home with me. I promise. I hate the thought of you out here alone; I want you by my


    side always,” he says, kissing my cheek.


    “Then take me with you. I don’t care about the risk. I will have you with me. I just want you,” I tell him.


    “Abbie, please, it has been a stressful enough day. Can’t we justy for a little bit? Let me rx a little


    while here? I can’t risk you. You are the most precious person in the world to me,” he says,ying


    down.


    1 slide off hisp beside him and sip my coffee. My belly rumbles again, and I look to the kitchen.


    Getting to my feet, I move toward the fridge and open it, finding it bare besides some butter, campers


    milk, and a block of cheese.


    Opening the pantry, I found dry cereal and a packet of crackers. I thought he said someone stocked the


    ce? “Kade?” I call over my shoulder.


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    He looks over at me, and I point to the pantry. “I thought they stocked it?” he rubs his chin.


    “Right, I will get onto them when I get back home and send someone out to grab some things for you.”


    “Maybe you could take me to the shop? I am hungry, and there is only cereal and crackers,” I tell him.


    “I’m sure that is enough for one day, I will be sure to bring more food tomorrow,” he tells me while


    waving me over.


    I look at the empty cupboard before closing it and wandering over to him, only for him to pull me down


    on top of him. He rolls, pushing me on my back and moving between my legs.


    Kade kisses me, his tongue slipping between my lips and tasting every inch of my mouth. His lips trail


    down my neck, and I gasp at the delicious sparks as he nips and sucks on my neck. He lifts my skirt,


    his fingers reaching for the waistband of my panties and I pull away from him, shuffling up the bed. He


    growls, nipping my corbone with his teeth as I wiggle up the bed.


    “Why you gotta be such a prude? I am your mate!” he snaps when I tug my skirt down. Yet his words


    washed right over me as I was brought back to the basement in the orphanage. Plunged violently into


    memories I wished weren’t mine, ones I wish would remain buried and never surface again.


    “Abbie?” Kade whispers, gripping my face. “Why are you crying again? You are always crying! What


    did I do now?” he asks as tears prick my eyes, yet I can’t exin. The shame I felt burned me hotter


    than burning hot coals ever could.


    Kade sighs, “I guess I better go. Try to have this ce cleaned up so I can stay tomorrow night,” he


    says while getting to his feet. Panic bubbles up, filling me dread what if the butcher found me? I would


    be by myself?


    “But you only just got here. I can clean the ce. It won’t take me long,” I tell him, but he shakes his


    head. “And try to clean yourself up a little for me before tomorrow. Your clothes smell off. I don’t like it.”


    he says before leaving while I stared at the door after he closed it.


    Once again, I am left alone for another night, only tonight, my stomach cramps so much I struggle to


    breathe. Pain courses through my chest, and I try to ring Kade, but he never answers. Hours pass


    while I endure it before finally, he calls me back.


    Answering the phone, I shiver beneath the nket, my teeth chattering so much they ache “Kade! Oh


    please, Kade! Something is wrong! My stomach and chest, it feels so tight. I think I need to see a


    doctor,” I sob into the phone.


    “Is that why you have been disturbing me all night? Over menstrual cramps? For fucks sake, Abbie! I


    was in a meeting!” he growls.


    “It’s not those sort of cramps. Even my chest hurts. It was hard to breathe,” I try to exin, yet the


    hollowness writhing through me was the most unbearable as if a part of me was dying, and I couldn’t


    find the words to exin it urately.


    “You’re being dramatic!” he snaps before hanging up, and for the first time in ages, I break.


    Why couldn’t he juste and be here if he wouldn’t call a doctor? That would be enough. I just


    wanted to be held, anything to take my mind off the agony that had torn through me so suddenly, yet as


    the time slipped by, the pain eased off. Why was he acting like this? Three times I attempted to call


    Gannon before putting the phone down. Shame washed through me, I should have listened. This was


    not at all what I imagined finding my mate to be. Yet I was too embarrassed to tell anyone, after


    everything and the fuss everyone made about me leaving.


    Crawling and sniffling back was too embarrassing, and then the voices would start, the voices that


    criticize everything I had ever done or said, bringing back every memory. My mind pointed out my ws


    and reminded me of how pathetic I am. Reminding me that I should be grateful the moon goddess


    granted me a mate because no one else would have me,


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