Chapter 123


    Neen: Joselin


    Joselin''s P.O.V.


    The food I had gathered for us was long forgotten in the kitchen. My ns for the evening were gone


    as well. The air in my tower swirled angrily with the threat of a storm caused by me. It had been a very


    long time since my emotions ruled my magic.


    It made me feel inept, and theck of control was worrisome. I hadn''t lost control since I was a


    teenager.


    The pain in my chest was unwee, and a few stray tears slid down my cheeks.


    My body''s betrayal and willingness to show emotion were infuriating, but I knew my true anger was


    directed at the man downstairs. I was sure he hated being there. With so many people around and


    trying to talk to him, I knew he would be ufortable. Even that knowledge didn''t satisfy the petty


    part of my mind that wanted him to be miserable for hurting me.


    If he wanted to go to a mating mixer and look for a wolf to mark, contradicting all the sweet words he


    shared with mest night, he could.


    I was a big girl. I could find a way to get over him. Nothing had worked so far, but that didn''t make it


    impossible.


    I could warn Natalie about the unknown threat and have it be her problem. She would be taking over


    my job soon anyway, so there was no point in letting her get her feet wet. She might as well jump right


    in.


    With her handling that, I would be free to escape and find myself outside this castle.


    My gut twisted at the idea of leaving Tobias, though. No matter how upset and angry I was, I would


    hate it if I left without getting answers. I had loved him for too long just to turn away and never look


    back. There were so many questions for him, but the most important was why I wasn''t enough.


    Rona''s words yed on a loop in my head, reminding me that a man like Tobias wouldn''t want a


    woman who looked like me. My teeth ground together, and my hands were in tight fists as I stopped


    pacing.


    There was only one way I could get an honest answer to ease or confirm my concerns.


    It was something I swore I would never do. I had learned to embrace who I was long ago, and while I


    knew this experiment would be damaging to my mental well-being if it confirmed my suspicions, I didn''t


    see myself having another choice.


    If I didn''t find out, I would never feel confident enough in myself. I would never be able to be in a


    rtionship without that fear hanging over me. I just had to hope that what I was about to do wouldn''t


    bite me in the ass. I needed to go into this with no expectations to prevent myself from getting hurt


    further. No hope.


    I could do this.


    The spell book with this particr enchantment had been shoved up on the highest shelf of my


    bookcase so it would stay out of sight. With a quick flick of my finger, the dusty and worn item flew


    across the room and crashed into my waiting palm.


    It was a novice-level volume, and I knew what I wanted would be easy to cast.


    My chanting was low and hushed for a few minutes before I felt my skin tingling. The usual vibrations of


    the runes and knots on my skin could still be felt. But when I looked down, I could only see the tanned


    skin of my arms, no markings in sight.


    I had never been able to hold color before, and while most people enjoyed being tan, I felt sick. But it


    meant the mour spell was working.


    It was difficult to look in the mirror and see this version of me, the fake one. A stranger stared back at


    me with smooth, wless skin, long brown hair, and deep blue eyes.


    She was beautiful, and I knew she would give Tobias a run for his money. His jaw was bound to drop


    when he saw me in this form. I just prayed to the Goddess that he didn''t let it show.


    I kept the same dress on, knowing it was not as formal as these events expected, but I didn''t have the


    patience to choose a new outfit. No one beyond the staff had seen me in it anyway.


    It was a dash to get back downstairs. I wanted to get there before Tobias left or chose someone. He


    had been attending these for years but had never chosen anyone before.


    His presence was only surprising because I didn''t think he had a reason to show up tonight. I thought


    he had chosen me. If not as his mate, then maybe to date me. The fact that he was here told me that


    his priority was to find his mate, and whatever we had would be short-lived if it wasn''t already over.


    I could feel him as I entered the room, ignoring all the gawking men and women around me. There was


    surprise on their faces as they watched me, knowing with the mour, they would smell me as a wolf


    instead of a witch. But there was still no way to hide my power. My aura would still be stronger than


    most.


    His brown eyesnded on me over the crowd, and my breathing caught when he didn''t look away. I


    took it as a bad sign that he was already interested in the normal-looking version of me.


    Yet, I smirked confidently before striding toward him, enjoying how the crowd parted for me. My body


    buzzed with excitement with every step, and while I knew this moment couldpletely shatter me, it


    also almost felt like one of our games.


    "Nice suit." My eyes trailed over him, my voiceing out softer than usual and sounding strange to


    my ears. Only it wasn''t mine. It was hers. Whoever this woman was that I was pretending to be


    sounded sweet yet seductive.


    Tobias''s eyes narrowed, and I could see the question in his re, wondering why I was bothering him.


    "I love the strong, silent type." I reached out as one of the servers walked by, grabbing a ss from the


    tray in their hand and taking a small sip of the sickly sweet beverage. "How is a man like you not


    imed?”


    I stepped forward, cing my free hand on his chest, gasping when he mped his tightly around my


    wrist. His grasp was firm, but he didn''t shove me away. If anything, he held my hand against him so I


    couldn''t pull away.


    Taking his reaction as an encouragement to continue, I tilted my chin up. A rush of satisfaction and


    betrayal washed through me when he leaned down, giving me his ear. The closeness caused my


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    breasts to brush against his arm holding mine to his chest, and I felt my nipples pebble at the contact.


    "You smell delicious.” My teeth nipped his earlobe, and he growled in response. If he hadn''t held me so


    close, I would have considered the sound a warning or threat.


    Behind me, I could hear a few new mates enjoying each other, and it wouldn''t be long before this room


    was full of naked men and women. Many wolves and Lycans enjoyed fucking in front of others,


    iming their partner for all to see. Mating mixers were notorious for it.


    "But I wonder how you would taste." My whisper was followed by the tip of my tongue trailing up his


    neck. I could feel the goosebumps against his skin at my touch, and he was growing hard against my


    stomach.


    The sinking feeling that he was turned on and enjoyed what I did to him in this form made my stomach


    hurt, but I also didn''t want to stop. He couldn''t know it was me behind the enchantment, yet he openly


    disyed his interest in the female before him.


    It seemed that he had chosen after all. I had been a toy, something to y with. Everyone knew we


    had gone home togetherst night, so he got the same reward as the others. He probably enjoyed


    everyone knowing he had the witch in his bed without having to say a single word.


    It was impressive. But I was disappointed that after everything, I didn''t even get to feel him inside me. I


    never got to experience what it would be like to make love instead of just fucking.


    Tobias''srge hand released my wrist, and I was taken aback when he grabbed my drink and pulled


    away. I watched, shocked, as he ced it, and his water, on the tray of a passing server.


    Even with the suit on, I could see the muscles in his back flexed and tensed. Then he turned around,


    and I gasped when his hand shot up around my throat. It seemed y time was over, even though I


    knew he was aroused.


    A round of cheers echoed through the room, signaling someone had just been imed, but the timing


    couldn''t have been worse for me. Tobias used the distraction to shove me a few steps back and up


    against the wall.


    There was minimal force behind it, but the action still knocked the breath out of me as he pushed his


    leg between mine.


    The hand around my throat moved up, and he used his thumb to tilt my head to the side. A moan


    ripped from my throat when his nose trailed over the exposed flesh. He let out a deep growl as he


    pulled back to meet my gaze with one of his eyebrows raised.


    I bit down on my lower lip, fighting back the mixed emotions he pulled from me. I wanted him, and I was


    enjoying our game. My panties were soaked for him, and if he wanted me, even in this form, I wouldn''t


    say no.


    Still, as he said, I adored his attention and affection. My love for him made me desperate to take all I


    could from him. But it made me sick that it was like this, in this form. I hated that Rona, of all people,


    had been right.


    His warm, calloused hand slid down to the end of my dress on my thigh before moving it up slowly. My


    eyes closed at the sensation of his fingertips traveling over my skin, and a lone tear slipped free as I


    turned my head away from him.


    I knew he couldn''t see the trail of water streaming down my cheek as it was on the other side of my


    face, closest to the wall. Yet, he pulled his hand away, cing it back on my covered hip.


    He was showing mercy.


    I was ying a game that my heart hadn''t been prepared to lose. The ache in my chest overtook the


    pleasure of feeling him against me.


    My lips pressed together to keep the whine of despair from leaving my mouth as Tobias''s nose gently


    touched my temple, his lips caressing my skin just by my ear.


    "I don''t know if you wanted me to kill you or fuck you. But this game you are ying, sweetheart, I''m


    not a fan. Give me back my witch.”