Chapter 46


    She squeezed Sommer


    End left her mind, the framed her heard


    “Thow are you feeling?”


    Lily rubbed her hand over the small bump she was starting to show. How did she feel? Honestly,


    she felt like she could actually face the world now. He didn’t incli at shadows anymore and she


    hadn’t panic when she went outside with Somture yesterday. Mar sighed.


    “I feel better. Thank you so much for all your help,


    She hugged her. “Baby, you did the work. Youced your demons every day for thest four


    months. Yan healed. We just stood beside you. We an really proud of you.”


    Lilly smiled. “Thank you,” Kni sat back and Lily’s heart dropped andomly. “What’s wrong, Land?”


    That Alden and Sasha ate leasting sismal of the other kingur


    dry. “Wheat about it?


    *Well, ummm… you will be staying in their adjoining rooms while the kings are here?


    Lily narrowed her eyes. “Why?”


    Her heart stopped. Laikan wasing? She looked around wildly as if he was going to suddenly


    appear in her mom, She mentirely licked her. ryes darted to the window and then the door. She


    wondered if


    “Don’t even think about it, Lily. I have alreadly told Alden and Sasha that Sommer will be staying


    with you. You can stay in the mom the entire time. Lukas will note there. He has already been


    told that while he is here, he is to respect your wishes and not force his presence on you. If you


    want to see him, that’s up in you, but there is no pressure for pour to go to see him.”


    “Okay,” she whispered. “When will he be here?”


    Kni looked over her shoulder at the clock. “Within the hour. Do you need me in do something for


    your


    “No, no. I just… amm… She turned to Sommer. “Can I borrow a hndie?


    “Actually, Lily…” Lily looked at her. “Lokas sent some stuff for you.”


    Her mouth dropped open. “He what?”


    Her eyes zed over and a momentter the door opened. Jo and than walked in pushing carts.


    Ully jumped up and ran into the bathroom. She mmed the dour and pressed her luck into it,


    panting Oh, Goddess. She looked down at her stomach and sank to her knees. Her eyes closed


    and hit her knuckles to keep from sobbing out band. Someone knocked and the door shook a little,


    “July, I know you don’t want to see us, but I just wanted to make sure you were okay?”


    “I’m fine,” she yelled through the door. “Go away, please


    In sighed. “Alright. If you need anything, here’s my number”


    A cand was pabed under the door and the picked it up. ‘Jo^nn, Beta of Hetas, 212-4548‘. She


    flipped it over. “‘Cell: 614-2729. Lily sighed. She wished: she could befortable. She missed


    Lukas, but every time she had picked up the phone to call him, she had been too scared to go


    tirugh


    She wanted to talk to him and see if he would still want her after talking about the huby, but she


    always panicked and hung up, the hit her head against the door. She was almost fully at prace with


    what Loatie had done to her, so why couldn’t she give him a chance? Another knock on the r had


    ber standing up. She cracked the door open to look at Sommer.


    door


    “Are they gone?”


    She nodded. Lily opened the door more to look around the room. Everyone had left, except her and


    Sommer who was excited. She took Lily’s hand and pulled her over to the cars that had multiplied


    from two to four. Sommer began to look through the clothes on the cart while Lily moved between


    them. On the fourth rack, there were stacks of boxes.


    Diapers, wipes, a carseat and tons of baby clothes were carefully situated on it. She blinked in


    surprise and a tear crept down her face. She ran her fingers over the little onesies in every color.


    She picked up one of the small in boxes to open it. Inside, there was the smallest pair of shoes


    she had ever seen. This pair was pink, but the next box held ck tennis shoes for a boy. She


    sighed.


    “Hey, Sommer?”


    “Yeah, Lily?”


    “Do you know what time dinner is?”


    “I do believe it is going on now. It’s 6:30.


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    Lily walked back to the first rack and pulled a summer dress two sizes too big off of it. She quickly


    changed into it and stood in front of the mirror. She turned every direction, eyeing her stomach.


    The baggy dress hid her bump and she touched the mirror. It was obvious she had put weight on.


    Her face was a little bloated and she groaned. Sommer moved behind her and pulled her hair back.


    She put a butterflyb in her hair and Lily turned her head to look at it.


    “What’s this?”


    Sommer put her chin on her shoulder on Lily’s shoulder and wrapped her arms around her waist.


    “It was on the cart that Lukas sent ”


    She turned her head again to look at the perfectly sculpted blue and purple ornateb. Little


    pearls were strategically ced on it and on the back, the initials L L were engraved into it.


    “Who’s LL? My initials are L. W.,” I Lily wandered out loud.


    Land


    Sommer smiled and kissed her cheek. “Last time he was here, he called you Lilianna Lincoln. Not


    washington. All of your clothes arebeled L L all of the baby clothes are monogrammed Baby


    Lincoln. Guess he didn’t want anybody to steal your stuff.”


    “I don’t deserve him.”


    Sommer took her hand and put it on her own face. “Repeat after me, Lily. I am beautiful.”


    “I am beautiful


    **I am worthy.”


    Lily hesitated. “I am worthy.”


    am a survivor.”


    “I am a survivor.”


    She made Lily touch the mirror. “I am perfect just the way I am.”


    Lily’s eyes ran over her reflection. “I am perfect just the way I am,” she whispered, not fully believing


    it.


    Sommer kissed her cheek. “Good. Now, that you are looking like a whole buffet, can we go eat?”


    Lily giggled. Sommer always knew exactly what to say to make her feel better. She loved her for it.


    Sommer led her out of the room and down to dining hall. They ran into Sommer’s mom on the way


    down and she fell into step beside them.


    “Hey, girls. How are you doing?”


    “Hey, Mrs. Ares.”


    to the


    “Come now, Lily. You know better than that.”


    She flushed. Ever since she had gotten to the castle, Sommer’s mom had be her adoptive


    mother. It was nice to have her around. She had had one woman that treated her like she was truly


    her daughter and it made her happy to have one that did again. She smiled.


    “I’m good, Mom. I just wanted to see someone.”


    She grinned and touched her nose. “Tell me, my dear. Could that person be a handsome royal


    member who is supposed to be here today?”


    Lily looked away, blushing. “Maybe.”


    They entered the dining hall and her eyes immediately locked with Lukas’s. She took a step


    towards him, mesmerized by the intensity of the green eyes staring back at her. Her mouth went dry


    and her hands started sweating. She found herself standing directly in front of him in the blink of


    an eye. He didn’t speak. He didn’t reach for her. He didn’t move. He didn’t even breathe. The whole


    room faded into nothingness as her world narrowed to just epass the two of them.


    “Lukas,” she whispered.


    He swallowed. “Lily”


    She opened her mouth and nothing came out. Oh, Goddess, this was so embarrassing. Her hands


    started to nervously y in her skirt.


    “Lukas, L.”


    Her chest tightened and she couldn’t breathe. She took a step back, trying to breathe in deep. Her


    vision blurred and Aiden got up. She swayed and he leapt over the table to catch her. He scooped


    her up and carried her out of the hall. Dots formed behind her eyes and she fainted.


    Lily sat up with her heart pounding wildly. Sommer rubbed her arm.


    “Come on, Lily, Lay back down.”


    “What – what time is it?”


    “It’s 4 AM, honey. You’ve been out for 8 hours. Are you okay? Are you hungry? I can go get you


    food.”


    “No… I just… Ummmm. What happened?”


    “You fainted. Lukas tried toe after you, but Sasha ordered him to stay away from you unless


    you sought him out. I have never seen someone fight amand that hard. He started sweating


    blood. It was actually really cool. Sasha is a bad bitch.”


    Lily nodded as she climbed out of the bed. She walked over to the door. Sommer sat up.


    “Lily, where are you going?”


    She ignored Sommer to follow her nose down two levels and through three hallways. She stopped


    outside of the room she had first slept next to Lukas in. She put her hand on it and sighed. She


    could hear him breathing inside. She swallowed and opened the door. She slipped inside and shut it


    behind her. She hesitated just inside the door.


    “Lukas? Are you awake?”


    “Yeah.”


    “You can’t sleep?”


    “Haven’t been able to in months.”


    She approached the bed. “I was wondering something..”


    “What is it?”


    “Can I sleep in here with you? Before you answer, I know I should not be asking, but I have really


    missed you and I-”


    He lifted the nkets up. “You’re babbling, Lils. Come to bed.”