Chapter 183


    Chapter 183


    Raizel’s jaw was tight, body tense and stiff as he red into the floor. I could feel a surge of emotions


    radiate from him. A frown graced my lips. Walking closer to close the distance between us, I raise my


    hands to cup his face. His eyelids flutter shut the instant my skin touches his. The look ofplete


    satisfaction overtakes his expression, but its short lived. He lets out a heavy sigh, taking my hands in


    his and turns his head to kiss into my palms.


    A lingering kiss on each one before opening those gorgeous steely greys.


    His hands were curled around my wrists loosely, but I felt his fingers tighten around them by a fraction


    when he thins his lips together.


    “I’m sorry, my love.”


    He says lowly,


    “I haven’t beenpletely honest with you.”


    My eyebrows knit together, eyes drinking in the image of this man tormenting himself in front of me.


    Shifting my weight to my other foot, I move forward until we’re barely two inches apart.


    “What’s wrong?”


    I ask softly. Part of me fears what he has to say. All sorts of thoughts ran through my mind. What was


    he talking about? His mate? My heart thundered against my chest at the thought.


    Raizel shakes his head. There’s a slight grimace crossing his features when he takes in a breath. He’s


    nervous, maybe even a little anxious as he straightens his posture. He gathers himself and looks at


    me, eyes staring into my soul with undeterred love.


    “Theres things you deserve to know- need to know. Things I haven’t had the courage to tell you. I won’t


    make you promise to.. stay with me. I can’t do that to you, but please, listen to the very end.Please?”


    I don’t understand why he’s telling me this. I open my mouth to ask but the look he shoots me renders


    me silent. That distant, weary look. So I close my mouth and I nod.


    “I know you have questions about my… mate.”


    I couldn’t stop the flinch raking through me when he says this. I ignore the slight tinge of pain eruptingOriginal content from N?velDrama.Org.


    from my chest. But of course, he notices, eyes snapping to me before they soften into warm silver. The


    hand that held mine tightens as he skims his thumb across my knuckles. A calming gesture to ease my


    nerves. Though right now, it did very little to reassure me.


    The thought of his mate terrifies me.


    It scares me knowing that there could very well be someone out there meant for him. That regardless


    of what Williams and Elizabeth told me of him having no mate, there was.


    That she was just waiting around for the day she meets him, and as selfish as it was for me to think so,


    I didn’t want them to meet.


    And the thought angered me.


    I was so selfish,


    “My family line traces back to the very beginning. To when the Capital was first created, the systems


    and order… Romanuv Locksworth was one of the founders. You’ve heard of him, yes?”


    “Of course. He was the one to propose the division ofnd among packs, The ideal Alpha.”


    Raizel nods, watching his thumb run across my skin.


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    Chapter 183


    “And you heard of his Luna? A nalisa Vendre?”


    “Yes.”


    Raizel stops his ministrations to look at me. The depth of his icy stare hardening in thought before he


    snaps himself out of that trance. As quick as he is to scan my face, he drops his gaze to pur joined


    hands.


    “An alisa wasn’t his true mate. My ancestor traded his destined for a stronger partner. He abandoned


    her. He abandoned his mate because he didn’t deem her worthy to stand by his side.”


    My lips part but nothinges out. shbacks to what happened to me ring in my mind but I force it


    down. Overwhelming emotion wraps around my neck. I felt acid burn in my throat. Disgust chokes me


    as his facees into mind and what happened following suit. F uck. Why was this happening right


    now? I could feel myself stiffen when thoughts of Duskfall threaten to overcloud me. The feelings I tried


    so hard to keep at bay and keep under control now stares me straight on.


    “My ancestor started something that should never have happened. He was the first to reject his mate.


    He broke through the Moon Goddess’ ns. An alisa was the daughter of one of the top packs at the


    time. The rejection led to more than just stronger pups. Allies, money, rank… He was a greedy, bi tch


    with no conscience about his mate. But of course, his selfishness meant he had a price to pay.”


    I hung onto his words, unblinking as he continued. The fingers that curled around his hand grows cold.


    “Every generation since him, was cursed. My grandfather, my father then… me.”


    Raizel frowns, keeping his eyes trained on the ridges of my knuckles. I can feel the tension in his body


    rise up. The knots in his muscles visible under his thin shirt.


    “Every generation can only have one child. A boy. To ensure the Locksworth line doesn’t end and to


    pass on the curse. A never-ending cycle.”


    He stops himself to nce up at me. The look he gives me break my heart. It’s the face he made that


    told me he wasn’t expecting me to stay. The look ofplete resignation and hopelessness.


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