chapter 170


    Thaddeus Pov


    How fucking dare he threaten to take our daughter. I was fucking over him and the dramatics, he


    needed to man up.


    “Just go calm down” Rnd tells me when I wanted nothing more then to go in there and rip him to


    fucking pieces.


    “Go Thaddeus, go blow off some steam” Rnd says. I look over my shoulder and can see my


    father and mother watching worriedly.


    “Nothing to see mum go inside” I yell to her.


    “Stop Thaddeus just go now you''re just trying to pick a fight, your mother is only worried about you,


    we all are, now just go” Rnd says, giving me a push. I look to the shed where my mates and


    daughter are.


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    “Come with me” I tell him and he looks behind him. “Be like old times just the two of us” I tell him


    and I could feel the longing within him, he missed being in control, he missed the fear people had of us.


    “I can’t, we have a child now, we can’t do those things anymore” He says.


    “Fine, don''t worry about it” I tell him, turning around and unlocking my car.


    “Thaddeus….. Fine just give me a second, I wille but no killing anyone” He says rushing back


    inside. I hop in the car and he takes a few minutes beforeing out fully dressed hopping in the


    passenger seat.


    “So where are we going?” He asks.


    “Home”


    “Why?” he asked and I could feel he didn’t want to go back there. When I first did I felt sick to my


    stomach, but Rnd I built that ce together, I couldn’t just throw it away like it meant nothing. It was


    home.


    “You’re fixing it aren''t you?” I say nothing, I wasn’t sure what I was doing, I had been cleaning up


    what''s left and salvaging what I could.


    “She won’t want to go back there Thaddeus, it won’t bring him back”


    “I know that, I just”- I wasn’t sure what I wanted. I didn’t have the answer for this. I just wanted


    things back to the way they were, yet I knew they never truly would be.


    “You just what Thaddeus, Orion thinks you have been off on killing sprees, when really you have


    been at home?”


    “I was on a killing spree. I have only been back here twice” I tell him. I didn’t need to hide from


    Rnd, he knew me and didn’t really judge because deep down he is the same, he used to live for the


    hunt, the chase, the screams.


    “Then Why? Why are we heading home?”


    “I don’t know, Rnd I just can’t be here anymore. I can’t handle the pity in my parents eyes, you


    think I don''t know they me me for another thing I failed at, I couldn''t even protect them” I tell him.


    “No one thinks you failed, you can’t predict a gas explosion”


    “What if Evie is right, what if it has something to do with our past?”


    “Then we deal with it, but this isn''t going to work. She won’t go back there. I don’t even want to go


    back there”


    “Then what do you suggest, I am too old to be living at home with mummy?” I tell him with a growl.


    “Come house hunting with me tomorrow, it will calm Orion down. But you need to do something


    about Evelyn, Amara needs her mother Thaddeus” They always choose her, choose her over me now


    that she is here. I knew it was ridiculous to be jealous but I missed when it was just the three of us.


    Everything was simple then, now it’s just one big clusterfuck.


    “I know she hurt you but please even if you don’t do it for her do it for me and Mara, Please


    Thaddeus” Rnd says gripping my knee.


    “She hates me” I tell him and he shakes his head as I pull the car over.


    “She doesn’t hate you, she is just grieving and taking it out on you, she is angry. Both of you are to


    stubborn, for once be the bigger person and just do this and you can go back to ignoring her till things


    settle down”


    “If she doesn’te around then what, you all leave me?” I ask.


    “No one is leaving anyone, we are all mates” He says.


    “Yeah well everytime something goes wrong, you all pick sides and it is never mine” I tell him


    before turning the car around.


    “What about the house though we can’t leave it like that?”


    “I will send some people to clean it up” Rnd answers and I nod before turning the car around


    and heading back home. I hated being stuck there with everyone''s gloomy faces, pulling up out the


    front I could hear Mara screaming uncontrobly, hear Orion frantically trying to calm her. His emotions


    all over the ce smashed into me. I usually tune them out, not able to deal with their heartache. Orion


    was always so well together but feeling his raw emotions now I could feel he was breaking. Guilt


    flooding me over earlier and I hop out of the car.


    Hurriedly rushing toward the house, Evelyn still sitting staring off vacantly while Orion tries to calm


    Mara. It annoyed me how she can sit through that and not want to soothe her own daughter. “Please


    just stop crying” I hear Orion tell her as he tries to rock her, while sitting on the end of the bed. I walk


    over to him cing my hand on his shoulder. He looked up at me and I could see tears of frustration in


    his eyes.


    “Let me try” I tell him and he passes her to me. I cradle her in my arms rocking her. She slowly


    calms down and I see Orion go out for a smoke, Rnd following after him leaving me with Mara and


    Evelyn. I re at her pissed off she was right here yet so far out of reach. Once Mara was calmed


    down I walked outside with her asleep.


    “Where are you going?” Orion asks, jumping to his feet rmed.


    “Letting mum take her for the night, she keeps offering” I tell him.


    “No I am fine, just goy her down I will be back in, in a sec” He says but I keep walking toward the


    house.


    “Thaddeus I can handle her,” I stop looking back at him and his frazzled state, he was tired,and


    mentally and physically exhausted.


    “I didn’t say you couldn’t but we need a break, let mum take her” I tell him, Rnd squeezed his


    shoulder and he finally rxed before nodding. I take her to the main house and walk in to find my


    father sitting on the lounge.


    “Where’s mum?” I ask him as he hops off the lounge walking toward me. He smiles down at Mara


    asleep in my arms. He holds his arms out for her and I ce her in them. Rnd walked in looking


    around.


    “Where’s mum?” he asks.


    “Upstairs showering, she is fine I can take her. Orion doesn’t like handing her over I am surprised


    you managed to convince him”


    “He is just scared for her” I tell my father just as my mother walks down the steps.


    “Finally he is letting us take her for a night” She says walking over. I watch as she runs her fingers


    through my father’s hair. His green eyes sparkling back at her.


    “So you good to take her for the night?”


    “Of course” My father says walking back to the lounge with her, I wouldn''t be surprised if he held


    her all night, he didn’t need sleep, not like my other father or my mother and for a so-called big scary


    vampire Mara had him wrapped around her finger.


    Rnd hands the baby bag over that Orion must have rushed in to make.


    “Go be with your mates she is fine, we know what we are doing besides you will hear her anyway”


    My mother says rubbing my back, I nod walking out. When we got back inside Orion wasying on the


    bed staring at the ceiling.


    “Don’t you zone out too” I tell him climbing on the bed beside him.


    “I won’t” He whispers and I pull him closer so he rests his head on my chest. “You came back” He


    states.


    “I’m sorry” I tell him, the words stinging as they slide off my tongue, I hate apologising no matter


    how much I have had to, it still feels unnatural.


    Orion props his chin on my chest looking at me. His hair falling in his eyes as he had let it grow out


    over thest couple of months. I brush it back before cupping his cheek, his stubble rough against my


    palm.


    The darkness makes it hard for me to see past my anger. I knew they wanted me to give it up and I


    know it was selfish keeping it. But having it back I felt more alive than ever, it numbed the pain my


    anger overshadowing the loss.


    "Can you wake her please, I know you can," he says and I look over at her. My anger is


    dissipating. By letting her remain like that I was hurting them not punishing her. Although I knew she


    didn''t deserve to be punished she was hurting more than any of us. She had him grow inside her, felt


    his kicks. Her womb full with her heart and now it''s gone, she awoke empty with nothing to show for it,


    no baby in her arms crying for its mother. Just empty arms and empty inside.


    "Yes, I will bring her back" I tell him when he suddenly sits up leaning over me. His lips pressing


    down on mine and I could feel his desperation, as his tongue plunged into my mouth. It matched mine,


    wanting to feel anything other than sadness.


    I kiss him back, needing him as much as he needs me. Longing fills me when I feel the bed dip


    Rnd climbing on the bed next to me. I pull on Orion''s pants before reaching my hand in and


    grabbing his hardening length. He groans into my mouth, his cock twitching in my hand as I run my


    hand up his shaft.


    Pushing on his shoulder heys back and I climb on top of him kissing him as he removes his


    pants underneath me. I nip at his mark and he shivers as my teeth graze his skin. I sink my teeth into


    him, drinking from him, before running my tongue over his neck sealing my bite before moving lower


    nipping and kissing his skin and the hard muscles underneath it.


    Moving between his legs I grab his cock, he thrusts into my hand and I watch my own dick


    twitching painfully in my pants as I watch Rnd lean over him and kiss him as I take his length in my


    mouth.


    Evelyn POV


    Time slips by when stuck in your own head. Time is measured differently here. An hour feels like


    mere seconds, I wasn''t sure how long I was stuck nor did I try to leave time escaping me. I was left to


    my own thoughts and feelings no longer consumed with theirs.


    The mind is the most torturous ce as it makes you go over every little detail, everything and


    leaving nothing out. My thoughts haunting me in repeat as I relived that day over and over looking for


    what I missed. Did I leave a burner on, on the stove, did I bump it when I tried to walk past. Was it


    something, did I miss something? My mind is gued with questions and consumed with doubt.


    Pulling every thought and memory apart piece by piece trying to repuzzle it together to figure out


    where I went wrong, what I missed. When suddenly I gave up, forcing myself back which is hard. Orion


    has told me different ways toe back but doing them was something else. Trying to pick up on


    emotions from them when you have shut them out for so long was like trying to find a needle in a


    haystack as I sifted through my own feelings trying to find theirs to pull on.


    Finding a flicker of emotion from Rnd I try to reach it, let it consume me and force me out of


    myself, astonished when it works before anger floods me when I wake. The room materialising around


    me instead of the darkness of my own head. Amara''s roomes into view and I look to the bed.


    I put my walls up blocking them out when I found them together, that didn''t bother me. We are all


    mates after all. What bothered me was that we just lost our child and they were going around like we


    lost nothing.


    Getting up I walk over to my daughter''s cot only she isn''t in it. What? They got rid of her so easily


    too? I think to myself before quietly walking out and toward the main house, it was dark. The sky is


    filled with stars, the night sky is clear out here. I open the door walking in and find Theo on the lounge


    my daughter tucked in his arms.


    He looks startled to see me as I walk over and I lean over the lounge kissing her sleeping little


    head. Straightening up I peck Theo''s forehead.


    "Where''s ma?" I ask him and he points to the roof, telling me she is in bed.


    "Amara?"


    "Went to Bianca’s" he says and I go to walk off when his hand grabs mine that was ced next to


    his shoulder.


    "You okay?" He asks and I nod, how do you answer that? I don''t think I will ever be okay, I''ll just


    learn to live with it.


    "Did you see them?" He asks.


    "I saw them, they didn''t see me. They were preupied" I tell him walking into the kitchen. Theo


    walks in a few seconds after me and I look at his empty arms.


    "On the lounge safely tucked away,e here" he says. I hesitate before walking over, he wraps


    his arms around me hugging me. I hugged him back, I had the best inws who always treated me like


    their own. I suddenly feel another set of arms wrap around me. Imogen''s scent hits my nose as she


    hugs me from behind.


    I let out a shaky breath suddenly flooded with all the emotions I have been ignoring. I step back


    and they both let go. Imogen cupping my cheek with her hands softly before walking toward the kettle


    and flicking it on.