chapter 140 Thirty-Eight


    Evelyn’s POV


    My body was killing I when I woke up, every muscle aching like I ran a marathon. Stretching, I roll


    ande nose to nose with Thaddeus. His eyes wide open staring back me and I couldn’t help the


    squeal of fright opening my eyes to his green ones so close. He says nothing just watching me sending


    a shiver up my spine with how hollow he looked, empty and emotionless. My heart pounding in my


    chest before palpitating. Fear something, I had grown used to, but it never got any more weing,


    you could never get used to the feeling, even though fear I regrly felt it, it never became familiar or


    I felt a knot form in my stomach and wriggled away from him. “Do I scare you?” he asks his


    eyebrows furrowing. “Sometimes” I answer honestly. Well, most of the time he does but usually I can


    get rid of the fear or push it aside, look past it even. This felt different though. The fear felt different, it


    wasn’t what he could do to me, but rather what he could make me do to myself. That was a different


    level of fear knowing he had that sort of control, that level of power over me. It’s one thing influencing


    someone’s actions, another when they a vulnerable and unable to help themselves, like the puppet on


    the strings and right now I was his puppet, he got to choose what happened next. The ultimate control


    and knowing he had that sort of control over me, scared me. He could ask me to kill myself and I


    wouldn’t be able to stop myself from doing it.


    “Am I scaring you now?” he asks rolling on his back.


    “Yes” I tell him. He seems to think, and I go to sit up and get off the bed when his hand grabs my


    wrist.


    “Lay back down” he answers, his voice leaving no room for argument and I do as I am told.


    “Why do I scare you?” he asks, letting go of my wrist. How could he ask that? How does he not


    see anything wrong with his actions?


    “Because I am your puppet, your little breakable toy you can do what you want with.”


    “You don’t trust the decisions I make for you?” he asks still looking up at the roof.


    “No, why would I. You made me wet myself,” I tell him, my cheeks burning just at the thought of it.


    “But did it work? Will you run again?” he asks.


    “You mean did you seed in humiliating me, yes you seeded. Nothing more degrading then


    be deprived of something so basic,” I tell him and his head snaps to the side looking at me.


    “But will you run?” he asks again this time putting his demand behind it, but I don’t even fight


    against it.


    “First chance I fucking get,” I spit at him.


    Thaddeus growls before jumping on me, pinning me beneath him. I try to kick him off, but he just


    presses between my legs, his face barely an inch off mine.


    “You will never leave my side, Evelyn, and even if you somehow managed it, you woulde


    back. The mate bond would see to that,” he tells me. I shake my head, his hands gripping my wrists


    tighter pushing them into the mattress.


    “I hate you,” I tell him, and he smiles sadistically. I could feel the darkness within him, consuming


    him.


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    “And I love you,” he says, his eyes glowing hypnotically back at me.


    “You have a funny way of showing it. Do you treat everyone you love like this, or is that part of you


    reserved for me only?” I tell him.


    Thaddeus growls his nose running along my jaw to my neck. “They know their ce is beside me,


    they know I would never do anything to bring them harm intentionally, yet you disobeyed me. I didn’t


    think you would be stupid enough to go alone after that woman threatened you and put yourself in


    unnecessary danger.”


    I know I shouldn’t y with fire but fuck it. I already been burned before.


    “The only time I find myself in danger is when I am around you,” I tell him. His grip tightens before


    he pushes off his arms sitting up, his hands shaking as he clenches them at his side and for a second, I


    thought he was going to punch me. The darkness inside him, eating away the good parts turning them


    dark.


    That’s when I realised something, all this talk about me being his puppet yet he was also a puppet


    to the darkness, a puppet to his own mind. Cruel and unforgiving just as he is to me.


    It didn’t change anything though; he still did what he did. Thaddeus breathing bes heavy, the


    lights flickering as he fought against himself. He wanted to hurt me, and I knew he would enjoy it when


    does because there was a part of him that enjoyed others pain, enjoyed their fear.


    When was thest time he fed? I mentally questioned myself. The darkness was always worse


    when he hadn’t fed for a while, but he fed off me the other day, surely his bloodlust wasn’t that bad?


    His entire body trembling and I gulped my mouth suddenly feeling like I was trying to swallow down


    sand. His eyes turning to pitch ck orbs as they snapped toward me. The lights flickering before the


    entire house shook like an earthquake.


    “Run,” he said, and I stared stunned before he screamed. “Fucking run,” He bellowed, and I


    jumped off the bed but not quick enough before he lunged at me. His hands gripping my ankle ripping


    me to the ground. Where were they? Did they leave?


    “Orion, Rnd” I scream petrified. Turning on my side, I use my other leg kicking him as hard as I


    could in the face. He lets go and I scramble to my feet before being tackled and thrown violently


    through the barrier, plummeting to the ground below.


    Everything moving in slow motion, and I thought I was going to die when I felt him grab me, ripping


    me toward him before turning so he was underneath me as we hit the floor below. Landing on his


    chest, knocking the wind out of me. For a second his grip was gentle, his eyes their vibrant hypnotic


    green before something inside him flipped going to the monster, his grip tightening around my waist


    and I feel the air leave my lungs.


    “Thaddeus” I choke out. His head turning to the side, this wasn’t him. This was something


    demonic, like looking into the eyes of the devil, his eyes bottomless pits of darkness threatening to suck


    me into their void.


    “Thaddeus” I gasp, and I can feel my ribs cracking as thest bit of air leaves my lungs. I scratch


    his face, needing air as it is being squeezed out of me. My hand dropping as I be weaker and


    weaker. The gross feeling of my eyes rolling into the back of my head.


    When suddenly he lets go, his arms unravelling around me and I gasp for air, my eyes fluttering


    open to see Rnd and Orion both gripping his arms prying them off me.


    “Run Evelyn” Orion yells to me and I force myself to move, running for the front door. I swing it


    open and freeze. I couldn’t take another step, physically couldn’t do it, I tried everything but all I did was


    give myself a worse headache and coat myself in sweat. I could hear things crashing around before I


    hear Rnd’s voice making me eyes dart to him.


    “Shit” he says when he realises, I can’t leave the house.


    “You’re going to have to run with her” Orion grunts to Rnd before being flung into the firece


    as they try and hold him back.


    “It could kill her” Rnd yells to him, just as Thaddeus grips Rnd’s throat making me scream.


    Thaddeus eyes snapping toward me near the door. His eyes shing like he is trying to remember who


    I am, fighting with himself, his head snapping towards Rnd and his grip lets go as he gains control


    slightly before I feel the darkness consume him again. That split second distraction enough to get Orion


    back on his feet as he tackles Thaddeus to the ground.


    What the fuck is going on? I just don’t get it, I didn’t understand how he could get this bad, just shift


    personalities like this, one second calm the next he was like a hurricane.